I want to take a break from this for a while :(

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

The fact you aren't doing nothing physically to improve your situation is not some magical problem emerging from another planet, it's an obvious material denial problem and you showing incapability or laziness to fix this problem.

You assumed that spiritual means would somehow replace all necessities of menial life or replace what you need to be doing but this is not the case. Also, nobody told you ever that this is the case, you just assumed it yourself. You clearly tried to use Satanism as a form of escapism and this never ends well.

Better get yourself up, get a job, and start having a life before it is too late.

 

[Merkabaforce]

This could be block in the soul and have you checked your astrology chart to know how it is,this may come a long way.
No body said if you join satanism your life will just improve unless you improve it yourself,the gods will only be there to help you but you also need to help yourself,there is a lot of competition for money so just doing one money spell may not be enough and not to talk of you need power to manifest what you want quicker,do you meditate,if you don't you should,clean your aura daily and empower your soul things will start to improve naturally.
The enemy can also get you down with this so you shouldnt allow your self to get beat down by them,go out and look for job and empower your self and your situation will improve.

By the way demon communication comes with opening of the astral senses so if you haven't done so no need to complain of how you can't communicate with demons,you can't speak to some one on a telephone without first activating the signal same goes with astral communication.

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

Perhaps your AoP sucks, if your life has been crap since the day you came to Satan. Enemy attacks and all that. Also, did you actually dedicate? Some people don't, which is why their lives suck, they don't have the protection that dedicating offers. I'm only mentioning this just in case. Also, are you spending quality time on cleaning your aura and chakras, 2-3 times a day?

Perhaps you are going through a long and crappy transit, have you done freeing the soul workings for problems?

Life in Spiritual Satanism is about the material and the spiritual, so make sure to take care of your material needs: job, and so on. Don't just do a money working, apply to jobs, use gold energy on your resumes to make them stand out to employers to influence them to hire you, look online how to make an awesome resume. Physical and spiritual work combined for the same goal.

Do workings to be lead to opportunities, not workings to have opportunities fall on your lap.

And above all: do not stop meditating/protecting! Stay strong in Satan, always

 

[luis]

The God's are not genies and spiritual workings won't replace doing something in the physical world. If you are not looking for a Job you cannot expect to magically found it...while I would like to go into a Temple and meditate all day until I reach godhead as they did in the Golden Age this is not the case here...you need a job and live your life, we need to have a social life and we need to have a job to survive. Then magick will help you to have more money (like promotions at your job or a new and better job) find some good friends and a good partner but you need to put the work in the physical plane. I don't understand why you shouldn't want to fight with the Final Ritual wich is something that takes 15 minutes a day...but whatever, just don't expect that because you fight the God's will fix any problems even if you don't try your best to fix them yourself.

 

[indrasoma]

To transform, you have to stop doing things that give you pleasure. Pleasure is satisfying, and the less you are satisfied, the more energy you will have to make the changes you want in your life. So if you play video games, drink alcohol, eat greasy/fatty food, etc. gradually quit doing those things one by one. Once you cut off a source of pleasure you will feel agitated and that is when void meditation is really useful. Once you have acclimated to not needing that source of pleasure anymore then you will have grown, with a higher baseline energy level. Coffee, aspirin, sleeping slightly less, eating slightly less are also things that will stimulate you and give you the energy you need to make positive changes in your life.

 

[FancyMancy]

Non-Spiritual things are as important as Spiritual things - and depending on the circumstances, sometimes more important than them. I haven't had any problems with you, and I didn't make you feel unwelcome or rejected.

You do realise that we more-than-likely will not be chasing after you, don't you? That will make you sadder and sadder, I am guessing, which would feed the negativity, etc. We - which means you, as well - have to get on with our things ourselves. Again - FancyMancy is Meme - keep calm and carry on. Stopping will reduce things down, and then you'll have try, cry, and waste ti-me (I was try-ing to make it rhy-me, which worked these ti-mes - oh, and again!) getting back to this point where you are at the moment...and then continuing on after you re-reach where you are here and now. Momentum, baybee!

