Is it good to ask the Gods for harsh tests? Or it should be avoided at all cost?

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Sometimes when i slip, i feel shame before the Gods, and do not seek compassion from them since this will confirm their kindness and confirm my failure, instead, i instantly do something to rebalance this, i once gave some big oaths, i did not break them, i fulfilled them successfully , or i start asking for harsh tests, I am okay if they will be harsh challenges that i will either overcome or fail to pass, but i do not want events such as a car accident etc..

I have been through that its not something i fear its just something i see as an unnecessary and unhealthy event. I would be okay with tests that aligns with improving instead of ones who may destroy me. I.e. tests related to unlocking higher levels so i won’t lose anything by failing. How the Gods orchestrate the tests ? Its completly dumb to face unnecessary problems.. it will be counterproductive..

Is it good to ask the Gods for harsh tests? Or it should be avoided at all cost?