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I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!
 
Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@... wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!
 
ALOT of us have been there Al. So[/IMG]</var>
  Hail our Creator God Satan.
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 11:41 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating

  Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@... wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!

 
<td val[/IMG]Like Shannon said we have all been there brother.To me its like the more we advance the more we are attacted with these thoughts that are not our own.None us us is exempt from them and the more desperate our enemy gets the harder the try to put a wrench in our advancement.All we can do is recommit to our spiritual activities again and show them they will not ever stop us.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android [/TD]
From: Al <al_reyes666@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Trouble meditating
Sent: Fri, Jun 8, 2012 7:29:59 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!

[/TD]
 
 Thanks lydia although im back on my feet thanks to satan. I had a talk with father that night and he cheered me up. By morning that feeling of shame was gone and i got my endurance back. I feel much beter now, just as good as when i began meditating. Im going to vibrate uruz like you said. I know one thing for shure i dont ever want to be in that position EVER again, i felt defeated it was a horrible feeling. Thanks again lydia.  HAIL SATAN!

From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 8:41 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating

  Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@... wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!

 
 Thanks shannon i feel much beter now. Im going to vibrate uruz and affirm it to keep me going. ...Satan brought me back on my feet... now i just have to stay standing. I also noticed ive been lagging void meditation BIG TIME. I forgot how important void meditation is. But anyways i really appreciate all your help and know that i only kiss ass when I MEAN IT :-*  HAIL SATAN!
From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 12:10 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating

  ALOT of us have been there Al. So[/IMG]</var>
  Hail our Creator God Satan.
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 11:41 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating

  Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@... wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!



 
 Yeah good thing they only had me for 12 hours. I noticed ever since i started spreading the truth on p.s.n they've been attacking me harder than before. Im guessing im the only S.S on there. My name is joyofsataan.com so i can see why they clearly want me out of psn where you encounter more than 200 players a day. Thats like throwing stacks of joyofsatan cards in many  public places.  HAIL SATAN!
From: Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@...
To: "[email protected]" <[email protected]; "al_reyes666@..." <al_reyes666@...
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 12:34 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] Trouble meditating

 
<td val[/IMG]Like Shannon said we have all been there brother.To me its like the more we advance the more we are attacted with these thoughts that are not our own.None us us is exempt from them and the more desperate our enemy gets the harder the try to put a wrench in our advancement.All we can do is recommit to our spiritual activities again and show them they will not ever stop us.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android [/TD]
From: Al <al_reyes666@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Trouble meditating
Sent: Fri, Jun 8, 2012 7:29:59 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!

[/TD]

 
Always glad to help :)

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <al_reyes666@... wrote:

 Thanks lydia although im back on my feet thanks to satan. I had a talk with father that night and he cheered me up. By morning that feeling of shame was gone and i got my endurance back. I feel much beter now, just as good as when i began meditating. Im going to vibrate uruz like you said. I know one thing for shure i dont ever want to be in that position EVER again, i felt defeated it was a horrible feeling. Thanks again lydia. 
 
HAIL SATAN!


________________________________
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 8:41 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating


 
Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@ wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts. BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that. Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now. Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy
has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT
COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!
 
If your guardian demon and the powers of hell were not protecting you from those parasites, they would would not just be hiding in the dark. Think of all the things that those assholes did when you were younger. The mind games they played with you while you were sleeping. To induce fear. Since fear is what they feed off of.)THIS DISGUSTS ME JUST THINKING ABOUT IT) They are getting to you now if you think that Satan and the Powers of Hell are not granting you protection from real enemy attacks. Hopefully this doesn't have to be said, but stay strong in your meditations and enjoy your meditations, for that, is our FATHER's first and best gift to us.
Hail Satan.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Like Shannon said we have all been there brother.To me its like the more we advance the more we are attacted with these thoughts that are not our own.None us us is exempt from them and the more desperate our enemy gets the harder the try to put a wrench in our advancement.All we can do is recommit to our spiritual activities again and show them they will not ever stop us.


Sent from Yahoo! Mail on Android
 
Glad you're feeling better, Brother! Trust in Father Satan, and trust
in yourself. Hail Father Satan always!

