First of all, my chart is predominantly composed of water signs. I involuntarily think about someone, and when I cut off the energy, I feel slightly relieved, but it doesn't work. I place the fire element in a ball shape on their chakras, and suddenly I feel extremely relaxed. Actually, I don't want to deal with these things; attacking isn't for me. By the way, it feels like my navel chakra is tightening, but I feel relieved when I put the element on that person. When I draw energy from the planets, my energy increases when I'm tired, but I still have ingrained fears. Actually, I don't want to worship a god as a power meditation and deal with these things. By the way, life is really difficult; I want to deal with scientific things. Human relationships don't appeal to me. I wish I didn't think about past events, but cutting off the energy is difficult for me. Give me a few techniques. I don't want to attack anyone. Actually, clearing the energy channels is tiring. I wish I could be someone who is completely unaffected by anything, but it's not possible.
Okay. Let's take it one step at a time.
First, cleansing our aura and chakras is absolutely essential. It's especially important if we're just starting out on this Zevist path.
You say, "I don't want to hurt anyone," but don't do the harm. Cleanse and strengthen yourself, and escalate the situation in accordance with ethics and the new knowledge that has been shared in ToZ. This is a great opportunity for growth.
Cleansing can sometimes be exhausting, but it's temporary. Complaining or blaming ourselves won't do much good. We just need to stay focused on the purpose, which in this case is cleansing.
Cleansing doesn't have to be boring. In fact, you can do yoga to cleanse; you can even exercise with that intention. Do the physical exercises, and afterward, practice some pranayama and program the energy you generated with these practices.
Many of us find it tedious to just sit around and do nothing. In fact, body movement in meditative practices has a function, which is precisely to release rigidity in the body, resulting in a more fluid body. This is reflected externally.
Here, too, it's a matter of perception, of how you approach meditative practices. Like everything in life, when we begin something, it's normal to experience resistance, but the point here isn't to fight it. Accept the flow of that resistance and transform it into its opposite: strength, determination, and willpower.
There are many things you can do in terms of meditation, and everything influences the type of meditation you find yourself in. Here are some links to help you:
Change your perspective a little, learn, read at the Temple of Zeus every day, do physical things, work for the Gods, actively seek guidance from the Gods, and you will see how little by little your body gains strength and vigor.
And as I've said, join the Rituals that are being performed now. This is truly an immense opportunity and blessing from the Gods for us. Do it and see for yourself.
You've described bodily sensations that resonate with you. Pay attention to what relates to you: what relaxes you, what you enjoy, and which elements are best for you. You mentioned having a strong water element, so explore the water element and its opposite, understand it, and apply it to yourself. Everything originates within; the responsibility lies with me, not others. I must take responsibility for what I can do to improve, what I need right now to move forward. Reflect on yourself. Write it down if you need to, and keep going. Don't dwell on complaining or blaming yourself. Feeling tired is perfectly valid, but the difference lies in how I respond to that tiredness. Do I give up? Do I complain more? Or do I take action on what I need to do?
Human relationships don't appeal to me.
Regarding this, I experienced it, but it was temporary. We are social by nature; isolation can work for certain periods, usually when you're on intensive cleansing programs, but you shouldn't stay there, in isolation. We are community beings; ToZ is founded on that principle.
Open yourself to the Gods, accept their energy, their blessings, and that will also be reflected externally with humanity.
