Health #80460 porn addiction is killing me

[Ask Satya Operator]

Im in puberty, 16, and i have porn addiction since i was 8-9.

I was managing to watch less porn videos and only masturbating to my imagination but i think porn has already killed everything in my life.

My penis is simply not growing, my measurements are below the average, even when its flaccid, and i think this is because of porn.

I am not looking to woman in a weird way anymore and i feel completely normal about that now, but my penis size is what makes me sad. I tried penis enlargement, jelqing and those things but i haven't seen results so far.

Another thing, i really don't know how to get back to meditation, i feel that i'm in a limbo and the gods are trying to help me but i keep refusing their help, and i'm scared that i won't get back to meditating like i was doing before.

I know the gods are there but i don't know how to get back to them, i love my GD even tho i dont know who he/she is. Appreciate any help of the community.

Satan is GOD! Hail Zeus!

 

[MercuryWisdom]

Im in puberty, 16, and i have porn addiction since i was 8-9.

I was managing to watch less porn videos and only masturbating to my imagination but i think porn has already killed everything in my life.

My penis is simply not growing, my measurements are below the average, even when its flaccid, and i think this is because of porn.

I am not looking to woman in a weird way anymore and i feel completely normal about that now, but my penis size is what makes me sad. I tried penis enlargement, jelqing and those things but i haven't seen results so far.

Another thing, i really don't know how to get back to meditation, i feel that i'm in a limbo and the gods are trying to help me but i keep refusing their help, and i'm scared that i won't get back to meditating like i was doing before.

I know the gods are there but i don't know how to get back to them, i love my GD even tho i dont know who he/she is. Appreciate any help of the community.

Satan is GOD! Hail Zeus!

First start the 40-day program by HP HC.

When you finish it, start deep cleaning your chakras, especially your Sacral, Solar plexus and upper chakras.

Read this

An approach to healing addiction

Addiction is truly a dark and gnawing part of human nature. It’s both a battlefield and a cry for spiritual hygiene and holes in the aura can cause you to feel and think like a subhuman. It’s painful, compulsive, and disgusting to be addicted. There’s no logic to an addict, it’s a compulsion...

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Hit the gym consistently to fix your penis size problem and don’t obsess over length. Unlike what porn promotes most girls don’t enjoy a large penis.

Start eating healthy and hit the gym and befriend more girls. It’s very important that you naturally deal with girls and date. When you take the gym seriously and slowly but surely quit porn you’ll be more attractive to women.

You are young so make sure you invest these years to become the best version of yourself in a couple of years.

It’s normal that you might relapse in the process of quitting, it’s important that once you relapse, you might jerk off like two to three more times, since “the streak is ruined anyway”.

It’s important to remove shame from the equation because shame is fuel for addiction and escapist tendencies. Take it step by step and if you relapse, learn and do better next time. Clearing and cleaning your upper and sexual chakras will help a ton. As it will remove the ugly compulsion for porn.

Don’t abstain completely, using your imagination is a great idea. At first it might be harder due to porn-induced erectile dysfunction, so you can use images or erotica at first until you detach and no longer need this.

 

[MercuryWisdom]

First start the 40-day program by HP HC.

When you finish it, start deep cleaning your chakras, especially your Sacral, Solar plexus and upper chakras.

Read this

An approach to healing addiction

Addiction is truly a dark and gnawing part of human nature. It’s both a battlefield and a cry for spiritual hygiene and holes in the aura can cause you to feel and think like a subhuman. It’s painful, compulsive, and disgusting to be addicted. There’s no logic to an addict, it’s a compulsion...

ancient-forums.com

Hit the gym consistently to fix your penis size problem and don’t obsess over length. Unlike what porn promotes most girls don’t enjoy a large penis.

Start eating healthy and hit the gym and befriend more girls. It’s very important that you naturally deal with girls and date. When you take the gym seriously and slowly but surely quit porn you’ll be more attractive to women.

You are young so make sure you invest these years to become the best version of yourself in a couple of years.

It’s normal that you might relapse in the process of quitting, it’s important that once you relapse, you might jerk off like two to three more times, since “the streak is ruined anyway”.

It’s important to remove shame from the equation because shame is fuel for addiction and escapist tendencies. Take it step by step and if you relapse, learn and do better next time. Clearing and cleaning your upper and sexual chakras will help a ton. As it will remove the ugly compulsion for porn.

Don’t abstain completely, using your imagination is a great idea. At first it might be harder due to porn-induced erectile dysfunction, so you can use images or erotica at first until you detach and no longer need this.

it’s important that once you relapse, you (((don’t))))* jerk off like two to three more times, since “the streak is ruined anyway”.

 

[Apprentice]

It would be better not to worry about the size of your rocket. There are people who mature later in life. In my case, the size improved substantially at the end of my 20s.
High libido is okay, pr0n addiction is not. I experienced the same when there was no internet and no imagery to look at.
It would be great if you could do a balancing working of your sexual energies, and live a better, calmer life as a result.