On 6/11/12, lydia_666@... <lydia_666@... wrote:
Always glad to help :)

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Al Reyes <al_reyes666@... wrote:

 Thanks lydia although im back on my feet thanks to satan. I had a talk
with father that night and he cheered me up. By morning that feeling of
shame was gone and i got my endurance back. I feel much beter now, just as
good as when i began meditating. Im going to vibrate uruz like you said. I
know one thing for shure i dont ever want to be in that position EVER
again, i felt defeated it was a horrible feeling. Thanks again lydia.Â
Â
HAIL SATAN!


________________________________
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Sunday, June 10, 2012 8:41 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating


Â
Try vibrating Uruz and/or Ansuz. Uruz or motivations and action, Ansuz to
overcome obstacles. I read (or maybe it was on an audio cd) in a sermon by
HPS Maxine that runes should be vibrated at least 25 times to be
effective. And personally, the Icelandic vibrations feel more powerful to
me, so try the different languages to see what works best for you.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Al" <al_reyes666@ wrote:

I just got back from yet another bad meditation and im really pissed
off. I feel like im losing my grip and i almost dont know why. My main
problem is EFFORT and motivation. I have recently started destroying the
enemy links and i feel beter afterwards but its like every night that
little shit puts another one on me. I was doing fine a while back I
could feel my chakras and my energy with no hesitation. I was at the
point where my thoughts began to manifest. Now i feel like our father is
guiding me so that i may be able to CONTROL those manifested thoughts.
BUT that was more than half a year ago and now i know that im not
putting enough time and effort into my meditations so it cant be that.
Im really in the dark here i dont know if its because of my dramatic
schedule change or what but i feel like going on a rampage right now.
Perhaps im putting more effort in my workouts that im lacking energy at
work and in my meditations. It feels like the enemy
has lowered my morale like there trying to get me to stop doing
everything good that im doing. I really just want to rest in my room in
the dark for a week or two without any contact with the outside world so i
can find myself again. I hate having to ask for help from anybody because
it damages my pride but this time i just cant help it. Anybody been here
before? Anybody know a way that i can get back on track. Is there a rune i
can vibrate to give me that motivation to continue my routines ? The
moment i grab a dumbell its " ugh " The moment i go to meditate its "Ugh i
just want to finish this quickly" The moment i begin work its " Fuck why
is a teenager the only man here" ........................NEVER IN MY LIFE
HAVE I EVER BEEN SO LOW!! NEVER HAVE I BEEN SO ASHAMED OF MYSELF! IM SICK
OF THIS! I WISH MY GUARDIAN CAN PROJECT ME AND HAVE A TALK WITH ME TO
RAISE MY MORALE BUT IM NOT AT THAT FUCKING LEVEL YET! BETER YET WHY CANT
SHE PROJECT ME TO THAT
COCKSUCKING GREY THAT BEEN COWARDING IN THE DARK POKING ME EVERY CHANCE
IT FUCKING GETS!!! FUCK GREYS!! FUCK THOSE REPTILIAN COCKSUCKING FAT ASS
FUCKING LIZARDS THEY CAN ALL SUCK MY FUCKING DICK!
 
<td val[/IMG]I'm getting aware that I got a huge psychic attack for make me persuade that Father Satan is a liar and that he creates only fake illusions. Well, I really don't think so. Even if I won't come back with my boyfriend I will stay loyal and I will keep loving Father Satan. Damned angels!

"THERE IS NO GOD BUT MYSELF" "KNOWING THIS, WHO DARES WORSHIP THE FALSE GODS OF THE KORAN AND BIBLE?"
-SATAN
FROM THE QU'RET AL-YEZID

--- Lun 11/6/12, carstensd13 <carstensd13@... ha scritto:
Da: carstensd13 <carstensd13@...
Oggetto: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Trouble meditating
A: [email protected]
Data: Lunedì 11 giugno 2012, 09:47

 
If your guardian demon and the powers of hell were not protecting you from those parasites, they would would not just be hiding in the dark. Think of all the things that those assholes did when you were younger. The mind games they played with you while you were sleeping. To induce fear. Since fear is what they feed off of.)THIS DISGUSTS ME JUST THINKING ABOUT IT) They are getting to you now if you think that Satan and the Powers of Hell are not granting you protection from real enemy attacks. Hopefully this doesn't have to be said, but stay strong in your meditations and enjoy your meditations, for that, is our FATHER's first and best gift to us.
Hail Satan.

--- In [[email protected]][email protected][/email], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Like Shannon said we have all been there brother.To me its like the more we advance the more we are attacted with these thoughts that are not our own.None us us is exempt from them and the more desperate our enemy gets the harder the try to put a wrench in our advancement.All we can do is recommit to our spiritual activities again and show them they will not ever stop us.