Depression is caused by low bioelectricity. Increasing things beyond "normal" levels, degrees, amounts causes stress and strain - stopping, coming back, then going further on increases all of that stress and strain which is not something we want; there has been more than enough of it already.

Just continue where you are, or if you're not doing much, then just start - or start again - lowly and slowly, and then build up a bit at a time from there. Don't go all-guns-blazing, because you will lose and then you'll be upset as to why, then blame this, that, and the other. You might start by making a very conscious decision that you are going to do things well, and keep a deliberate positive mindset and attitude about it. You might also masturbate - how that is not a replacement for happiness and joy, or a temporary nice feeling, and the sexual energies from it can be used to build up your AoP and clean your Aura and Soul and can be used for whatever. Sometimes it is necessary to begin again from the basics - but at least this time, you'll have an advantage, experience and knowledge of things which you didn't have the first beginning time. Woo.

Keep calm and carry on. Fake it 'til you make it. The Mind can be a bastard of a stubborn bastard, but just keep doing things properly and carefully and the Mind will relent. Then you can go and keep going - then after a time and after certain checkpoints have been reached, only you would be the one to limit you, then - but by that time, your Mind would be doing what you want, so you can keep going and going nicely.

 

[Seby]

My life sucks too but I feel that if I left it would be worse and not only for me.

 

[Eric13]

My life sucks too but I feel that if I left it would be worse and not only for me.

Well we do get attacked, but also I think people set unrealistic expectations for themselves when they get on this path. Thinking it’s a quick fix like a genie. To want to leave makes no sense, life won’t get easier. And probably the attacks won’t stop, because they don’t want you to come back. It’s all mentality. People with sour attitudes won’t make it anywhere in life. I mean it’s just reality, whether you’re on this path or not shitty stuff happens. Whatever, make peace, then move on if you can’t turn into something positive.

Literally nothing can take me down because my attitude won’t let it. I’m strong like bull. And at the end of the day this is the mindset some here need to move towards. Change doesn’t happen over night. But we need goals and things moving us in the right direction.

People get melancholic when things are bad thinking it’s only happening to them and their life sucks. But it’s not true. We all go through things. Realize that and when things happen, vent it, resolve it, and move on. And ABOVE ALL make moves in life. Sitting down on your couch eating a sandwich isn’t going to get anyone a better life. Take action, use the abilities were shown on this path, stay consistent, have self belief and have winz. No one here should have an awful life. Makes no sense. We have guidance from the most advanced beings. It’s silly.

(And I’m not directing this just to you btw. But to all who get caught in the negative mindset trap)

 

[Gerecht Ror]

... I only own 2 pairs of pants and like 5 shirts and that's all I have. I don't have a home for myself, im just living with a family member right now...

I know everyone here will say "stay strong", "never give up", and so on. Thas is obvious and you seem already knowing that.
Fact is, your affirmation sounds very Neptunian to me, aldo Neptune recently seems popping out more than Saturn for ptoblems on here.

I think you consciously fighted for improvement, but unconsciously you may have some programming (low self- value, Neptune/Pisces influence) that is constantly smashing down your life.
Meditating for empowering i.e. the Aura, without proper affirmations, may direct Energies toward this programming, if any.

So it's not always "your fault" as "stay strong" might seems suggesting. There could be some short-circuit in your Mind preventing your efforts from manifesting. That is not your fault.

No offence to anyone, but the "push harder" mentality may work when you are blindly looking for power in your early 20s?
What if a rooted hang up pops out from a Chakra later on and takes control unresolved?

My feeling is introspection is needed.
Costant Meditation and Workings are obviously to be done daily, you seem knowing this.
But, taking time to ask your Mind where to fix issues, and possibly self-Hypnosis to reprogram life attitude for the better, is my suggestion.