Sex Energy Re-calibration Meditation

This is very powerful and will help to empower your upper chakras, as well as help to open the pathways between the chakras and the chakra pairs (Base-Crown, etc). Make sure to clean your chakras on a regular basis. You can do this meditation daily, or weekly, or whenever you feel the need for...

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[Recycler1337]

Firstly, your penis won't change size due to masturbation or pornography. This is determined by genetics and how you develop, exercise, proper nutrition during adolescence, and good hormonal balance all play a role. You need to move from the destructive method of "banning" porn to a more effective method: learn to use your sexual drive more effectively. Channeling it toward finding a partner is the best way to do so. Don't watch studio-produced, kinky porn; watch erotica—there's nothing wrong with that if you don't have a partner.16 is a very active sexual age, and it's no surprise that you're addicted to porn these days. It's also the easiest age to find a sexual partner. Take advantage of this, don't miss out!

 

[Henu the Great]

You do not have a micropenis, so it really does not matter because dealing with girls is about emotional and social connection that raises the attraction. Nevertheless, girth and length can be trained to some extent (carefully!), but it matters very little; it is mostly to boost your own confidence, which is something that can be achieved with other means as well.

 

[Chrysallida]

Don't worry about the size...every lock has its own key... If you remain insecure over the years, start to learn about other sexual techniques. Not all girls are turned on by the main act.

 

[Aquarius]

Porn sizes are completely irrealistic, very few men have those sizes.

And if you ask women, they don't like it when it's too big, because it's actually pretty painful.

 

[Disciple of the Serpent]

Look online for easy peasy method, related to pornography.

It's a short book that through logic and reason helps you quit.

Personally the logic in it made me feel lighter, with less weight on my self.

You can find a free pdf easily.

 

[Emergent13]

Worth mentioning: When you are watching porn, you are literally watching another man having sex with someone who you find attractive.

In your case, this is even more serious because it makes you question your size and worthiness. So, you are both watching another man doing something you want to do, and you also think he is somewhat better than you. This is obviously very unhealthy, and I would also dare to call it a little bit cucked, if we are being honest.

Stay away from Western porn!!!

It's literally created by the enemy. They own almost all of the studios. Every time you are watching western porn, imagine a Yehubor rubbing his hands with anticipation and happiness, because that's literally the reality.

Also, don't label yourself negative things, such as in this case, that porn has killed everything in your life, in your words. This is not the right mindset to have, you are only 16, and you must be grateful that you have found this place at such a young age. That's a privilege in itself.

Porn might have caused serious issues, but none of these are permanent if you use the tools and knowledge that our Gods gave us. You are the children of the Gods; such a petty addiction cannot define who you are. You are not a victim, and we have already so many advantages compared to those who don't when it comes to finding a partner and in any aspect of life, really.

You can switch to more homemade/amateur porn for the starters, if cutting off porn entirely is too hard for you. No studio and known stars involved. Then, you can slowly switch up to erotica, non-nude videos, and still images.

BTW, I am not promoting any kind of porn. Going cold turkey will be hard for most people, so I am just offering decent alternatives. I would even argue that, if you don't have a partner currently, masturbating to erotica, non-nude videos & images could be beneficial because this way your will and desire to find a real lover will also increase, providing that you are sensible and aware of this.

Ultimately, the goal must be finding a real lover! Nothing can replace human emotion. And you must treat masturbation as something that helps you get closer to attaining the real thing.

You might also want to learn about what SG Karnonnos mentions here. I know it will be helpful.

Most people masturbate also to nothing (i.e. some ai waifu) and do nothing with it. This is a waste. What are you doing it for? Program the energy from orgasm to attract someone you like, something you want or to empower your soul. Do not let it dissipate.

Good luck with your endeavors and stay strong!

 

[Emergent13]

*those who are without.

It would be nice if we could edit our posts while they sit in review.

But, well, it would be even better if I had read my own post before sending..

 

[Unanimous]

Im in puberty, 16, and i have porn addiction since i was 8-9.

I was managing to watch less porn videos and only masturbating to my imagination but i think porn has already killed everything in my life.

My penis is simply not growing, my measurements are below the average, even when its flaccid, and i think this is because of porn.

I am not looking to woman in a weird way anymore and i feel completely normal about that now, but my penis size is what makes me sad. I tried penis enlargement, jelqing and those things but i haven't seen results so far.

Another thing, i really don't know how to get back to meditation, i feel that i'm in a limbo and the gods are trying to help me but i keep refusing their help, and i'm scared that i won't get back to meditating like i was doing before.

I know the gods are there but i don't know how to get back to them, i love my GD even tho i dont know who he/she is. Appreciate any help of the community.

Satan is GOD! Hail Zeu

 

[Unanimous]

Hey I'm 17 I've experienced something similar but I wonder when u felt the need to pleasure yourself did you feel as if your sacral energy was leaking or overflowing in your lower stomach above your private?

