Please...help.

[rocko]

I think i'm going to take my life. Wether with drugs, or a straight bullet to the head, i just feel it coming. I sincerely don't understand how you guys get to cope with the current situation of the Earth. I opened my third Eye in the period of time from 2014 to 2017 give or take, and since then, i'm in utter despair. I mean, it's LITERALLY a zombie apocalypse out there...you see this shit too, right? The way people walk, their dead eyes, it's fucking grotesque, nobody has the slightly remote idea of what they are doing nor why they are doing it, they didn't even notice they're alive. And i'm not even thinking from a place of compassion, i'm quite honestly a pretty selfish guy, it's just that to know that i'm going to spend the rest of my life between four walls,since i simply can't live in the mental asylum they call a "society", or even worse working..it's SO depressing. For the ones who are thinking "just talk to the Gods" no disrespect, but i never heard a word from them in probably six years. I felt their presence sometimes, but what i need is a rational argument about why i should keep living, if there is one. Should i just accept to live "inside" (inside myself, not my house, you know what i mean) and live like a recluse for the rest of my life? By the way i'm almost 26, wich makes me feel even worse because i know i'm way too young to live like this. I really don't see any other option...thank God i still like making music (when i'm not in a catatonic state ), it helps me to not losing my mind, sometimes. Thank you for your time, cheers

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

I think i'm going to take my life. Wether with drugs, or a straight bullet to the head, i just feel it coming. I sincerely don't understand how you guys get to cope with the current situation of the Earth. I opened my third Eye in the period of time from 2014 to 2017 give or take, and since then, i'm in utter despair. I mean, it's LITERALLY a zombie apocalypse out there...you see this shit too, right? The way people walk, their dead eyes, it's fucking grotesque, nobody has the slightly remote idea of what they are doing nor why they are doing it, they didn't even notice they're alive. And i'm not even thinking from a place of compassion, i'm quite honestly a pretty selfish guy, it's just that to know that i'm going to spend the rest of my life between four walls,since i simply can't live in the mental asylum they call a "society", or even worse working..it's SO depressing. For the ones who are thinking "just talk to the Gods" no disrespect, but i never heard a word from them in probably six years. I felt their presence sometimes, but what i need is a rational argument about why i should keep living, if there is one. Should i just accept to live "inside" (inside myself, not my house, you know what i mean) and live like a recluse for the rest of my life? By the way i'm almost 26, wich makes me feel even worse because i know i'm way too young to live like this. I really don't see any other option...thank God i still like making music (when i'm not in a catatonic state ), it helps me to not losing my mind, sometimes. Thank you for your time, cheers

Our world is changing and not going to remain in its current situation, so there is hope for the future. Beyond that, Satanism brings you the tools to change anything in your life. So there are two big reasons why you should keep living.

To some degree, yes you have to accept what is currently around you, knowing it will take time to fix. We all have to be able to live separately, to some extent. We are like our own culture, basically. Those who are able to live in their head, such as through detached air or dreamy water, will be able to deal with this better, yet fire signs can help one carve their own existence. Earth energy, like Nauthiz, can build up a cold resilience to anything around it.

Yet, you can still attract even non-Satanic people who you would get along with, through Wunjo/Eihwaz or Mercury energy. You can also use Wunjo on yourself, in a short-term sense, to create happiness. Also, if you like music, it may make sense to join a community centered around that.

Don't forget about finding romantic relationships with Venus energy or Gebo. For any working to attract people to you, you should always intend to get the most compatible person, in the sense of both their astrology and spiritual inclinations. Obviously you wouldn't attract someone that produces the same despair you may be feeling.

As far as working goes, you can try to find remote-only jobs, although not all of those jobs yield great income alone.

 

[FancyMancy]

That's akin to a soldier getting scared and causing himself an injury so he can be a coward and not fight anymore. Maybe you should go watch horror films and laugh at them to calm yourself down, as well as any meditations to help you be in control of yourself.

 

[rocko]

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I think i'm going to take my life. Wether with drugs, or a straight bullet to the head, i just feel it coming. I sincerely don't understand how you guys get to cope with the current situation of the Earth. I opened my third Eye in the period of time from 2014 to 2017 give or take, and since then, i'm in utter despair. I mean, it's LITERALLY a zombie apocalypse out there...you see this shit too, right? The way people walk, their dead eyes, it's fucking grotesque, nobody has the slightly remote idea of what they are doing nor why they are doing it, they didn't even notice they're alive. And i'm not even thinking from a place of compassion, i'm quite honestly a pretty selfish guy, it's just that to know that i'm going to spend the rest of my life between four walls,since i simply can't live in the mental asylum they call a "society", or even worse working..it's SO depressing. For the ones who are thinking "just talk to the Gods" no disrespect, but i never heard a word from them in probably six years. I felt their presence sometimes, but what i need is a rational argument about why i should keep living, if there is one. Should i just accept to live "inside" (inside myself, not my house, you know what i mean) and live like a recluse for the rest of my life? By the way i'm almost 26, wich makes me feel even worse because i know i'm way too young to live like this. I really don't see any other option...thank God i still like making music (when i'm not in a catatonic state ), it helps me to not losing my mind, sometimes. Thank you for your time, cheers

Our world is changing and not going to remain in its current situation, so there is hope for the future. Beyond that, Satanism brings you the tools to change anything in your life. So there are two big reasons why you should keep living.