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Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an don't want it now)


I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as much as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able to meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy (I know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a satanist.


I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.


Thanks,




Katie


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Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an don't want it now)


I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as much as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able to meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy (I know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a satanist.


I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.


Thanks,




Katie
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You have everything you need to be successful at meditation. This road
is hard and is not a joke!! Power meditation is not even hard at all,
it just take practice! So please do not come up with the excuse of "I
cannot meditate" You can and you have the power to become a God! I'm a
just giving you advice :) If you really need help then my advise Is
for you to ask a Demon and especially read this PDF file. It will give
you a good set of meditations to do daily. Make sure you have nothing
else distracting you from your meditations! Here is the PDF
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf
Be strong and hail Satan!!


On 4/26/15, Katie Blundell katie.b.1995@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:
Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an
answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an
don't want it now)


I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as much
as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've
respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able to
meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy (I
know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I
haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway
because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a
satanist.


I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.


Thanks,




Katie


Sent from my iPhone
 
By the way I don't think that PDF is working anymore I will find you
the new one :) Here it is
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf


On 4/26/15, joshua branch <joshbranch.498@... wrote:
You have everything you need to be successful at meditation. This road
is hard and is not a joke!! Power meditation is not even hard at all,
it just take practice! So please do not come up with the excuse of "I
cannot meditate" You can and you have the power to become a God! I'm a
just giving you advice :) If you really need help then my advise Is
for you to ask a Demon and especially read this PDF file. It will give
you a good set of meditations to do daily. Make sure you have nothing
else distracting you from your meditations! Here is the PDF
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf
Be strong and hail Satan!!

On 4/26/15, Katie Blundell katie.b.1995@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an
answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an
don't want it now)


I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as
much
as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've
respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able
to
meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy
(I
know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I
haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway
because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a
satanist.


I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.


Thanks,




Katie


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Satan just wants you to do the best you can, he's a very, very understanding being and would understand that you're having problems. It's good to trust him on that. As for getting better concentration, I would say do a lot of void meditation and start on the 40 Day Meditation Program by Hooded Cobra. I have gone through the same thing before, you're not alone. Welcome to Spiritual Satanism by the way, may you find enlightenment down the left hand path.
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf



On Sunday, April 26, 2015 2:39 AM, "Katie Blundell katie.b.1995@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


 

Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an don't want it now)

I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as much as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able to meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy (I know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a satanist.

I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.

Thanks,

Katie

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Satan's not going to punish you or anything just because you missed some meditation--just start again/don't put it off, keep continuing, and you'll be fine :)Hail Satan!
 
yes. that money magic pdf isnt working anymore.



On Sunday, April 26, 2015 10:47 PM, "joshua branch joshbranch.498@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  By the way I don't think that PDF is working anymore I will find you
the new one :) Here it is
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf

On 4/26/15, joshua branch <joshbranch.498@... wrote:
You have everything you need to be successful at meditation. This road
is hard and is not a joke!! Power meditation is not even hard at all,
it just take practice! So please do not come up with the excuse of "I
cannot meditate" You can and you have the power to become a God! I'm a
just giving you advice :) If you really need help then my advise Is
for you to ask a Demon and especially read this PDF file. It will give
you a good set of meditations to do daily. Make sure you have nothing
else distracting you from your meditations! Here is the PDF
http://webzoom.freewebs.com/satanismgr/ ... stries.pdf
Be strong and hail Satan!!

On 4/26/15, Katie Blundell katie.b.1995@... [JoyofSatan666]
<[email protected] wrote:


Hi,
I have a question an I would be thankful to anyone who can give me an
answer,but please nothing bad or rude towards me(ive grew up with it an
don't want it now)


I've been a satanist since September or October and have meditated as
much
as I can (although I do struggle with concentration a lot) and I've
respected satan and always will. But since Wednesday I have not been able
to
meditate at all an I have struggled more than usual due to lack of energy
(I
know why my energy is so low), but would it bother the amazing satan if I
haven't been able to meditate? I would not want to upset him in anyway
because I am so thankful he accepted me when I changed and became a
satanist.


I would appreciate any replies,as low bf as they're not hurtful.


Thanks,




Katie


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This is why I advised you to download it :/

I already have it downloaded but I won't upload it because of those prying eyes who would love to gain access to my computer entirely.

I just looked and it can be found in the files section here :)
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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