hellor everybody! im sort of new

[edwardtaylor98]

Hey everybody I've been a Satanist for a while now, but i havent really been active at all with the practice of meditation and stuff. But i still follow his words. I've dedicated myself but i feel like i didnt do it right because i didnt really draw blood for real as well as i didn't let paper burn and candle burn out as i should've because i didn't want to get caught by my parents and other household members. Im a senior in highschool and i live with a Christian family so you kinda get the idea of my situation. When i did the dedication it felt so incomplete. For a while after that, things started going great for me at work amd lifei in general then BAM it all came tumbling down into my depression. Things started to not go well, i lost my high school job, lost the girl i almost started dating (this happened before loss of job), my body started back aching like it is now, im back to feeling like im about to cry all the time, just UGH. In still dealing with myself. I punch myself in the jaw now when im angry. I just really rather go to sleep and not wake up man. For now, im just trying to finish school and go to college and hopefully not die i guess. I do a gaming channel on youtube now to keep me up. (Note: i dont like using yahoo, but im more active on gmail edwardtaylor296@...)

 

[blackmoon0343]

Depression happens when your bioelectricity is low. So once you start empowering your soul, you should feel better again. Also, greys may be stealing your energy, so clean and protect your aura.
Start doing daily power meditation, even if you can only do 5 minutes a day.

 

[talonjackman]

I will tell you that things will definitely go better for you if you meditate. If you work towards raising your bioelectricity then this will help with the depression. I know this from personal experience. I used to deal with severe depression (suicidal almost daily, even with medication), and meditating constantly made it so that I don't even use medication anymore and don't feel the depression.

 

[deadsilent666]

Hello Edward it's nice to meet you!, the psychic coincidence I wake up to see your post come 2 mins ago haha. For the dedication ritual it's serious stuff and required for you to sign your name in blood or atleast be truthfull and intent of your dedication. I'm not satisfied with the way I did my ritual either but that day was very dear to me in my life because I was waiting for a specific day to do it.
Trust me your not alone on this, when I dedicated it felt amazing, it was like the dedication ritual came with a whole package of goodies, I could literally sleep in class and get a 90 at the end of the day, my life felt very mystical. But during the end of the year I made the mistake thinking that I didn't really care for meditation as I believed my life is really happy now.. Then I got my ass handed to me as I was literally tanking shit tons of grey energy in the unaware spiritual warfare against the enemy, the grey attacks started happening again as I was being strangled in my sleep and I wake up feeling half of my energy vanished in thin air, much worse life threatening conditions, but it all chilled out when I began a meditation program with AP,AC,VM basics, with the 40 day program.
So as you can see with my story, you have to keep up with your meditations, Satan gives us wonderful and generous gifts but we mustn't rely on that to keep our gears moving, we have to put in work in order to make the life you want to work for you through meditation and etc.
Also be-aware that the rare planetary placements for this year are very bad and may also be an influence to your life.
Hail Satan!


On Monday, October 19, 2015 7:26 PM, "edwardtaylor296@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Hey everybody I've been a Satanist for a while now, but i havent really been active at all with the practice of meditation and stuff. But i still follow his words. I've dedicated myself but i feel like i didnt do it right because i didnt really draw blood for real as well as i didn't let paper burn and candle burn out as i should've because i didn't want to get caught by my parents and other household members. Im a senior in highschool and i live with a Christian family so you kinda get the idea of my situation. When i did the dedication it felt so incomplete. For a while after that, things started going great for me at work amd lifei in general then BAM it all came tumbling down into my depression. Things started to not go well, i lost my high school job, lost the girl i almost started dating (this happened before loss of job), my body started back aching like it is now, im back to feeling like im about to cry all the time, just UGH. In still dealing with myself. I punch myself in the jaw now when im angry. I just really rather go to sleep and not wake up man. For now, im just trying to finish school and go to college and hopefully not die i guess. I do a gaming channel on youtube now to keep me up. (Note: i dont like using yahoo, but im more active on gmail edwardtaylor296@...)

