Satan's tests

[Way_Seeker6661]

Long story short, a few days ago my girlfriend left me. At first I was in a sort of emotional shock, I was just like "ok, it's happened" and that was that for the rest of the day. That night, as the hurt started creeping in, I decide that since it was now me and only me(I have no one else in this town and that's how I want it) and I'd be living alone I would give EVERYTHING to my path with Satan and the Gods. Next morning I began and had new and amazing experiences in my Meditations. That day was horribly painful but a strength and focus arised that I have never felt before. I was SOLID. I didn't stop moving all day because if I did the emotions would swell up too much. Next day was similiar, except I was becoming used to it and the pain was far worse and where the previous day I was absolutely determined to block her out this day I wanted her back, intensely. Well she came back. This was yesterday and already my focus has dropped, my energy too, I'm not IN myself like I was. Now, I've realized, looking back, at that moment she asked me to take her back it was a test of my devotion to Satan. My inner self said no, but I said yes. Now I feel I've dissapointed Satan, and passed up the opportunity to achieve my truest desires. You'll answer me with "break up with her" but I know myself and I won't be back in the same space that way. My question is this: Does Satan allow us second chances with such tests?

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

To err is human. I think you're still in the test, it's what you ultimately decide that will be your "final answer". Ask yourself: Are you choosing her forever? Or will you permanently end the relationship soon?

Hail Father Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

Long story short, a few days ago my girlfriend left me. At first I was in a sort of emotional shock, I was just like "ok, it's happened" and that was that for the rest of the day. That night, as the hurt started creeping in, I decide that since it was now me and only me(I have no one else in this town and that's how I want it) and I'd be living alone I would give EVERYTHING to my path with Satan and the Gods. Next morning I began and had new and amazing experiences in my Meditations. That day was horribly painful but a strength and focus arised that I have never felt before. I was SOLID. I didn't stop moving all day because if I did the emotions would swell up too much. Next day was similiar, except I was becoming used to it and the pain was far worse and where the previous day I was absolutely determined to block her out this day I wanted her back, intensely. Well she came back. This was yesterday and already my focus has dropped, my energy too, I'm not IN myself like I was. Now, I've realized, looking back, at that moment she asked me to take her back it was a test of my devotion to Satan. My inner self said no, but I said yes. Now I feel I've dissapointed Satan, and passed up the opportunity to achieve my truest desires. You'll answer me with "break up with her" but I know myself and I won't be back in the same space that way. My question is this: Does Satan allow us second chances with such tests?

 

[hoodedcobra666]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

Long story short, a few days ago my girlfriend left me. At first I was in a sort of emotional shock, I was just like "ok, it's happened" and that was that for the rest of the day. That night, as the hurt started creeping in, I decide that since it was now me and only me(I have no one else in this town and that's how I want it) and I'd be living alone I would give EVERYTHING to my path with Satan and the Gods. Next morning I began and had new and amazing experiences in my Meditations. That day was horribly painful but a strength and focus arised that I have never felt before. I was SOLID. I didn't stop moving all day because if I did the emotions would swell up too much. Next day was similiar, except I was becoming used to it and the pain was far worse and where the previous day I was absolutely determined to block her out this day I wanted her back, intensely. Well she came back. This was yesterday and already my focus has dropped, my energy too, I'm not IN myself like I was. Now, I've realized, looking back, at that moment she asked me to take her back it was a test of my devotion to Satan. My inner self said no, but I said yes. Now I feel I've dissapointed Satan, and passed up the opportunity to achieve my truest desires. You'll answer me with "break up with her" but I know myself and I won't be back in the same space that way. My question is this: Does Satan allow us second chances with such tests?

The true test would be to be able to control your emotions, make sure you can break free. Satan tests your loyalty to Him and Satanism, your loyalty in what you have experianced with Him. Will you betray him or bend for the enemy? Or stick with Him despite of anything, be it fear threats or emotional damage? Satan rewards ruthless loyalty, whatever may happen, stay loyal to Satan and never leave His side, and He is always there for you. I had much too. Preety much. I didn't leave him. Damage in many areas, blessings in so many more. Will you stay loyal? Just because you made a post about it, which seems genuine, I would say that the main core of the test is gone. You don't need to sacrifice your life, you need to live your life. Make everything as better as you can. Meditate. Try to keep up with your program and her. She is an outsider? If she is willing to come with Satan, I would say spend time with her. If not, don't tie in man. You will face shit. After each choice something awaits you. After the right choice...Satan awaits you. Personally thats what I have found out. Satan is always at the end of the right choice. Do you need Satan more or her more? You sacrifice your religion, but does she sacrifice her ignorance to embrace Father Satan? Thats a big question.

HAIL SATAN!!!!

