Extreme fear and controversy... Please Help

[jxk2080]

First and fore most I am requesting the assistance of any Clergy or advanced and reputable SS who has been active on these forums for years.
I am not asking something that involves simple research I can just take a few hours or days to find, as this is something deep on the soul level that is striking fear into me, actually stopping me from being able to meditate or do the RTRs as I wanted to start being consistent with them and be something useful.
I will not just give personal information to some random member, be aware I have been on this path for seven years and will know what members are active with what alias, so do not worry about me risking my life, I take responsibility for this and desperately need a concrete resolution to this haunting perspective.

I really don't know how to begin here.
Ive had these fears in the past, and I might have already been convinced otherwise as to these delusional fears, and possible enemy attacks, but never the less these are back full force in an even more critical state of my mental life.
Im reading new sermons which though fascinating now make me wonder if my minor ailments here and there are due to genuinely bad habits and genetics that I can fix, or if the Meditations and rituals I did in the past were to blame..
Ive heard many people claim the RTRs are something negative, and I never liked when I heard that from them, I just felt I was lazy when I didn't really do them, and I really want to stop lugging around, but something elses is getting to me now..
The most I meditated for in a row was forty two days, usually it only lasts about a month or so though, then I topple and lose my motivation.  
I never felt like I was deteriorating I just felt a bit "bleached" after I maintained this routine twice a day at my best including pranayama frequently.
The sermons which concern me are the ones involving the sephiroth and the Klipoth trees of life and death to the jew...
You see where I am going with this and its really freaking me out to where I am starting to stay up at night just to type this.
Im trying to say I need someone who is experienced in reading the soul of someone through a picture and name etc.
I know this might just be dismissed but it can't, Im literally wondering what I will do if I am revealed to just be a deluded soul that was never meant to be an SS, and if I just deserve death, its almost unbearable, yet Im composing myself not to freak out.  
I need to ask someone with superior spiritual clarity about my soul and whether or not it is jewish...
Please, this is not a game to me I just want the truth and its depressing to feel like I was straggling along a path that technically programs my destruction.
If someone can email me privately I will be glad to show them angled pictures of myself and give my name for whatever it is worth, but I cannot let this go anymore.
Just when I wanted to get my ass in gear to be something important without whining this shit had to pop up and freak me out.

 

[kieithnightmare0]

Wanting to give out your personal info to someone isn't necessary. The enemy uses this "what if I'm Jewish" crap as an attempt to get us to stop being SS. I've been through that attack and so have many others. If you're worried about being Jewish, you're not. A Jew wouldn't want to be with Satan. And they wouldn't want to do rtrs. Just ignore any thoughts like that. Do some void meditation.

It sounds like the enemy, since this started when you really wanted to do more in Satanism. They try to scare you from doing rtrs. I know because I've been through something like that, where they've threatened my life and the life of my loved ones if I didn't stop doing rtrs. You should do a banishing ritual for 40 days or until they stop harrasing you.

You need to be consistent with your mediations too. If you feel like you're starting to loose motivation, read some uplifting sermons or find new meditations to try out.

Also you're here for a reason. If you weren't worthy you wouldn't be here in the first place, so remember that. The enemy likes to put the "I deserve death" trash in people's minds. Death is NEVER advocated as a solution here. That is very Un-Satanic. Just keep going and if something doesn't work, try something else that does.

Don't let them scare you away from Satan.

 

[gbc4f6xau6kq3v3tmqkleqt2caxgpuqzbsckviit]

lol just post a series of pictures, have one or two be of you, and well tell you  which pictures are jews,and which ones arent.
that way.....actually some people on here dont know the difference between a jewess and a godess.
but regardless i think it will help ease your mind. but it seems like your gentile just based upon how shaken you are about this.
a real jew wouldn't even give a fuck if they were jewish, also what the fuck is wrong with you? 7 years ss and no meditation, either shit or get off the pot m8

 

[Hp. Hoodedcobra666]

They are simply scared of you advancing and doing the RTR's. This is an old trick of theirs. It's even in the bible where many characters are put into similar confusion. This is something they also do to some Gentiles. They tell them they are jews in order to assimilate them, or get them to marry jews and others.

In this case, being a 'jew' is whatever fits in that case.

Even a so called 'DNA' test is more than likely a fraud. All the jews in the Alt-Right have been put out as 'pure europeans', while their jewishness is pretty apparent.

