Family #79143 how can I change this

[Ask Satya Operator]

ive been feeling kinda down lately, i got nothing to do in my free time, i spend the whole afternoon looking for a video to watch or a game to play and im tired of that, ive been locked in my room all day since i was a kid and i dont know what to do about it, cuz i got nothing to do and even though i work digitally, meaning i dont even have a way to get out of the house every now and then. i miss being with my family but since i was little i was raised alone, i never had friends on my street, i was always a nerd and never good at making friends and at home i just had my pc and nothing else, and now im still like that, i feel like i wasted my whole life because of this, i wanna do something with my family but everyones so busy with work or other stuff, i feel like im at a point where theres nothing i can do. even going to the gym and trying to look better, it seems like every time i see myself in the mirror or on camera i feel disgusted. lately ive been getting really extremist, every day i just think about the bad things the jews do to society it keeps pounding in my head more and more, everything i see on social media is the bad stuff they do and it makes me hate them even more. i want someone in my life i want to find the woman of my dreams, but every time i think about that i remember how despicable i am as a person, how boring i am and how im not visually attractive. i feel like i wanna be in nature, i wanna connect more with the world, but i dont know how to do that, i have extreme communication problems cuz i dont know how to talk to others, i dont know how to make new friends. i miss being a kid, when i saw all my family united on special dates like christmas, easter, new year, after my grandma died i feel like my family drifted apart so much, and now as an adult i feel like everything is more gray obviously thats natural but i miss at least being close to everyone, seeing others talking and that feeling of belonging to something of having my family close. what should i do to change this? I want to feel better about the word, I want to make my family happy not just me, I want to be close to them

 

[Anemos Aiteros]

what should i do to change this? I want to feel better about the word, I want to make my family happy not just me, I want to be close to them

Magick is the solution.

For making better the world, you can participate to our Group Rituals: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/vultus-templorum-outreach-and-temple-live-rituals.301975/

For make your family happy and united, one idea could be to become extremely rich. In a material world, being rich is very important, with money you could resolve every material block that separate your family. After that, eventually, you could do magickal works for uniting your family, with Runes and Gods Rituals.

Sadness may be normal during spiritual evolution, react to it. Do more breathing exercises for example, increase your vitality.

 

[Epiphany]

what should i do to change this?

You gotta live it. You need to go into the world and try to live. Getting a job with a physical workplace is the easiest start. Go to open mics, bars, shows, find clubs or meetups for things you're interested in. You say you're a nerd so go to a comic con, a comic book store, a library or cafe or something and find other nerds to be around.

You need to talk to people because social connection will build and affirm your sense of "okayness". That is likely the root of all your issues. Without a social group, you have no social standing which means less drive to improve and be somebody, you have no way of witnessing yourself other than through your own distorted internal lens, and you're less inclined to do things, because nothing really means anything without people to share it with. That's why you need to find people. Social connection is the most important thing for your health and wellbeing.

 

[Egon]

ive been locked in my room all day since i was a kid and i dont know what to do about it, cuz i got nothing to do and even though i work digitally,

Besides the aforementioned suggestions, try also a side delivery job by bicycle, something you can make some money easily and exercise at the same time. You need to exercise, meet people and in general live a physical life, as those strenghten the lower chakras needed for grounding and self-steem, for an overall quality of life. Magic and meditation alone wont solve everything, they might lead you to the same conclusion. Go to a gym and/or do combat sport classes like Muay Thai.