Hello there, everyone.
First, I would like to introduce myself. I'm 20 years old man, living in Europe in country named Czech Republic (I'm not native english speaker so I'm sorry for any mistakes). I'v managed to get into college, studying english literature and english language first year. Now, every time I needed something, I turned to Satan. I don't know why but in the age of 9-10, I'v started to turning to him. I'm praying to him, promising him my loyalty and living by his code (or atleast I believe so).
Recently, I'v found JoS webpage and I was blown away by how much sence it made to me. I mean, I always felt like Satan was the true way but I never read any satan bible or book, only few texts on the Internet. I'm ought to add that for a long time, I hear scratching on my wall. In my room, I have also Christian cross since my mother is Christian believer. Those scratches I'v heard, well, since I can remember. I hope it is not much confusing, so I'll try to keep it short.
After reading some articles on JoS, I laid down on my bed, thinking about it. I was very relaxed, when I heard that scratching from the wall and, in addition, I heard something new - thumping and scratching from above, on my ceiling. In my mind I said to myself "Well, you could show yourself, you know?" and in that second, it all stopped and all I heard was dead silence. It was really hurting my ears as if I expected something but still, I was relaxed and didn't move by any bit. Then, I heart something in my mind... At first, I nearly didn't even notice it, but then I heard strange voice in my head. I don't know what it said, it was one sentence and then I felt something electrifying, as if something touched my head and the electrifying feel spread from my head trough my body. It was amazing, I even slowly opened my eyes to see if something was there, but I saw nothing. Just the feeling. After a while, I turned over and tried to sleep, but I had feeling that someone is sitting right next to me all the time. After about 30 minutes, I fell asleep.
Em I going nuts? Do you even believe me? If you do, what do you think it might be? Before it all happened, I thought about Agares, since I felt strong sympathy for her, but I doubt it could be her.
First, I would like to introduce myself. I'm 20 years old man, living in Europe in country named Czech Republic (I'm not native english speaker so I'm sorry for any mistakes). I'v managed to get into college, studying english literature and english language first year. Now, every time I needed something, I turned to Satan. I don't know why but in the age of 9-10, I'v started to turning to him. I'm praying to him, promising him my loyalty and living by his code (or atleast I believe so).
Recently, I'v found JoS webpage and I was blown away by how much sence it made to me. I mean, I always felt like Satan was the true way but I never read any satan bible or book, only few texts on the Internet. I'm ought to add that for a long time, I hear scratching on my wall. In my room, I have also Christian cross since my mother is Christian believer. Those scratches I'v heard, well, since I can remember. I hope it is not much confusing, so I'll try to keep it short.
After reading some articles on JoS, I laid down on my bed, thinking about it. I was very relaxed, when I heard that scratching from the wall and, in addition, I heard something new - thumping and scratching from above, on my ceiling. In my mind I said to myself "Well, you could show yourself, you know?" and in that second, it all stopped and all I heard was dead silence. It was really hurting my ears as if I expected something but still, I was relaxed and didn't move by any bit. Then, I heart something in my mind... At first, I nearly didn't even notice it, but then I heard strange voice in my head. I don't know what it said, it was one sentence and then I felt something electrifying, as if something touched my head and the electrifying feel spread from my head trough my body. It was amazing, I even slowly opened my eyes to see if something was there, but I saw nothing. Just the feeling. After a while, I turned over and tried to sleep, but I had feeling that someone is sitting right next to me all the time. After about 30 minutes, I fell asleep.
Em I going nuts? Do you even believe me? If you do, what do you think it might be? Before it all happened, I thought about Agares, since I felt strong sympathy for her, but I doubt it could be her.
