I also want to wear something, I am deconstructing a leather coat and painting Sigils on it, Father's and his Demons I feel most drawn to so I can feel closer to them. I am doing it as an art piece - the sigils are sort of blended into the larger body of the painting designs - so that those who are without don't get it. Obviously I don't want to literally paint a freakin target on my back nor encourage you to do so!
Satan says in the Al Jilwah: "Do not mention my name nor my attributes, lest ye regret it; for ye do not know what those who are without may do." Don't put yourself in any danger! I'm not telling you to do that! But you could try making something, a nice necklace, a drawing, something creative that you are making just for them... I kind of think it might mean a lot because you took the time and energy to try to create something yourself. Sort of like the difference between a real handwritten letter and sending a store bought stock card. But then again, perhaps the thought is all that counts. I just think like this because I'm an artist. Do what you feel is best. I'm sure they will understand.
Spiritual Warfare every day is the high point of my days (yoga is the other). I feel closest to Satan then. It is extremely enjoyable. I do an hour of yoga and then go right to the S Warfare while my energy is highest followed by the aura of protection and other meditations. I started off (I'm a newbie) doing the meditations trying to open my chakras (40 day program), working every day on power meditation despite feelings of: I'm not getting anywhere. Some meditations work better for me than others, like the void....no problem! LOVE it. But the Trance! Damn was I having trouble with that one! My grasshopper brain just seems to go nuts everytime I try to sit still, leaping in ten different directions at once. I was beating the shit out of myself over this perceived failure till I realized that what I do when I lose myself in my art - single minded focus till the rest of the world and time literally disappears - IS a form of Trance. But when I did the Raum meditation (first time trying it) preparatory to the reverse torah ritual as instructed to raise my energies I was given my answer to: Am I actually helping here? Or am I kidding myself? It was a real eye opener - no pun intended! The top of my head blew off (at least that's what it felt like) while my third eye opened up.
Now when negative thoughts come like: Am I actually helping here? Doubts, depression, feelings like: Satan doesn't want YOU etc, I do the breaking the links that HP Vovim Baghie posted. I find the negative thoughts/feelings cut off immediately after. But it has to be done frequently because the enemy keeps trying to re-link. The first time I did this I felt a lot of resistance and it actually began to hurt till I broke them.
I feel so encouraged and spurred on to greater efforts. I definitely feel the power everytime now when I do SW though its not like take your freakin head off like that first time. I think that first time had to literally blow my socks off because I really needed an answer, and it had to be more than just a 'feeling'. I get feelings all the time. I needed something really super blatant because I think in visuals and feelings so I needed a visual and to feel it so I could understand. I never specifically asked Satan for an answer because I feel like I don't want to waste his time asking him to hold my hand. He's busy. But He - or one of the other Demons - answered me anyhow. That's how good they are. How thoughtful. When my chakras opened up I was shown what I needed to see. I was also told: Doubt is of the selfish. I asked for clarification. How do you mean its selfish? I was given: How lucky we all are to be here right now, having found JOS with the tools/weapons put into our hands. Don't be selfish, pick them up, do the work and FIGHT! DON'T DOUBT. I felt so very appreciative and said thank you. A couple of hours after my chakras shut down again. I am still working to get them open and keep them open. I'm not trying to say I'm super advanced here. Not!
I was given what I needed though; to see and feel what we (Hells Army) are doing (and for whom we do it).
I would say to anyone here who is new and wondering, don't doubt you are helping because you are! For those on the fence, exploring the site, reading this, wondering if you should dedicate, do it NOW and join the fight! Get your thumb out of your ass! If you can see there is a massive problem in this world, here is your answer of how you can really truly help! So help! Join us! FIGHT! You don't know who/what to believe in, believe in Satan! He really IS good, he's not the evil thing you were taught. Forget that shit and help Him NOW, as he is helping us. I think when enough of us join in it will reach the tipping point where things can change in a twinkling. I feel like that point is very close. It feels like a tsunami forming out in the deep ocean before it rolls inland. It's coming! I had a dream where when I became lucid I said: I want to see my God! I want to see my Father! I found myself on a huge flat dark plain. There was a massive storm covering the horizon ahead of me, the sky was black and throbbing with continuous lightning strikes, a great battle was ongoing. Satan is fighting and so should we!
Oops, went off on a rant when all you wanted was advice in choosing accessories....
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Hail Satan and all the Gods of Hell!