 

[Aryan Gentile]

<td val[/IMG]Bro, re dedicate with blood, start on your meditations and do the reverse Torah rituals
The clock is ticking. There won't be a future for those who aren't with the program because Satan needs serious disciples, for future refrence. You're fine for right now because you aren't fully aware, but this is urgent. [/TD]

From: edwardtaylor296@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected];
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] hellor everybody! im sort of new
Sent: Mon, Oct 19, 2015 3:48:55 AM

 

[aldric.strickland88]

Just to let you know. It's gotten serious to the point that those who don't meditate and do the reverse rituals are going to die when the war comes. It's good you Dedicated and the blood and all that doesn't matter, your dedicated end of story. Stop worrying about it. What you need to worry about is getting your ass in gear. If you need to email me personally for help, I am here. The time for you to do what needs to be done is NOW.

 

[thisisafalsealias]

High school really sucks man. The only advice I can give you is to hold in and do NOT blame yourself. Don't punch yourself in the jaw. Even if you make mistakes, you should not feel shame, you should just rise above. All self-hate comes from the jews, and christianity and is not a natural behaviour, and I'm saying this having dealt with it for many years. This shame will hurt your solar chakra so try strengthening that. I'd say most of us have a lot of shit to deal with, sometimes not sometimes more than others, but you really just gotta do whatever makes you strong and keep going. Vibrate the rune Nauthiz 9 times and state with an affirmation, "I am free to endure my journey without the influence of any negative thoughts" or something to that effect. You will get better in time with meditation and Satan's influence.

 

[edwardtaylor98]

@deadsilent666 DUDE! No fucking lie, when i first did the dedication and went to meditating everyday, LIFE was fucking awesome. I would go to work with a smile on my face, everyday of work it be hot but always a breeze, everybody gave me tips for carry out (i would always say hail satan after each one to myself), felt like the girls were actually into me, school was a good flow, just everything was the ice cream with the cake and chocolate icing with something fancy on top. I could even withstand pain when after meditating. I tested that actually, I would always hurt myself at work AND NOT FEEL A THING. I would start thinking, "this is crazy or this cant be happening". Then after I basically stopped meditating.. that's when everything started happening. AND LIKE YOU SAID ABOUT THE CHOKING AND STUFF. Yea man, the nightmares came back, sleep paralysis with the combination of something forcing my head and body down so I cant push myself up (I learned to fight against it pretty easily, just dont freak out when it happens). Like, the other day, when i was taking a nap and went into sleep paralysis (DURING THE DAY) i felt hand started moving across my back and at that moment i definitely had to get up because as the hand was moving across my back (or so i think it's a hand) the paralysis got heavier. I always haunted by stuff like this growing up. Last night i had the same situation but it's getting worse it seems. Same hand force situation but this time i managed to do a "CAUGHT YA" when it happened last night. I pretended I was going back to sleep then I felt the hand again, AND DARTED MY EYES OPEN and saw a quick glance of a dark figure in the corner of my room. It was like one of those 1 FRAME moments where if it was DVR you had to pause on that exact frame. Sorry for the long reply btw

 

[mreierson98]

I would also like to add, if you are in danger then you can perform these rituals in your astral temple. HPS Maxine has verified that doing these rituals in your astral temple is just as valid. You can perform the real ritual after you get out of harms way. The worst mistake is to do nothing at all because nothing done means nothing gained and spiritual satanism is about spiritual advancement. Best of luck and remember, you're not alone. I would also like to strongly recommend lots of void meditation. When I was a teenager I was highly suicidal as well. It was through much void meditation that I was able to cope with the stresses of living and then start to advance. I came from a christian home also so I understand what your going through. Hang tough, think optimistically and focus on spiritual, mental, and physical advancement along with as much spiritual warfare you can do.

Hail Father Satan Forever!!!