Virginity

[Dahaarkan]

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I like you sunrise, don't get me wrong, you're kinda annoying and go completely mental over stupid shit, but you express yourself honestly, without any real fear of what others think or if they approve of you.

That's pretty cool in my opinion, but there is this thing called balance and self control. Personally I find dishonesty to oneself more irritating than a psychotic rant here and there but I'm probably alone on that. Biased even.


In the end you can express yourself honestly without coming off as a full blown psychopath, you know. In all honesty, the only thing that made me a little worried about your hilarious psychotic rant was the bit about being chosen by the gods to be the ambassador of sex workers (?).

In my experience people who sing that sort of tune tend to go completely insane after a little while. Be careful.


You had a cobra tell you to calm your tits and shut the fuck up. That's pretty okay. It's worse when a sloth notices you going full retard and climbs down a tree to drop a mad roast on you lol

A psychopath is someone who is defined as completely lacking empathy. That rant was not psychotic, probably could be defined as having a loose screw though. (Pun not intended.)

Yes the rant had no signs of someone who lacks empathy sure

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

Sunrise raises one good point the way you moderate the place is completely unacceptable if there is any justice in these forums Fancy needs to be banned immediately for writing posts longer than the time it takes to reach godhood

All the sermon authours, i.e. clergy, also need to be banned for the same reasons, then. Your sad attempt at hatred is just poor and that logic is also sad. Dare you tell me what you think your problem with me is?

He is making a joke dude, relax. He is making an irony of the other comment.

 

[HauptSturm]

If FancyMancy can't be banned for his long posts, can he be banned for being British?

Sadly I didn't get to read the rant. I had to go to work... But from what others were saying, it seems like an unwarranted response. I did say in my first post that it didn't really matter and the woman is more important.

 

[Luna Black]

All the sermon authours, i.e. clergy, also need to be banned for the same reasons, then. Your sad attempt at hatred is just poor and that logic is also sad. Dare you tell me what you think your problem with me is?

There is literally no way you can actually think that was a serious comment

Fancy makes me think of those instagram model girls. His personality and ego are on point.

 

[FancyMancy]

All the sermon authours, i.e. clergy, also need to be banned for the same reasons, then. Your sad attempt at hatred is just poor and that logic is also sad. Dare you tell me what you think your problem with me is?

There is literally no way you can actually think that was a serious comment

Sunrise raises one good point the way you moderate the place is completely unacceptable if there is any justice in these forums Fancy needs to be banned immediately for writing posts longer than the time it takes to reach godhood

All the sermon authours, i.e. clergy, also need to be banned for the same reasons, then. Your sad attempt at hatred is just poor and that logic is also sad. Dare you tell me what you think your problem with me is?

He is making a joke dude, relax. He is making an irony of the other comment.

OK.

You say literally no way... Well... As I said in another post a few weeks ago, I CBA to read all of the moody arguing posts, and they get so fecking annoying and boring. (I've been among drama on forums and chatrooms for years, including being involved in them myself, and of course I also have on here, as well... Oh hell naw.) So I just scanned the text and I noticed my username.

I apologise for my reply. Sorry. My mistake.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

All the sermon authours, i.e. clergy, also need to be banned for the same reasons, then. Your sad attempt at hatred is just poor and that logic is also sad. Dare you tell me what you think your problem with me is?

There is literally no way you can actually think that was a serious comment

Fancy makes me think of those instagram model girls. His personality and ego are on point.

Sinistra your help is requested on the French Translations, someone asked for contact. Check the posts if you have a moment. Thank you.

 

[Luna Black]

Do you have my email ? That would be preferable.

 

[Coraxo]

OK.

You say literally no way... Well... As I said in another post a few weeks ago, I CBA to read all of the moody arguing posts, and they get so fecking annoying and boring. (I've been among drama on forums and chatrooms for years, including being involved in them myself, and of course I also have on here, as well... Oh hell naw.) So I just scanned the text and I noticed my username.

I apologise for my reply. Sorry. My mistake.

We love you and your long posts!

Keep your chin up and stay fancy <3

 

[Luna Black]

OK.

You say literally no way... Well... As I said in another post a few weeks ago, I CBA to read all of the moody arguing posts, and they get so fecking annoying and boring. (I've been among drama on forums and chatrooms for years, including being involved in them myself, and of course I also have on here, as well... Oh hell naw.) So I just scanned the text and I noticed my username.

I apologise for my reply. Sorry. My mistake.

We love you and your long posts!

Keep your chin up and stay fancy <3

My stomach was upset but I couldn't make myself vomit on my own.Thank you ! Your help was invaluable !

 

[Coraxo]

My stomach was upset but I couldn't make myself vomit on my own.Thank you ! Your help was invaluable !

Next time just look in a mirror

 

[FancyMancy]

OK.

You say literally no way... Well... As I said in another post a few weeks ago, I CBA to read all of the moody arguing posts, and they get so fecking annoying and boring. (I've been among drama on forums and chatrooms for years, including being involved in them myself, and of course I also have on here, as well... Oh hell naw.) So I just scanned the text and I noticed my username.