 

[Gearshift]

I think I have that situation HP.Cobra mentioned a few posts before escapism and whatnot. The difference is Sun is 25 and I'm 29.

For example for a long time early in JoS back in mid-2000s(2003ish area) I was always on the assumption that meditation is like a drug to eliminate your issues. But I never knew meditation was so about being in your body. Even to this day I still feel like meditation is a burden on my life. I try and be mindful but it always leaves me going why do I feel my body so much, why does my body hurt so much, why is my mind not quiet, etc.etc.

As for power meditation I don't think it ever worked once. As for Rituals, I'm not sure if they work or not. People post things but how do we know it's from a spiritual effect and not a natural effect of reality. It's like AoP, I do it but does it even work at all, what am I doing. How can I a person not spiritually inclined affect the spiritual.

All it feels like is just thinking and using your imagination like playing pretend and nothing real is occurring.

Ever since yom kippur and even a bit before I felt like dialing down my meditations. Lately the only thing I do is a bit of void and one or two power meditations and that is it.

I can't ever say that being a Satanist has helped me. In fact according to one member of my family who I told him I'm in a spiritual religion but didn't say Satanism. He stated if it doesn't work and is creating issues than it's probably not worth it.

I wish it could work. In fact I guess my issues are that spirituality isn't fun. I don't feel enjoyable meditating and the fun stuff like say astral projection as an example are not even there for me it's way to difficult to do it.

I'm kinda on the same boat as Sun. I feel like a hypocrite being on these forums and posting more than once I've contemplated quitting the forums and just fading out maybe in some future meditation could work or at least help. Right now I just want to live happy and be happy unfortunately I'm not. It's just Zevism;DD: Same shit, different day.

 

[Stormblood]

Could it be that your feelings of unworthiness and undeservedness are twisting your perception and blocking you from feelings the Gods and from seeing the signs they leave for you to exit this undesirable situation? I feel like you lack self-acceptance and this is distorting your perception and preventing you from experiencing any result.

In addition to what others suggested (a balanced focus betwen the material and the spiritual), can I suggest a freeing the soul working to help you accept yourself. Give it a try. It seems like you feel you got nothing much to lose, so spending 5-10 minutes a day on this wouldn't be a problem, right?

9x Munka or Oss or Ur in your soul.
Then affirm with intent: "I am now totally free to have a happy and fulfilling life." x8/9

Add a daily affirmation for when you wake up and when you go to bed. "I accept myself fully. I overcome any shame and self-blame. I'm worthy and I deserve to have a happy and fulfilling life". (for 5 to 15 minutes).

 

[Stormblood]

Today is New Moon in Scorpio. It's a great day to start it.

 

[promitheusS88]

Seem's like you are going through a bad transit or an enemy attack or both. Either way, you are a soldier of Satan and that makes you important like all of the Brother's and Sister's here. So prove your self worthy and make the God's proud about you.
My life used to suck, even now it's not easy but it was a well learned lesson for me cause it maked me strong. I am getting stronger and stronger and Satan was always there for me, His presence is so powerfull, BUT i have work hard ! So get on your feet man, you are here and you have opportunities that most of people would only wish and dream. Greatness comes only with hard work.
I trully wish you the best, take care of yourself and be strong.

 

[Cyn666]

I've been through a similar path as you are now. One thing I've learned that's essential for positive change in your life is your mindset. If you continue to focus on the negatives and have high standards of how life 'should' be and how your spiritual experiences 'should' be, you'll always be depressed, let down, lonely, and filled with inadequacy.

That has taken me a while to get through and thoroughly understand. I'm still dealing with thoughts of inadequacy, but because I let go of high expectations and impatience at results, as well as actually acknowledging my role in what problems affflicted me, things are much better!

Right now YOU are your own worst enemy, and you have to make a conscious effort to see yourself as you are and make improvements firstly to your mindset.

