afl666 said:
Ghost in the Machine said:
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I'm going to help you, okay? Stay here and keep visiting these forums, I'll advise you on how to set things right because I recognize this situation from my own past and if I managed to escape so can you.
What you're in is what I call a "Dread Chamber", an encapsulated residential space of overwhelmingly toxic negative energies that have completely engulfed your home and living space and of which is perpetually manifesting negative event after negative event per the law of attraction. The reason your meditations are not working is because all of these negative energies are so overwhelming that the little energies you do manage to conjure are immediately snuffed out by them.
I dealt with this same thing in a most atrocious past almost as psychologically debilitating as yours. I'm going to help you get out of this and we're going to start from the very basics okay? It's going to be slow progress but it was slow progress for me as well, every little bit is going to count in the end.
What you need to do is you need to go
outside to do your meditations, you need to leave this place, this entire area you're living in to escape that Dread Chamber, you don't have to go very far it can be as far as a backyard, you just need to be outside of it. Once you're out, finally you can do your cleanings unhindered and you've already been doing this as you've said but you need to do this every day and you're neglecting to do one very important thing while you're out there, building your protective aura must be done as well and both of these are going to be priority number 1 and you need to do these as thoroughly as possible while you're outside for as long as you can.
Because of the debilitation of your energies overtime due to this Dread Chamber you may struggle to feel things again but you'll pick it up again in time the more you do this. The cleaning will rid what gathered on your soul while you were in the Dread Chamber, and the protective aura will help hinder the negative energies of it from penetrating you so easily while you're in it. The more you clean and build up this protective aura outside every single day the longer you're going to be able to last in the Dread Chamber and you'll be able to build it up to a strong enough point where you can start to counter and clean out all of the negative energies in a room of your choosing (This is going to be your main meditation room, it should be where you have the most privacy).
You're going to completely sanctify and purify all of the energies in this meditation room, flush everything out, clean it physically too to the best of your ability. You're going to devote a couple weeks consistently every day to strictly just flushing out and cleaning out all of these negative energies in this room, and once
all negative energies are completely cleaned out as best you could manage, you're going to shield this room with a binding spell to seal out all negative energies on each wall of your room and any and all doors and windows to your room, you're going to allow positive energies in but negative energy is going to be kept out, when we get to this part you can try asking Satan for help with the bindings and shielding of this room, he is never too busy to provide help when it is truly needed, you do not have to worry about him being too busy.
With this purified room you're going to make sure negative energy does not build up in it, you're going to keep it as spiritually clean as you can, this means whenever negative energies are attached to you or you just went through something very stressful, frustrating or negative, try to go outside and do the cleaning and protection meditations first as thoroughly as you can before going into your meditation room; or if this is not an option just thoroughly clean yourself and the energy in the room as best you can while you're in there and you can do energy cleanings of the room either every day, 3 times a week, twice a week, once a week, it's up to you.
This room is going to be your safe space and building up your energy/life-force/powers again is going to be crucial in here. This room is also where you're going to be able to actually start workings on getting a job, finding a place, etc doing whatever working at a time you can towards finding your own place, attracting a partner, etc and this time you're actually going to be able to
conjure and put in the energies and this time they
are going to work because no suffocating negative energies are cancelling them out and you're going to be getting your strength and bio-electricity/powers/energy back with the cleaning, foundation and aop outside and such.
This is the rough plan you're going to have laid out but you need to focus on one step at a time, so right now you need to focus on those cleanings and protections outside of the Dread Chamber as priority number one. Go outside every day or whenever and wherever you can, if you can do this twice a day that's great, then clean
as much negative energy out of yourself as you can, really visualize yourself engulfed in overwhelmingly powerful white-gold flames and visualize them completely burning away and entirely destroying any and
all negative energy in your soul.
Then when you've cleaned out as much as you can you're going to really build up a powerful protective aura to the best of your abilities. Even if you can't feel it very well anymore, do the foundation meditation and build up your energy as best you can and then do the AoP with very strong intent, belief and focus. Visualize diamond armour being built around you in layers with each breath and affirmation along with the white-gold aura expanding, growing brighter and more powerful as it's built up, strengthening your protection and know and believe that it is protecting you completely from any and all negative energies, deflecting them
entirely and in
totality. If the sun is out
definitely inhale the direct sun energy and put it into this aura as well. Once you've built it up to the absolute that you believe you can within reason, focus and turn your attention to this protective aura and vibrate ALGIZ
into it 88 times or as many times as you feel makes the aura most strongest in it's protective properties.
You're going to be doing this for several weeks every single day without fail if you can and as thoroughly for as long as you can while you're outside. After at least a month (you can even do an extra week or even an extra month to make extra sure if you want) has passed of doing this, cleaning and protecting your soul and building up your protective aura, come back to me on the forums and I'll explain your next steps.
With devotion, effort, faith and patience, you
can and
will get out of this. If you ever have any questions, I as well as other regulars and members will always be here to answer. You are not a failure, you just happened to be unaware of what was actually going on in the real reason as to why your efforts weren't working, it has absolutely nothing to do with you,
it has to do with your surrounding environment. Now you
are aware and you can begin to fix everything.
afl666 said:
I forgot to write three things in the first answer I posted for you.
The first is that before I made my Dedication I always saw, heard, and felt the presence of spirits and knew whether it was bad energy or not; but after I made my Dedication, I "lost that gift.
As I've stated above this has nothing to do with the dedication, your abilities have been debilitated by the Dread Chamber you're in, you need to build things up again, but if these abilities were already opened up before then this isn't going to take as long as it would take a fresh new member in meditation.