I apologise for my reply. Sorry. My mistake.

We love you and your long posts!

Keep your chin up and stay fancy <3

Be careful Aldrick doesn't hear you saying "you love me and my long". Wow!

 

[Gearshift]

What is your experience in vibrating algiz vs suryae. Which do you feel is more powerful ?

I don't feel anything there is no difference. I just do it.

The only reason I do it is because well there is nothing better to do with my time so I just do it.

And the difference is nothing. Algs for protection and Suryayay for cleaning and protection.

Not to sound delusional but I talked to the voice that states she is my succubus and she said to me Suryayay works slightly better maybe 15% better than Surya, the extra yay boosts it for me. I told her I don't feel any difference whatsoever. She just said keep meditating and maybe you'll open up, with that attitude you'll get no where.

So basically one is protection, the other is cleaning plus protection. Technically I do 3 reps of Returning curses affirmation. I was doing 18 reps with Suryayay x36 but the affirmation feels weird it only protects when someone is doing something what about natural negativity being pumped in the air. So I switched to "The energies of Suryayay is permanently protecting me at all times and in every way". To boost the protection from all negative sources.

@Jack I simply vibrate AAA-LLL-GGG-SSS and SSS-UUU-RRR-YYY-AAA-YYY-AAA-YYY, and it feel like nothing at all. I simply vibrate something with my voice while doing my best to visualize white-gold hopefully it doesn't turn into yellow and do it. What can I say I never felt anything.

You guys state differences and whatnot and some of you guys talk like you've been meditating for decades and can feel the slightest difference positive or negative wise. It's weird I just sit there or for the most part stand or walk around vibrating.

It gets to the point of why am I in a spiritual community if I feel nothing. What can I say I got nothing better to do than to do this. Might as well mess around and see if something happens in the future.

Yes I walk around while meditating, I simply have no inclination to sit down and spend even just 3 minutes vibrating 30 vibrations or 36 vibrations or whatever. I don't feel anything what can I say. Maybe I'm locked out of meditating or entering a trance. Perhaps this is the main problem since 2003, not being able to enter a trance. But what if I achieve a trance and nothing happens or nothing develops. That's another issue that I have in mind.

I guess sometimes it makes me think if meditation is simply minfulness(void) and everything we do is some crazy sham that does nothing. Yes other spiritual sites state some things like ours protection or cleaning and whatnot. But sometimes I think is what I'm doing wasting my time even though I got nothing better to do. What does doing something with my mind do. If our thoughts do nothing and the mind is just a thinking device why would simply thinking about something spiritual affect our soul, mind, or body.

I guess in the end not feeling nor sensing nor noticing anything out of the ordinary makes me think. Spirituality is bogus and just a joke. Or if not a joke far out of reach of man incapable of returning back to it. Too much degeneration.

I know, I know don't trash yourself but I do trash myself a lot.

 

[Gearshift]

...yoga...

Used to do Yoga. Gets very annoying even doing 1 minute holds for the 18-20 minutes gets annoying.

In fact I diversified Hatha by doing breathing exercises. So while doing it I would do moolah bandha and pranayama. In other words deep full breath 1, deep full breath 2, and so forth but even low reps gets annoying. I mean sure it makes the Hatha more complex with doing in various asanas bandha and in all pranayama. Breath counting managed to get to 25 reps or so before I quit. If I had done a full 88, 100, or 111 not gonna do 216 obviously I'd probably be spending 40 minutes at least doing Hatha.

As for Kundalini it's not as annoying but after a while it's like why the fuck am I doing this.

In reality meditation does nothing for me. It just feels like a chore and even though I have nothing better to do I genuinely don't want to meditate.

It's an everyday thing and it's just an annoyance. I mean where do I go what do I do. I know meditation takes time but I literally have not felt a damn thing about it.

I mean why should I do meditation if nothing in returns occur. And yes a long back while I used to do MerKaBa it does nothing, perhaps when I first did in my teenage years nearing 2005 or in 2005. It did something to the negative. But I can genuinely state meditation does nothing for me.

It's like at what point does something happen or when do I change positions or whatnot. I'm not gonna dedicate two hours just to do yoga and some other basic things. It's funny even basic, the most basic, meditation gets annoying like doing cleaning with the complexity of cleaning in returning curses and cleaning and protecting. It's like by the time your done just a mild meditation session at least 15 minutes have passed by.

I have plenty of time but I just don't see the point in wasting time doing for so long when I could be doing more important things.

It's like what is the exact meditation path for someone who wants to start at Stage zero. Meditation does things physically, mentally, and spiritually; all of that is nice and all but not for me. Maybe I'm one of those people whereby meditation never works for them and is just another activity to waste time as there is nothing better to do.

 

[Gearshift]

Bro I think you need human contact. Go to a support group or something. You seem to be heavily depressed. Go talk to some support group people where they sit around in a chair and say things. At least go talk to your mom everyday and ask her about things. If you want to cry and let it out cry and let it out. I can feel intense emotional pain emanating from you just by reading your posts. I didn't pay attention to it before but this is very serious. Try to walk around outdoors for an hour or two. Research has shown people who spend time outdoors are happy and live longer. Im not sure how I can help you since I've already given you the best advice I can.

