I think the expression "The X Question" is a colloquialism, because it's used in other contexts too and it doesn't often mean an actual, literal question. I
am glad to see another Grammar Nazi on board though. You should use your nitpickiness in service to Father. Go scour through the ToZ,
HP Cobra is looking for people like us.
Also, in all likelihood, the feeling of something getting pushed or pulled out of you is the feeling of jewish curses, negative energies, thoughtforms, bindings, etc. being dislodged and banished from your soul. The F-Ritual is not only service to the Gods and humanity but also highly empowering, liberating and beneficial to oneself as well. This is why one should incorporate it into their daily routine strongly.
... You seemingly don't know what the "SATANAS meditation" is, which in all likelihood also means you simply don't raise energies prior to a working as you should, ...
Brother(?), raising energies prior to any magickal working whatsoever is vital. ...
Oh and, I almost forgot to mention. A large part of the reason you may be feeling off is that you are probably not cleansing sufficiently (if at all) following an Ritual session. ...
Raise enough energies and cleanse well enough and trust me, in no time at all, you will be feeling downright enraptured after a good Ritual session. It's a healthy high!