If you use Satanism as a tool of false expectation, while you insist on all the mentality and outlook of life of xianity, then you cannot push upwards in life.
You do not seem to have let go of crucially bad mentalities that block you from doing better at life.
Your internal disposition and outlook has to change severely. It is ok to be after the things you want, all good with this.
Use your abilities to expand your life in your ability. Did you read the JoS?
But you need to change the approaches that lead to failure. One of them being the xian mentality of blaming everything to the occult or Satan.
You do not seem to have let go of crucially bad mentalities that block you from doing better at life.
Your internal disposition and outlook has to change severely. It is ok to be after the things you want, all good with this.
Use your abilities to expand your life in your ability. Did you read the JoS?
But you need to change the approaches that lead to failure. One of them being the xian mentality of blaming everything to the occult or Satan.