It's funny don't remember if it was 2018 or 2017 but I did a 40-day working Lydia posted at some point in time. And perhaps it's hitting me, it was a Vynn 88. I think it was for depression or something to do with lacking in happiness. I did it to the best of my abilities and when I read what you wrote I don't seem depress. Perhaps there is a depression but it isn't clinging unto me in a prominent way. So it's possible that working did something or is doing something. Can't state for sure all I know is for 40 days right around 7 or 8 PM Vynn 88 plus her affirmation she posted.

And I am seeing a therapist. Actually told her about my religion and politics. And not an eyelash was batted even when telling about the big lie. She was like I don't care about what you are, everyone has their own opinion and whatnot, nothing wrong with you.

She did state recently I integrated my politics-religion with my identity. There is me and this plus and she wants to remove this plus and separate my identity and be myself. I found it funny because a certain astrological aspect I have creates a chameleon person. Shame I can't state more but I'm prone to either wearing masks or other people's mask even emulation of them to a degree. Almost like stating I mirror them and their rapport is better cause they think they are talking to themselves.

She said doing what I did at 12 years old is very strange most kids are not even paying attention to such things. Your personality seems like you solidified it over 16 years ago, rather than the traditional 18-26 year area when the personality solidifies. I told her well to be honest years back when I was like 7 is when I hardened especially considering '96, '97 I got cable TV and watched history channel a lot and like the documentaries and found it to be a obsession. Even as time went by searching the internet and really up to JoS when I found it. Did spend most of my school years delving in my fantasies on alternative history scenarios and whatnot. Guess I just tuned out school and ignored it.

I will admit I do kinda feel bad delving into political regimes, at the time. Not for any particular reason other that due to my astrological chart I never held a concrete view of myself. Basically what is my true self, do I have a true self, I think in my opinion I have no true self. Which scares some people with those thoughts because it makes them feel awkward about their own selves and reality.

Also I do walk around a lot in my house and in my backyard in a large circle around my yard. Mostly talking to myself and interacting with my own fantasies and whatnot

I have read an astrological aspect about exercising that it helps the neptunian energies settle down to focus on the carnal body and not so much the mind and soul. But I'm not an exercising person despite have an appreciation for it. Even if I did it would take a while to help me ground the fantasy whereby it becomes safe to reintegrate daydreaming and make it more realistic and have realistic goals. Though since I never exercised in any meaningful way I can't state if it's true or not. I mean yeah your being realistic focusing on the body but will it even help the fantasizing(daydreaming).

I guess I could be depressed but it's just feels like normal everyday mood or fog of moods I experience. Very changeable in my moods and activities. Funny used to say a lot I'm a robot cause I never felt anything. Not literally but never felt like doing anything much or whatever. So I kinda memed myself into believing I need to feel something, to do something. Why would I do something without feeling seems like some people just go by the motions not actual spark of interest.

 

[The Alchemist7 [SG]]

That's what depression is - low Bioelecticity.

Yea he would be able to deal with it by doing power meditations. In time his bioelectricity will increase and he would be better. Actually is not even big deal to do it. A Raum meditation and a session of full power Kundalini Yoga with 108 breaths where required takes around one hour. In one-two mounths this can seriously improve a person who was for years and years in deep depression.

 

[The Alchemist7 [SG]]

That's bullshit dude lol let people help themselves.

Yea nobody will do it aniway, he can help himself but he's just lazy.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

That's bullshit dude lol let people help themselves.

Yea nobody will do it aniway, he can help himself but he's just lazy.

Time spent interpolating on one's own thoughts - 5 hours per day.

Time spent shutting up the mind and trying to reach the feminine mind to effectively meditate - 0 seconds

Hours wasted on complaints based on still interpolating one's own thoughts - 5 hours per day.

Tears spent in trying to constantly logically loop yourself to understand yourself reaching ultimately nowhere cause of your own fault - 5 hours a day.

Gotta complain, it's Cobra's fault, it's the world's fault.

 

[High Priest Zevios Metathronos]

That's bullshit dude lol let people help themselves.

Yea nobody will do it aniway, he can help himself but he's just lazy.

Yeah and as always, it's other peoples fault. Cause I'm too lazy for it to be mine as this implies I'd need to fix it, so I'd rather blame others for it, for ez solutions.

 

[FancyMancy]

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As I say, knowledge + action = power. You might clarify that further by saying knowledge + relevant action = related power.

That's what depression is - low Bioelecticity.

Yea he would be able to deal with it by doing power meditations. In time his bioelectricity will increase and he would be better. Actually is not even big deal to do it. A Raum meditation and a session of full power Kundalini Yoga with 108 breaths where required takes around one hour. In one-two mounths this can seriously improve a person who was for years and years in deep depression.

I know some would argue that that is easier said than done. The motivation behind it also lacks.

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Well, I was partly right. Thanks for the clarification.