exarkuun1991
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- Nov 20, 2010
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I have done some past life regression tonight, this sunday night. Technically monday morning, as it is just past midnight. However, what I saw, might not sleep, and probably wouldn't sleep well. I think I jumped into this too far, too fast. I see some..terrible things I did in just ONE life. Part of me wishes they were false, but they feel too real. Unlikely to be the enemy, as despite what I saw, I feel closer to Father (and yes I was in a trance, using the Eihwaz rune. Finally learned how to pronounce it, after using the Mannaz rune..cheating, aren't I?).. If it was them, they failed. But i have made grave mistakes. I have tortured innocent people, with what appears to be an alteration of biokinesis..it was terrifying to watch again. I tortured children because I believed it was my purpose.. Now I see why my astrology chart says "fix past errors". Still not figured out what all those ley line messages are about, though. Does the pain just stop in its own? Feels like Pandora's box. It is open; I am aware of how evil and monstrous I have been. I don't want to use my powers like that again, but, I did not get everything from the past. There are still secrets hidden.. I feel I must dive further. Should I, or should I wait? And yes, I am somewhat..actually, no beating around, I'm pretty damn good at using runes. I've just needed to awaken to hat I AM in this world, what I can do. Please, assist where possible. Advice is welcome. I have no choice, some day I must dig through all my lives. A secret is buried and must be discovered..so my instincts tell me. May Father be praised, and my photo stop autocucumbering to "Fsther"! Dammit! Stupid phone, with a tiny uncomfortable touch screen..