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

It's an easy choice, but a hard decision. The thing is, like I said, it's about the state of being it put me in and if I were to end it now I wouldn't go into that again. Then again if I make this choice for Satan, anything is possible. Lydia you're always somehow a help no matter what you say. Thank you Sister

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

Thanks, I'm always glad to help my brethren

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

It's an easy choice, but a hard decision. The thing is, like I said, it's about the state of being it put me in and if I were to end it now I wouldn't go into that again. Then again if I make this choice for Satan, anything is possible. Lydia you're always somehow a help no matter what you say. Thank you Sister

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

Wow. What a reply. "After each choice something awaits you. After
the right choice...Satan awaits you." This really struck me. Yes she is an outsider. And yes she knows about my being a Satanist. When she came back she said she wants to start learning, but she has said that before and I doubt her resolve to actually get on with it. I've realized living with someone is bad for me, but it's worse because her energy is lower than mine and she's draining, which completely fucks with my Meditations because all the energy I raise I lose. It's a frightening thought, giving everything to Satan, even though it's what I want more than anything, because I've been fucked over every time I commit to someone. I KNOW Satan will NEVER let me down though. He just doesn't do that. Tonight I was walking to a shop, just after some other shit happened which could have disastrous repercussions, and I was talking to Satan, asking if He could please help me with it. I said I would do this - go alone and give my life ENTIRELY to Him, the Gods, and Myself - and He immediately said "Well then you have NOTHING to worry about". So I have a lot to organize and somehow make happen with tremendous odds against me but I've made my decision.
Thank you for your words Brother!

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]I too have learned to trust Father with my love life,and it turned out better then I could have ever imagined.I just decided that I could not ever have anyone that is not an SS completely.To me there just isn't anything to build a intimate relationship on,plus how cool is it to do rituals to Enki with your spouse.

Hail Enki
Brian 

--- On Sat, 4/21/12, Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@... wrote:

From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Satan's tests
To: [email protected]
Date: Saturday, April 21, 2012, 5:44 PM

  Wow. What a reply. "After each choice something awaits you. After
the right choice...Satan awaits you." This really struck me. Yes she is an outsider. And yes she knows about my being a Satanist. When she came back she said she wants to start learning, but she has said that before and I doubt her resolve to actually get on with it. I've realized living with someone is bad for me, but it's worse because her energy is lower than mine and she's draining, which completely fucks with my Meditations because all the energy I raise I lose. It's a frightening thought, giving everything to Satan, even though it's what I want more than anything, because I've been fucked over every time I commit to someone. I KNOW Satan will NEVER let me down though. He just doesn't do that. Tonight I was walking to a shop, just after some other shit happened which could have disastrous repercussions, and I was talking to Satan, asking if He could please help me with it. I said I would do this - go alone and give my life ENTIRELY to Him, the Gods, and Myself - and He immediately said "Well then you have NOTHING to worry about". So I have a lot to organize and somehow make happen with tremendous odds against me but I've made my decision.
Thank you for your words Brother!

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

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[hoodedcobra666]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

Wow. What a reply. "After each choice something awaits you. After
the right choice...Satan awaits you." This really struck me. Yes she is an outsider. And yes she knows about my being a Satanist. When she came back she said she wants to start learning, but she has said that before and I doubt her resolve to actually get on with it. I've realized living with someone is bad for me, but it's worse because her energy is lower than mine and she's draining, which completely fucks with my Meditations because all the energy I raise I lose. It's a frightening thought, giving everything to Satan, even though it's what I want more than anything, because I've been fucked over every time I commit to someone. I KNOW Satan will NEVER let me down though. He just doesn't do that. Tonight I was walking to a shop, just after some other shit happened which could have disastrous repercussions, and I was talking to Satan, asking if He could please help me with it. I said I would do this - go alone and give my life ENTIRELY to Him, the Gods, and Myself - and He immediately said "Well then you have NOTHING to worry about". So I have a lot to organize and somehow make happen with tremendous odds against me but I've made my decision.
Thank you for your words Brother!

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

Satanism is about having guts. If you have guts and you punch the enemy and yourself in the face when they misbehave (...most of the time they misbehave together...) then this is what you need. Don't let yourself take you. Unless you have everything you want, check your past. Yourself got you there without any interference, by the hand of destiny, others and foolish circumstances we rarely if ever get what we want. Why is that? Because ourself on his own is incapable of manifesting most desires and getting us to the right place. The first time when you grabbed destiny by the neck was when you dedicated to Father Satan. The first time you punched all these oppressions and became a true warrior, started to take yourself to where you want, was when you dedicated to Satan for His cause. IF you pay a close notice, after that many enemies start to show up, includign your own self. Why? Because this is the only path that you will get what you desire and you will become a master. That goes for anywhere. Destiny, an untamed mind and the enemy will always try to fuck you up. You must fuck them up first and this is a struggle. It will come to an end evantually, but till then you have to fight rentlessly and fight like there will be no end. Its for your wellbeing and survival as well as gratification.

If you have Satan's word, you need none else's clarification or anything. Satan is the Greatest. Have faith in Him more than any Human being. You sacrifice your meditations and what will save your soul, life and will get you to where you will be the best and you get nothing in return, just abuse and false promises from an outsider. Dump her. She dumps you everyday she neglects the Truth. Whats better than being with a Satanist and whats WORSE than neglecting the Truth. She's with you. She knows that we are not monsters. That we are good hearted and warm people and Freedom Fighters. I don't want to sound emotionless, but having Passion for Satan overpowers most of my emotions when I allow it. I want to go boom as I write this message.


