Question #5282: Am I possessed?

[Ask Satya Operator]

I don't know where to start with this. Two years back I had attempted a seance at a local cemetery via ouija board. I am not an Zevism, however I have ran out of places to turn to. The seance was to contact a deceased friends father. To cut a long story short it ended in tears with the most vile things possible coming from that board. Hearing noises around us we ran and left the board behind. Cut to a few weeks later, I'm shaving and I look into the mirror to see myself rotted through. Black and purple welts all over as if I had been dead for a long time. Grinning ear to ear. I lose control of my hand and end up slicing pretty deep into my face. Still have the scar today.

Ever since I haven't been right. I haven't seen the thing again. I have very evil thoughts and urges and they have only gotten worse overtime. All giving me a sense of euphoria when I give into them. I've been in and out of jail a few times since then. Last big incident was when my best friend at the time was arguing with me. I don't remember over what. I just remember this urge came over me to k*** her. To rip her apart. Before I knew it I was on her trying to choke the life out of her. I was feeling ecstatic like I was a god until whatever spell was over me wore off and I let go, completely fucking horrified at what I had tried to do. Ended up getting some time for assault after that. I'm on parole now.

Sometimes I still see that image in the mirror but only for a moment. Other times I hear things moving around the house and sometimes objects move on their own.

Please. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to k*** some one but if I don't do anything I know I will. Can Satan help me?

 

[Recycler1337]

If you go through initiation and work for the gods you can definitely forget about many negative things.


You have obviously caught a lot of negativity and may have attracted some not so good entities by doing such “experiments”

 

[Ĥl·lĥæ]

That sounds very serious, I think a good way is to do self-hypnosis.
And dedicate it to Satan, he'll remove this obstacle and you'll be able to move forward in peace.
Or at least nothing very bad will happen

 

[Henu the Great]

Yes, the above poster has it right.

Tune out of it so that you will not feed these things.
Train to control your mind with void meditation.
Lastly, you need to extensively clean your whole being and then apply aura of protection. This is a standard everyday practice that helps alleviate all such issues making them less than trivial.

Not being a dedicated Spiritual Satanist means you are easy prey for such things, even when you do the above in earnest as you have at best very limited help from our Gods. It is best not to mess around with spiritual beings without support and being ignorant about the topic--your life is a testament to this statement...