Please Help Me

[New member]

Hi, my Zevist family. I want to tell something. Even though I know I’m innocent, I’m writing this to ease my mind. I need your help and comfort.

I want you to know that my mental state is very bad. I have many mental struggles, and because of my difficult life, my psychological state is very poor. Sometimes, even when something isn’t real, I think of it as if it is real and suffer because of it. The ‘enemy programming’ already causes pain… everything is piling up.

Anyway, I’ll get to the point. For some time, I’ve been struggling with bad thoughts about the gods. Even though I don’t want them, these thoughts come forcefully. One day, a bad thought about a specific God’s name came into my mind, and I made a gesture like nodding as if I agreed—but I am absolutely not that kind of person. Maybe I was just moving my head randomly and the thought passed through my mind at that moment. Even before that action, I was already fighting against this thought. It feels like these thoughts and actions were forced on me by enemies.

I feel trapped. I asked the Gods if everything is okay. I asked them to show me in a dream that I have not been abandoned, but I didn’t see the dream I wanted. I only received one sign: after asking them, I felt very good. I had asked them to send me good feelings as confirmation, and for a while, I felt good. But then some doubt and bad feelings remained inside me.

Is everything okay? I am innocent. I didn’t do anything. I have nothing to do with bad things. I don’t know how I fell into such a situation, confusion, or trap.

I actually love the Gods very much—so much that when I think about them, I feel joy and pride.

Say something, brother High Priest Zevios Metathronos.

 

[New member]

Finally, regarding this issue, I would like to say: I think this is just a false thought caused by my mental health issues. Also, there was a translation mistake in the text. I didn’t mean that I nodded as if I agreed, I just meant that I moved my head.

 

[Kouros Aionios]

Calm down, breathe, relax. You know that these thoughts are not coming from within you; ignore them and do not align yourself with them. They will pass.

The Gods have already shown you that you are okay. When you asked them, they made you feel good and comforted you; this is a good sign. Stay strong in the Gods.

For now, try reading our Liturgical Terms and do the prayers at the bottom of each page for these; they will help tremendously. Do not fall for the enemies Birburim (lies) and Atibilibil (confusion)

 

[Serpentlux]

Hi, my Zevist family. I want to tell something. Even though I know I’m innocent, I’m writing this to ease my mind. I need your help and comfort.

I want you to know that my mental state is very bad. I have many mental struggles, and because of my difficult life, my psychological state is very poor. Sometimes, even when something isn’t real, I think of it as if it is real and suffer because of it. The ‘enemy programming’ already causes pain… everything is piling up.

Anyway, I’ll get to the point. For some time, I’ve been struggling with bad thoughts about the gods. Even though I don’t want them, these thoughts come forcefully. One day, a bad thought about a specific God’s name came into my mind, and I made a gesture like nodding as if I agreed—but I am absolutely not that kind of person. Maybe I was just moving my head randomly and the thought passed through my mind at that moment. Even before that action, I was already fighting against this thought. It feels like these thoughts and actions were forced on me by enemies.

I feel trapped. I asked the Gods if everything is okay. I asked them to show me in a dream that I have not been abandoned, but I didn’t see the dream I wanted. I only received one sign: after asking them, I felt very good. I had asked them to send me good feelings as confirmation, and for a while, I felt good. But then some doubt and bad feelings remained inside me.

Is everything okay? I am innocent. I didn’t do anything. I have nothing to do with bad things. I don’t know how I fell into such a situation, confusion, or trap.

I actually love the Gods very much—so much that when I think about them, I feel joy and pride.

Say something, brother High Priest Zevios Metathronos.

I am not our dearest High Priest Zevios Metathronos and I certainly know that he would have more wisdom to share but I’d like to say something to you myself.

These bad thoughts that you experience are normal and honestly expected if you’re someone who grew up in very deep enemy programming and I would like to reassure right now.
NONE OF THIS IS YOUR FAULT!

The way you were raised as a child, with enemy programming basically enforced onto you is something you had absolutely no control of. You’ve done absolutely nothing wrong in that regard. The most important thing to take note of here, is the love that you have for the Gods and your knowledge of how much they love you as well. The fact that you receive positive emotions from them as well as from thinking of them is proof of their love and you already seem to know that.

You are part of the most loving and divine family to exist in a very long time. It’s no wonder that you feel pride and joy when you think of Our Gods. You have every reason to feel this way.

The enemy programming and the doubts and negative thoughts towards the Gods are not your fault, they are however, your responsibility to deal with and it is vital that you deal with these if you are to advance and grow every closer to our Gods whom you love and who love you more than you could possibly imagine. I used to experience such thoughts myself when I first came to the Gods but as I meditated and learned about the Gods to fix the subconscious programming against the Gods, these thoughts ceased completely and I came to feel their overwhelming love and belief in me to continue to better myself as a Zevist.

I would suggest that you perform the “Freeing The Mind Meditations“ in order to deal with these thoughts directly. Not only that, but keep learning about the path of Zevism in the Library of Thoth. And finally, if you haven’t done so already, read The Family of The Gods section in The Temple of Zeus to remind yourself of the nature of our Gods. Deprogramming the subconscious mind is done through meditation as well as the conscious effort to replace subconscious lies with truth.

I really do with you well in your journey and I pray that you win against these thoughts that you clearly do not want nor agree with.

Blessed be

 

[Soulreaper]

This is my exactly same problem