I am sure Satan helped you eventhough this choice was not the suitable, but you reached a peaking point where your nerves broke on your own. Again, HE helped you. Satan is the most compassionate God and whomever is Loyal to Him shall never Perish. I love and will forever love Him. He has warned me before many fuckups in my life. Whenever I didn't listen or brushed it off, I faced bad circumstances. Ruined my reputaion, lost loved ones, had bad luck and had losses. Whenever I listened I was blessed. And even in these worse times, He supported me and got me out. I can never express any more gratitude.


HAIL SATAN!!!!

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

Lydia, I didn't mean that what you said wasn't helpful itself. It was. Just out of gratitude I wanted to say that. There are certain people in this group I've always felt either a strong connection to or a feeling of sensing them in some strange way. You're always encouraging in this way and I look up to you.

 

[High Priestess Lydia]

Aww thanks Way_seeker that means a lot to me

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

Lydia, I didn't mean that what you said wasn't helpful itself. It was. Just out of gratitude I wanted to say that. There are certain people in this group I've always felt either a strong connection to or a feeling of sensing them in some strange way. You're always encouraging in this way and I look up to you.

 

[Way_Seeker6661]

You are so right about all this. You've reminded me of one of Satan's warnings to me, that I didn't listen to. No prize for guessing where it's gotten me...
I'm pissed off about the fact that I have to wait to dump her, because of us living together and other things. Or maybe I'm not seeing clearly. But I KNOW good things are coming, as long as I stick to my word and I WILL. I want to do it now. I want to stand up and voice my choice of Satan over all others. I want to get to working on my Spiritual Goals and Fighting for Him and my Desires. I'm hoping to gain some clarity on this after tonight's Ritual. This has to end so my True Path can start.
Thank you so much Brother, and Brian, and Lydia. You guys are awesome!

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

 

[maxi E intizza]

Father is not testing you. YOU are testing yourself. your devotion to father is something between YOU and FATHER. having a girlfriend or not makes no difference in the matter.your devotion to father should be 100% at all times, in or out a relationship. Father should always come first and last in your life. Ave Satanas

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Way_Seeker666" <way_seeker666@... wrote:

Long story short, a few days ago my girlfriend left me. At first I was in a sort of emotional shock, I was just like "ok, it's happened" and that was that for the rest of the day. That night, as the hurt started creeping in, I decide that since it was now me and only me(I have no one else in this town and that's how I want it) and I'd be living alone I would give EVERYTHING to my path with Satan and the Gods. Next morning I began and had new and amazing experiences in my Meditations. That day was horribly painful but a strength and focus arised that I have never felt before. I was SOLID. I didn't stop moving all day because if I did the emotions would swell up too much. Next day was similiar, except I was becoming used to it and the pain was far worse and where the previous day I was absolutely determined to block her out this day I wanted her back, intensely. Well she came back. This was yesterday and already my focus has dropped, my energy too, I'm not IN myself like I was. Now, I've realized, looking back, at that moment she asked me to take her back it was a test of my devotion to Satan. My inner self said no, but I said yes. Now I feel I've dissapointed Satan, and passed up the opportunity to achieve my truest desires. You'll answer me with "break up with her" but I know myself and I won't be back in the same space that way. My question is this: Does Satan allow us second chances with such tests?

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Sometimes my friend we have to make some hard choices,but Father always makes things better then we can imagine.

Hail Enki
Brian 

--- On Mon, 4/23/12, Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@... wrote:

From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Satan's tests
To: [email protected]
Date: Monday, April 23, 2012, 5:14 PM

  You are so right about all this. You've reminded me of one of Satan's warnings to me, that I didn't listen to. No prize for guessing where it's gotten me...
I'm pissed off about the fact that I have to wait to dump her, because of us living together and other things. Or maybe I'm not seeing clearly. But I KNOW good things are coming, as long as I stick to my word and I WILL. I want to do it now. I want to stand up and voice my choice of Satan over all others. I want to get to working on my Spiritual Goals and Fighting for Him and my Desires. I'm hoping to gain some clarity on this after tonight's Ritual. This has to end so my True Path can start.
Thank you so much Brother, and Brian, and Lydia. You guys are awesome!

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

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[Way_Seeker6661]

I don't expect Him to make things better this time, although I do need some help, I just want to do what I need to.
Thanks Brian. You too are always an encouragement, and I'm grateful for you.


Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Thanks brother,but that is what we are all here for,and why our great High Priestess started this group.We all draw from the experiences of each other,and I depend on you and many of the older members here,as well as our dedicated clergy.

Hail Enki
Brian 

--- On Wed, 4/25/12, Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@... wrote:

From: Way_Seeker666 <way_seeker666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Satan's tests
To: [email protected]
Date: Wednesday, April 25, 2012, 9:02 AM

  I don't expect Him to make things better this time, although I do need some help, I just want to do what I need to.
Thanks Brian. You too are always an encouragement, and I'm grateful for you.

Hail To Our Father!!!
Hail Lord Maat!!!
Hail To All The Mighty Gods and Goddesses of Hell!!!

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