The scientific judge is (((reconstructed DNA))), (((Regional DNA))) and other non-viable information to calculate these tests. For example, (((Regional DNA))) means nothing. The jews have been in all places for too long. They can calculate jews as non jews and vice versa. (((Reconstructed DNA))) is a scientific assumption based on pseudo-history in more than one ways.

People need to stop worrying of being jews, especially Spiritual Satanists. If you are a jew, you will know very early in your life. It won't suddenly 'come to you'. Most jews are quite self-aware. Jews will be easily visible and distinguishable. I will not trust any DNA report claiming one is a jew, or one isn't, until we are in the scientific field and/or governments and we get the correct data put out. It has to agree with what you are in reality.

Additionally, everyone can get someone else to spit in the sample and sign it in their name, so they can claim they are not 'jews'. Which is probably what the Alt-right Mike Enoch did. Enoch is a very jewish surname all in itself, let alone how the guy looks, and how he is married from a jewess from Bnai Brith. You do not get married to a jew in that way if you are not a kike. So even if you see it on paper, do not believe it.

Not long ago another scandal erupted with a jew owning a sperm bank, where he gave all his sperm to the women that otherwise buyed sperm from whomever donor. The jews corrupt everything. If necessary, they will add a drop of 'white', 'jewish', 'african' or whatever else blood in the tests to further their agenda and reinforce the rumor that "We were all from africa" and that "we were all jews" which is another jewish theory.

 

[jxk2080]

Thank you, I highly appreciate it, and I calmed down a bit recalling the reasoning behind my worry reflecting that very fact I obviously want to be a real part of this all.

My hypochondriac nature is an easy way in for my own or enemy thought forms to exercise paranoid exaggerations, so I need to build a superior aura of protection.

I remember my mother saying our surname (Korisher) (NOT KOSHER) was originally pronounced and spelled differently but our great grandparents came from either Austria or Germany and they had to change their names because America was not so friendly to Germans.

If indeed they were jews then america would not have batted an eye as we had a parasite slob for a president at the time who was jewish.
My fathers surname was Meerdink, supposedly he is Dutch and Sicilian, but it is whatever I guess.
I don't have a hook nose, or bulby eyes, and my vitality seems pretty forward away from their unusual ailments.
The only other stuff I need to sort out is the mental instability and depravities to face, so I can truly feel pure.

FYI HP Hooded Cobra, there might have been some other post about this same issue in my desperation, but everyone can ignore it as I firmly feel reconnected to reality again.

Also, to gbc4f6xau6kq3v3tmqkleqt2caxgpuqzbsckviit -
that sounds like a clever idea except it only takes two deductions to curse one or the other if a jew does spot my public picture.
And I don't do pot or such, I do meditate just not nearly as consistently as I should, it has been a waxing and waning effort that I never the less am determined to get a grip on.  

 

[red and black]

People read about the Jewish problem and then start freaking out that they might be Jewish. Guys it goes as deep as the soul level, Satanism is not going to feel right for a Jew.


I’d say if you have real love for Satan and Satanism, and have done Satanic rituals and have felt good about it and have done workings against the Jews and such then it’s probably safe to say you’re not Jewish.
Satan and the gods don’t accept Jewish souls and you won’t have a good experience doing Satanic rituals and stuff if you’re Jewish, you’ll have negative experiences.


As for the RTRs being negative, one needs to look to how the Bible is a Jewish book of witchcraft and the numerology that is connected to the verses and the scriptures and many of these are in the Torah too.
If one looks up these verses in Hebrew that are obviously spells on humanity you will find that they are the exact reverse of what the Reverse Torah rituals are. High Priestess Maxine didn’t just make some words out of no where they are the exact reverse of such verses.


Satan does NOT have bad intentions for humanity. Anyone who thinks this needs a “check up” so to speak and needs to do more studying.
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[devilsAdvocate Nic]

He shouldn't post any pictures.
Even if you post 20 and only 1 is his. It's not healthy And it's very often spoken against. For some who claims to be old in the groups he should know better. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Devil'sAdvocate  nic

On Oct 23, 2017 1:04 PM, "cand.cru5h3r@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  lol just post a series of pictures, have one or two be of you, and well tell you  which pictures are jews,and which ones arent.
that way.....actually some people on here dont know the difference between a jewess and a godess.
but regardless i think it will help ease your mind. but it seems like your gentile just based upon how shaken you are about this.
a real jew wouldn't even give a fuck if they were jewish, also what the fuck is wrong with you? 7 years ss and no meditation, either shit or get off the pot m8