Tongoenabiago
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Hey guys, I'm writing this because I want advice, tips, to hear sermons, I don't know, anything.
I feel like shit for having to write this, because it's something that is so shallow compared to other problems that it makes me angry and sad for letting it affect me. Well, in fact, love is driving me crazy, destroying me, I don't know what that feeling is.
I won't go on too much, but the fact is that I fell in love with a woman. Throughout my life I've fallen in love several times, the famous platonic love, and time has healed the wounds, I've always had this problem of falling in love very easily.
The fact is that this woman simply destroys my heart for not having her, it's a feeling of dependence and desire that I've never felt before, I'm simply crazy about her and seeing her every day only makes it grow. I met her at work and I've already expressed my interest in her, but she was dating someone.
Well, I've been at the company for a few months and, in fact, I tried to perform a love spell twice, but I gave up because I felt guilty about her dating, I didn't think it was right... but because I couldn't forget her at all, I said "fuck it" and started a spell focused on lust (I vibrate Ehwaz, Kenaz and Gebo)... well, I never felt a great improvement in relation to her with this spell, but I promised I wouldn't give up, I'm going to complete the 40 days (I'm on 32).
A few days ago I started a new spell (everything was aligned... Venus in a good house, the moon in a good sign...) and I vibrate Aum Klim KamaDevaya Namah 108*, it's the highest amount of vibrations I've ever performed... Well, I've been performing this spell for 13 days and a few things have happened, the first was this story that I posted here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/thre...ed-while-you-were-sleeping-love-magic.292482/ and I recently found out that she broke up with me...
Well, at first I think the spell is working, but... the problem is in this damn feeling... Because I'm crazy about her, I feel that any sign of rejection, even if it's not a negative one, makes me feel "destroyed", that is, I feel like the spell doesn't work and I start to question everything. I know I created a gigantic illusion in my mind and, because of that, I end up being very disappointed.
I know I'm still weak and when I started the magic I imagined that it wouldn't work and I would move on if it didn't work, but I simply fell more in love...
I'm writing this exactly because at that moment I felt rejected, that maybe I'll never have her... and that destroys me because I start to question if the magic is really working... I've read reports of magic here and they all say that I should act, show interest... but when I do that she doesn't reciprocate (then I feel the rejection) and when I don't do anything it seems like things flow, but if I take action it seems like I'm doing it wrong and my advances aren't reciprocated... I can't understand when it's the magic "forcing" me to do something or me forcing something... I don't know if I should wait for her to manifest herself first... like... I don't know...
Because sometimes I have that pain of feeling love that ends up hurting, I ask my guardian demon for a sign (I don't know what it is yet), Satan... anything... if I'm on the right path, if I should give up on her... because I can't forget her, because I can't see an answer, I feel abandoned, spiritually weak, this ends up eating me away, because I really wanted her and, I don't know, it's destroying me...
As I said, when I found out she ended the relationship, we had a fun conversation talking about asking her out, that we wanted to be next in line... but she said we were just going to be friends, but not in a gross sense, I don't know, I noticed in her voice that it wasn't a total rejection, because she said that her ex-boyfriend was her friend and she was the one who asked to date him, which ends up indirectly feeding me with hope.
Well, the fact is that I want to end this feeling, I want to understand that if she doesn't want to, okay, I want to move on... but I know that right now I can't do that at all. And I write this because I know that if she gets a new boyfriend, I know that it will leave me even more destroyed. And, as I said, when I see that I am still not completely reciprocated, I start to question whether magic works and I question whether "if it doesn't work with her, I know it won't work to attract the right person"...
I don't know, this text may seem like a pity party, but I just want to get rid of this feeling, or at least I want to insist on it, but without getting hurt if I am rejected...
I feel like shit for having to write this, because it's something that is so shallow compared to other problems that it makes me angry and sad for letting it affect me. Well, in fact, love is driving me crazy, destroying me, I don't know what that feeling is.
I won't go on too much, but the fact is that I fell in love with a woman. Throughout my life I've fallen in love several times, the famous platonic love, and time has healed the wounds, I've always had this problem of falling in love very easily.
The fact is that this woman simply destroys my heart for not having her, it's a feeling of dependence and desire that I've never felt before, I'm simply crazy about her and seeing her every day only makes it grow. I met her at work and I've already expressed my interest in her, but she was dating someone.
Well, I've been at the company for a few months and, in fact, I tried to perform a love spell twice, but I gave up because I felt guilty about her dating, I didn't think it was right... but because I couldn't forget her at all, I said "fuck it" and started a spell focused on lust (I vibrate Ehwaz, Kenaz and Gebo)... well, I never felt a great improvement in relation to her with this spell, but I promised I wouldn't give up, I'm going to complete the 40 days (I'm on 32).
A few days ago I started a new spell (everything was aligned... Venus in a good house, the moon in a good sign...) and I vibrate Aum Klim KamaDevaya Namah 108*, it's the highest amount of vibrations I've ever performed... Well, I've been performing this spell for 13 days and a few things have happened, the first was this story that I posted here: https://www.ancient-forums.com/thre...ed-while-you-were-sleeping-love-magic.292482/ and I recently found out that she broke up with me...
Well, at first I think the spell is working, but... the problem is in this damn feeling... Because I'm crazy about her, I feel that any sign of rejection, even if it's not a negative one, makes me feel "destroyed", that is, I feel like the spell doesn't work and I start to question everything. I know I created a gigantic illusion in my mind and, because of that, I end up being very disappointed.
I know I'm still weak and when I started the magic I imagined that it wouldn't work and I would move on if it didn't work, but I simply fell more in love...
I'm writing this exactly because at that moment I felt rejected, that maybe I'll never have her... and that destroys me because I start to question if the magic is really working... I've read reports of magic here and they all say that I should act, show interest... but when I do that she doesn't reciprocate (then I feel the rejection) and when I don't do anything it seems like things flow, but if I take action it seems like I'm doing it wrong and my advances aren't reciprocated... I can't understand when it's the magic "forcing" me to do something or me forcing something... I don't know if I should wait for her to manifest herself first... like... I don't know...
Because sometimes I have that pain of feeling love that ends up hurting, I ask my guardian demon for a sign (I don't know what it is yet), Satan... anything... if I'm on the right path, if I should give up on her... because I can't forget her, because I can't see an answer, I feel abandoned, spiritually weak, this ends up eating me away, because I really wanted her and, I don't know, it's destroying me...
As I said, when I found out she ended the relationship, we had a fun conversation talking about asking her out, that we wanted to be next in line... but she said we were just going to be friends, but not in a gross sense, I don't know, I noticed in her voice that it wasn't a total rejection, because she said that her ex-boyfriend was her friend and she was the one who asked to date him, which ends up indirectly feeding me with hope.
Well, the fact is that I want to end this feeling, I want to understand that if she doesn't want to, okay, I want to move on... but I know that right now I can't do that at all. And I write this because I know that if she gets a new boyfriend, I know that it will leave me even more destroyed. And, as I said, when I see that I am still not completely reciprocated, I start to question whether magic works and I question whether "if it doesn't work with her, I know it won't work to attract the right person"...
I don't know, this text may seem like a pity party, but I just want to get rid of this feeling, or at least I want to insist on it, but without getting hurt if I am rejected...