I feel as if I've let Satan down.

[beckycherrylover]

Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles but I keep them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has anyone got any advice?

 

[jeremy montoya]

Get serious and start advancing spiritually. Satan is most likely with you. you havent done anything wrong.

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

Yes start doing a daily power meditation program and put an daily aura of protection around yourself.
From: beckycherrylover <beckycherrylover@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 24, 2013 4:36:43 PM
Subject: I feel as if I've let Satan down.
  Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles but I keep them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has anyone got any advice?

 

[Shan823]

Father Satan does not leave anyone who doesnt not want to leave you. That feeling vould more than likely be the enemy. They will make u feel as if Father Satan does not want u. Stay focused on meditation and building your aura of protection. Also do a ritual or meditation on Father Satan.




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On Sun, Mar 24, 2013 4:36 PM EDT beckycherrylover wrote:

Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles
but I keep them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has anyone got any advice?

 

[enemyofjezzuz]

First, you are not betraying Satan simply by smoking a cigarette. While
Satan doesn't want us smoking, He understands that we are spiritually
degraded because of the enemy and that smoking is a symptom of that
degradation. Rather than being pissed, Satan would rather help you to
let go of that addiction. And Satan understands that it takes
time--unlike certain religions (the jokehovian witlesses, for one) who
expect people to feel shame and guilt for doing these things.

And there is nothing wrong with going to Satan for assistance in getting
off the weed. The best thing is to be upfront (such as "I feel addicted
and cannot go long without a cigarette", or "I feel the urge to smoke
under certain circumstances"). Satan already knows you are lighting a
cancer stick before you do so, and why--and is willing to work with you
on the root cause. Too often, it is one bout of stupidity followed by
addiction, and it can be difficult to get off tobacco once you are
addicted. Workings to free yourself from such dependency, meditation,
and eventual spiritual development will free you from your habit, not
guilt trips, trying to quit doing other things that "lead up to"
smoking, and other made-up rubbish.


--- In , "beckycherrylover"
<beckycherrylover@... wrote:

Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in

the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in
reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just
shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I
thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some
way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did
smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and
I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I
shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point
where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the
other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live
anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one
day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to
read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles but I keep
them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the
story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if
it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has
anyone got any advice?

 

[Serpentfire666]

The more you worry and focus and feel guilt over an addiction the worst you make it in turn you feel more shame, more stress and end up doing it more. Continue with meditations and improving your life as you can increase your water intake and healthy foods and do things to keep busy so you think about it less. I still smoke its one remaining vice I have I already know its bad and I get really pissed off with people telling me over and over to stop it. I will stop it on my terms when I want to, I am starting to not like it as much and that is probably the meditations so I keep meditating and making affirmations I have a strong healthy body that is clean and beautifull. The body in turn starts to want to be this way and at a level the mind starts not wanting poisons. It means I have to build my aura very strong and clean it way more often too the more I clean my aura the more I dont want to smoke as much I feel dirty and don't like it.
Satan dosn't hate you or turn you away because of such things but He wants you to live to your best and longest without suffering illness and misery and to advance. As you advance things that harm you become less apealing.

Another thing you can do is fill your lungs and mouth with white purifying light and focus on a pleasant taste and smell and then when you light a smoke up it tastes disgusting and puts you off. When you find it starting to repusle you you are making progress. That means your energy is rising and repelling that which is not good for you.

Hail Satan

--- In , "enemyofjezzuz" <denniswhicher@... wrote:


First, you are not betraying Satan simply by smoking a cigarette. While
Satan doesn't want us smoking, He understands that we are spiritually
degraded because of the enemy and that smoking is a symptom of that
degradation. Rather than being pissed, Satan would rather help you to
let go of that addiction. And Satan understands that it takes
time--unlike certain religions (the jokehovian witlesses, for one) who
expect people to feel shame and guilt for doing these things.

And there is nothing wrong with going to Satan for assistance in getting
off the weed. The best thing is to be upfront (such as "I feel addicted
and cannot go long without a cigarette", or "I feel the urge to smoke
under certain circumstances"). Satan already knows you are lighting a
cancer stick before you do so, and why--and is willing to work with you
on the root cause. Too often, it is one bout of stupidity followed by
addiction, and it can be difficult to get off tobacco once you are
addicted. Workings to free yourself from such dependency, meditation,
and eventual spiritual development will free you from your habit, not
guilt trips, trying to quit doing other things that "lead up to"
smoking, and other made-up rubbish.