 

[Detacher]

Well, first you want to identify the root cause of the addiction itself as these things can vary from person to person.

But the best way to deal with any compulsion is to gain control over it.

This will sound counterintuitive at first, but you may want to actually allow yourself to watch pornography but at regularly scheduled intervals.

For example, say to yourself, "I am allowed to watch 15mins of porn at 6pm" and set an alarm for this and everything.

Then say, "once this 15mins is over, I have to stop, but if I want to watch more I am allowed to do so again at 10pm".

Eventually, watch it without any physical stimulation.

You may have to lower the time intervals based on what works for you and how strong your resistance to change, but the goal is to slowly increase the distance between each interval and lower the amount of dopamine produced by the habit.

Overall, this will teach your prefrontal cortex (executive function) that YOU are the one in control and the behaviour will gradually become easier to manage.

This works for building any sort of habit which you have a lot of mental resistance towards.

However, you also have to take active measures to improve your sex life or you will most likely fall back on the habit eventually.

By the way, the majority of pleasure a woman feels during sexual intercourse is mental/emotional and occurs within the first 1/3rd of the vaginal canal anyway, which is only a few inches.

Lady Astarte (aka Aphrodite, literally the Goddess of Love, Sex and Beauty) told me it is around ~60%—although it varies from woman-to-woman... but particularly the vaginal opening, hymenal ring, clitoris, and the famous "G-spot" are the most sensitive erogenous zones.

If you are having serious issues of body dysmorphia around the size of your penis due to porn, which is preventing physical intimacy, you may wish to say you're "the type of guy who likes to take things slow" and pleasure her in other ways first to build intimacy and also confidence in your own skills... because it is a skill, and thus, can be learnt!

It is a very intoxicating feeling to be able to make a girl completely lose herself drunk on pleasure—and one I'm sure will make you popular with the ladies!

You may also wish to connect with Lady Astarte through her ritual: https://tozrituals.org/rituals/god/astarte-power-ritual

Hope this helps!

 

[Check email please]

Porn sizes are completely irrealistic, very few men have those sizes.

And if you ask women, they don't like it when it's too big, because it's actually pretty painful.

In my opinion, i would never ask a girl that. And her saying she does not like those sizes because it is painful. Is even worse. Those i believe things that girls may talk to each other about. And i find it fine that all girls have preferences. The same way men do. Asking a question while expecting to hear an answer is a bit off. And it signals insecurity beneath it. Insecurity hints at unsolved issues that are the problem of the one asking. And it does not concern the other person. The other person opinion is a complete different matter.

 

[Check email please]

I went through something similar when I was your age. It’s one of those things that’s hard for anyone to understand unless they’ve lived it. First, I want to say be careful with certain practices like jelqing, as they can be dangerous.

Years ago, I struggled with insecurity about my body. A lot of it came from memes and online conversations that created a fear of judgment.

That fear extended to things like worrying I wouldn’t find a condom that fit. I remember buying one for the first time around 18 and feeling relieved that it worked perfectly fine.

When I entered my first sexual relationships, the anxiety was still there. Instead of letting it show, I leaned into a sense of presence and masculine energy. If you haven’t already, working out can help build that grounded confidence.

I also became very aware of the mental and spiritual side of things I realized that fixating on a fear would only invite it, so I made a point to clear my mind of those thoughts.

I approached sexuality more as connection than just a physical act. Because of that, I was able to be fully present, and intimacy felt natural rather than mechanical. In my experiences, I never encountered the rejection I had feared.

Instead, the feedback I received was overwhelmingly positive sometimes to a degree that surprised me. But I also made a point not to seek validation by asking “was it good.” That’s just a personal preference; I preferred to let things be the way they want to be.

There was a time later on when old insecurities resurfaced, especially during a period where my confidence was still solidifying. I ended up in a situation where a girl making fun of my P**** using a fake account, with an intent of hurting my confidence and rather than feeling hurt by it, I made screenshot of that and sent it to the two girls that i was sure it is one of them. Both i broke up with them few days/weeks before receiving the message. And i was sure it is one of them.

None of them admitted sending it, both backed, both was ready to get back with me, but both had tendency of general disrespect not meeting the respect standard i command. So i moved on.

A few things I learned along the way:

- Be mindful of who you enter into relationships with. It helps to be with someone whose emotional rhythm and values align with yours.

-Never bring up your insecurities as if they’re a problem to solve carry yourself with quiet confidence.

-Early on, it may be better to be with someone who approaches intimacy as something meaningful rather than routine. When someone has had many disconnected experiences, the dynamic can feel different less present. That’s not about you; it’s just human nature. But because of your sensitivity, it’s easy to misinterpret it as a reflection of your own worth.

Ultimately, what I feared never came true. The experiences I had didn’t match the stories I had built up in my head. The real work was in letting go of those stories and showing up fully present.