Another thing, after I first dedicated I also had hellish visions flash before my eyes. They were of how I could die at any given time in whatever place I was currently in. They consumed me, it felt like. What's helped me is to focus on better things. For me, that was the Gods and Spiritual Satanism in general. Usually thinking of a Gods sigil, image, name, etc would make the visions disperse immediately. But they did come back. So you just do it again and again and again until eventually, you no longer recieve those visions.

Also, regarding depression. What's helped me (along with conscious effort to change for the better) is to do a daily Runic working with Wunjo! Focus your thoughts on banishing the depression, think of happiness and joys.

But of course, whatever advice anyone here shares with you will mean nothing if you don't actually apply it to yourself.

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

Get your astrology checked out and work from there. Also it seems your belief about yourself is negative and you don't want to change this. For magic to work you have to love yourself, trust yourself and KNOW you are worthy and deserving and have faith in yourself. Otherwise the consciousness mind and subconsciousness are at odds against each other the subconsciousness mind blocks the working because its programmed for the negative and so the working fail its the same as trying to get a radio station but another one is overlapping its static.

Its best not to give up doing the Final Ritual daily as its making your situation better to do such. Work with pranayama and positive affirmations but feel the affirmation while declaring it. Pranayama is powerful and a quick and fast way to bring your energy up and not be depressed. Keep your AOP strong daily as well.

 

[Gearshift]

9x Munka or Oss or Ur in your soul.
Then affirm with intent: "I am now totally free to have a happy and fulfilling life." x8/9

Add a daily affirmation for when you wake up and when you go to bed. "I accept myself fully. I overcome any shame and self-blame. I'm worthy and I deserve to have a happy and fulfilling life". (for 5 to 15 minutes).

Thanks I'll try it out, although I've always been under the assumption since we aren't spiritually advanced beings that workings like this require high rep blasting to overcome issues. I've always been under the assumption things only work with high reps and that low reps should be avoided as it produces little to no results.

Are you sure such low reps does something? I know Lydia mentioned a short while back high reps aren't necessary always, lower reps with intensity can work wonders.

I think I'll try a Gothic Ansus version x9 with your affirmation. I might consider your affirmation pre and post sleep. Thanks stormblood.

I always give a big sigh of exasperation when I hear this type of post, not because I don't care, but because it is the classic "I tried it and it didn't work" cop-out. What the problem is, is that these people really don't understand what Spiritual Satanism is when they get into it; they don't do the necessary study, and it makes you wonder, was their dedication to Satan really genuine and sincere in the first place?

I do perfectly understand the situation. In fact thanks to the JoS it corrected me a long line of Neo-WW2 regime that I had thought was the correct way of WW2 regime.

But unfortunately we don't live in an WW2 regime world and I've literally have no use for spiritual knowledge or ideas.

At the end of the day Zevism/WW2 regime becomes just a mental curiosity of an era whereby I'm fascinated by but it's completely useless now days. All I see is people going out and enjoying their lives. What does spirituality do to help?

I know I have to go out there but I genuinely have no desire to leave my house.

"I tried it and it didn't work" isn't a cop-out it's a serious thing perhaps for some members who dedicated just recently but as someone who has been at it since 2003(16 years) now it's really crushing my soul. So what can I say it doesn't work.

I dedicated, if my dedication is invalid it's probably because the Gods saw me and then said "This guy is never going to go anywhere; Why should we let them". After all they have all the visual future insight, why allow someone to dedicate that has no conviction to advance.

In my opinion it's not a cop out and perhaps it's more of a sign of how degenerated humanity is.

 

[Rook]

Could it be that your feelings of unworthiness and undeservedness are twisting your perception and blocking you from feelings the Gods and from seeing the signs they leave for you to exit this undesirable situation? I feel like you lack self-acceptance and this is distorting your perception and preventing you from experiencing any result.

I was thinking the same thing.

 

[SETI]

Can 'Ansuz' rune be used to remove laziness from the soul?

 

[Head Guardian Sophiles Phylax]

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