--- In , "beckycherrylover"
<beckycherrylover@ wrote:

Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in
the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in
reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just
shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I
thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some
way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did
smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and
I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I
shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point
where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the
other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live
anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one
day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to
read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles but I keep
them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the
story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if
it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has
anyone got any advice?

 

[Serpentfire666]

And I want to add this. Sitting there thinking of every disease and problem you could have or get is the worst thing you can do that plants the seeds you understand? Everyone 'knows' what can happen but dwelling on it is putting energy to the idea and a fear that lowers your energy and makes it more likely to happen. Dont dwell on sickness! Focus instead positive energy into yourself that you are healthy, whole and beautifull and push aside anything else. This plants good seeds inside you understand? And you start to become that what you think you are and stopping this thing becomes a natural progression of a healthy being that is moving on not from a fear of something terrible.

Hail Satan

--- In , "Serpentfire666" <firebird894@... wrote:

The more you worry and focus and feel guilt over an addiction the worst you make it in turn you feel more shame, more stress and end up doing it more. Continue with meditations and improving your life as you can increase your water intake and healthy foods and do things to keep busy so you think about it less. I still smoke its one remaining vice I have I already know its bad and I get really pissed off with people telling me over and over to stop it. I will stop it on my terms when I want to, I am starting to not like it as much and that is probably the meditations so I keep meditating and making affirmations I have a strong healthy body that is clean and beautifull. The body in turn starts to want to be this way and at a level the mind starts not wanting poisons. It means I have to build my aura very strong and clean it way more often too the more I clean my aura the more I dont want to smoke as much I feel dirty and don't like it.
Satan dosn't hate you or turn you away because of such things but He wants you to live to your best and longest without suffering illness and misery and to advance. As you advance things that harm you become less apealing.

Another thing you can do is fill your lungs and mouth with white purifying light and focus on a pleasant taste and smell and then when you light a smoke up it tastes disgusting and puts you off. When you find it starting to repusle you you are making progress. That means your energy is rising and repelling that which is not good for you.

Hail Satan

--- In , "enemyofjezzuz" <denniswhicher@ wrote:


First, you are not betraying Satan simply by smoking a cigarette. While
Satan doesn't want us smoking, He understands that we are spiritually
degraded because of the enemy and that smoking is a symptom of that
degradation. Rather than being pissed, Satan would rather help you to
let go of that addiction. And Satan understands that it takes
time--unlike certain religions (the jokehovian witlesses, for one) who
expect people to feel shame and guilt for doing these things.

And there is nothing wrong with going to Satan for assistance in getting
off the weed. The best thing is to be upfront (such as "I feel addicted
and cannot go long without a cigarette", or "I feel the urge to smoke
under certain circumstances"). Satan already knows you are lighting a
cancer stick before you do so, and why--and is willing to work with you
on the root cause. Too often, it is one bout of stupidity followed by
addiction, and it can be difficult to get off tobacco once you are
addicted. Workings to free yourself from such dependency, meditation,
and eventual spiritual development will free you from your habit, not
guilt trips, trying to quit doing other things that "lead up to"
smoking, and other made-up rubbish.


--- In , "beckycherrylover"
<beckycherrylover@ wrote:

Right so it starts off sometime last year when I did the dedication in
the astral, because I got scared my mum would find out if I did it in
reality. At first, I felt protected in some way, but the next day I just
shook it off. A few months passed, and I did it in reality because I
thought it didn't count, so I did it. Again, I felt relieved in some
way, but I shook it off again. When I did it the second time, I did
smoke cigarettes. I felt as if there was somebody watching over me, and
I felt ashamed for having a cigarette straight after the dedication. I
shook a lot of things off at that time, where it just got to a point
where I was so ashamed, not for doing the dedication, but for doing the
other things I was doing, that I just simply didn't want to live
anymore. I turned to cigarettes to kill me, I didn't go to school one
day, and my mum put my sisters bible beside me, but I didn't want to
read it at all. To be quite honest, I have two other bibles but I keep
them well away from me, I don't want anything like that near me. To the
story, I just simply feel as if I've been abandoned. I don't know if
it's because I shut all contact off, but it's a horrible feeling. Has
anyone got any advice?