To some degree, yes you have to accept what is currently around you, knowing it will take time to fix. We all have to be able to live separately, to some extent. We are like our own culture, basically. Those who are able to live in their head, such as through detached air or dreamy water, will be able to deal with this better, yet fire signs can help one carve their own existence. Earth energy, like Nauthiz, can build up a cold resilience to anything around it.

Yet, you can still attract even non-Satanic people who you would get along with, through Wunjo/Eihwaz or Mercury energy. You can also use Wunjo on yourself, in a short-term sense, to create happiness. Also, if you like music, it may make sense to join a community centered around that.

Don't forget about finding romantic relationships with Venus energy or Gebo. For any working to attract people to you, you should always intend to get the most compatible person, in the sense of both their astrology and spiritual inclinations. Obviously you wouldn't attract someone that produces the same despair you may be feeling.

As far as working goes, you can try to find remote-only jobs, although not all of those jobs yield great income alone.

Thank you very much, i hope the Runes work (how many repetion you think should i do in your experience?)
I know i sound like a little bitch :lol: i really do, but keep in mind i was basically a kid when i started doing this, cronic depression and gender dysphoria doesn't help, too..but in regard to the future, do you actually believe is going to get much better? (I'm honestly asking, i don't mean to be confrontational)
I can see the benefits of this war in 100 years and for the rest of humankind, but i'm not so sure about our lifetime...i know it sounds pessimistic but i imagine Israel won't be so happy with the outcome of their 5000 years old plan screwed...and we know how crazy they are. Thanks again

 

[Osiris]

Suicide is not an option. People who committed suicide think that there could be ending of sufferings after death. But since you're a Satanist, you know the truth. One have to keep reincarnating until finishing the final goal. This is a solid and brutal fact. If you give up here, you still have to deal with it in your next life which you could have fixed in this life.
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=19218&p=77895&hilit=suicide#p77895

Be conscious, be blank, do not focus on the negative outside. You love making music, then keep doing it. Do more yogas and breath exercises to raise your bio-electricity. Do void meditation to gain more control of the mind. Cleaning your soul deeply. Do the purification, another witches sabbath is coming.

It is tough, but you have to stay strong. There is no turning back on this path.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

Thank you very much, i hope the Runes work (how many repetion you think should i do in your experience?)
I know i sound like a little bitch :lol: i really do, but keep in mind i was basically a kid when i started doing this, cronic depression and gender dysphoria doesn't help, too..but in regard to the future, do you actually believe is going to get much better? (I'm honestly asking, i don't mean to be confrontational)
I can see the benefits of this war in 100 years and for the rest of humankind, but i'm not so sure about our lifetime...i know it sounds pessimistic but i imagine Israel won't be so happy with the outcome of their 5000 years old plan screwed...and we know how crazy they are. Thanks again

You need to first work on your solar chakra and fire energies to make yourself feel better and more optimistic.

You can chant Sowilo or Raidho directly into your solar chakra. The exact number does not matter, just do what you are comfortable with. For example, start with 10 or 20 reps, then affirm either that your solar chakra is permanently empowered, or that your confidence and willpower are increased, all in a positive manner. Then, take 5 or 10 seconds and watch the changes on the chakra.

Besides this, do the Breath of Fire, and do enough that you feel energized. You can program the energy similarly as above, as well.

This will help resolve any depression, which is not actually "chronic", it just hasn't been treated properly.

 

[Veritá_666]

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I give you a reason to go on, while you are choosing whether to go on living or not, the enemy is moving against you and against humanity.
The enemy has been working non-stop for over 5000 years, to see humanity annihilated.
You should also fight, but also physically where you have the opportunity, for example by gaining money, power and influence.

This will be crucial as the world will not remain the same and the enemy will inevitably collapse.
If you remember we have a ten-year agenda, you could focus on that.

 

[Wolfsage]

Your gonna die anyways, what’s the rush? Do you have loved ones or family? Live to damage the enemy if you are so disgusted. It’s worth it. Don’t know old you are but it gets better with age.

 

[rocko]

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Thank you very much, i hope the Runes work (how many repetion you think should i do in your experience?)
I know i sound like a little bitch :lol: i really do, but keep in mind i was basically a kid when i started doing this, cronic depression and gender dysphoria doesn't help, too..but in regard to the future, do you actually believe is going to get much better? (I'm honestly asking, i don't mean to be confrontational)
I can see the benefits of this war in 100 years and for the rest of humankind, but i'm not so sure about our lifetime...i know it sounds pessimistic but i imagine Israel won't be so happy with the outcome of their 5000 years old plan screwed...and we know how crazy they are. Thanks again

You need to first work on your solar chakra and fire energies to make yourself feel better and more optimistic.

You can chant Sowilo or Raidho directly into your solar chakra. The exact number does not matter, just do what you are comfortable with. For example, start with 10 or 20 reps, then affirm either that your solar chakra is permanently empowered, or that your confidence and willpower are increased, all in a positive manner. Then, take 5 or 10 seconds and watch the changes on the chakra.

Besides this, do the Breath of Fire, and do enough that you feel energized. You can program the energy similarly as above, as well.

This will help resolve any depression, which is not actually "chronic", it just hasn't been treated properly.

Thank you very much.

 

[rocko]

Your gonna die anyways, what’s the rush? Do you have loved ones or family? Live to damage the enemy if you are so disgusted. It’s worth it. Don’t know old you are but it gets better with age.

That's definetely true eheh we are gonna die. I need to regain physical and mental strenght, i even used drugs to cope with the trauma, and to be honest It helped for a while, but now i'm really exausted. I guess it's either Die or be Reborn.