Please...help.

[FancyMancy]

That's akin to a soldier getting scared and causing himself an injury so he can be a coward and not fight anymore. Maybe you should go watch horror films and laugh at them to calm yourself down, as well as any meditations to help you be in control of yourself.

 

[Osiris]

Suicide is not an option. People who committed suicide think that there could be ending of sufferings after death. But since you're a Satanist, you know the truth. One have to keep reincarnating until finishing the final goal. This is a solid and brutal fact. If you give up here, you still have to deal with it in your next life which you could have fixed in this life.
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=19218&p=77895&hilit=suicide#p77895

Be conscious, be blank, do not focus on the negative outside. You love making music, then keep doing it. Do more yogas and breath exercises to raise your bio-electricity. Do void meditation to gain more control of the mind. Cleaning your soul deeply. Do the purification, another witches sabbath is coming.

It is tough, but you have to stay strong. There is no turning back on this path.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Thank you very much, i hope the Runes work (how many repetion you think should i do in your experience?)
I know i sound like a little bitch :lol: i really do, but keep in mind i was basically a kid when i started doing this, cronic depression and gender dysphoria doesn't help, too..but in regard to the future, do you actually believe is going to get much better? (I'm honestly asking, i don't mean to be confrontational)
I can see the benefits of this war in 100 years and for the rest of humankind, but i'm not so sure about our lifetime...i know it sounds pessimistic but i imagine Israel won't be so happy with the outcome of their 5000 years old plan screwed...and we know how crazy they are. Thanks again

You need to first work on your solar chakra and fire energies to make yourself feel better and more optimistic.

You can chant Sowilo or Raidho directly into your solar chakra. The exact number does not matter, just do what you are comfortable with. For example, start with 10 or 20 reps, then affirm either that your solar chakra is permanently empowered, or that your confidence and willpower are increased, all in a positive manner. Then, take 5 or 10 seconds and watch the changes on the chakra.

Besides this, do the Breath of Fire, and do enough that you feel energized. You can program the energy similarly as above, as well.

This will help resolve any depression, which is not actually "chronic", it just hasn't been treated properly.

 

[rocko]

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Thank you very much, i hope the Runes work (how many repetion you think should i do in your experience?)
I know i sound like a little bitch :lol: i really do, but keep in mind i was basically a kid when i started doing this, cronic depression and gender dysphoria doesn't help, too..but in regard to the future, do you actually believe is going to get much better? (I'm honestly asking, i don't mean to be confrontational)
I can see the benefits of this war in 100 years and for the rest of humankind, but i'm not so sure about our lifetime...i know it sounds pessimistic but i imagine Israel won't be so happy with the outcome of their 5000 years old plan screwed...and we know how crazy they are. Thanks again

You need to first work on your solar chakra and fire energies to make yourself feel better and more optimistic.

You can chant Sowilo or Raidho directly into your solar chakra. The exact number does not matter, just do what you are comfortable with. For example, start with 10 or 20 reps, then affirm either that your solar chakra is permanently empowered, or that your confidence and willpower are increased, all in a positive manner. Then, take 5 or 10 seconds and watch the changes on the chakra.

Besides this, do the Breath of Fire, and do enough that you feel energized. You can program the energy similarly as above, as well.

This will help resolve any depression, which is not actually "chronic", it just hasn't been treated properly.

Thank you very much.

 

[rocko]

Your gonna die anyways, what’s the rush? Do you have loved ones or family? Live to damage the enemy if you are so disgusted. It’s worth it. Don’t know old you are but it gets better with age.

That's definetely true eheh we are gonna die. I need to regain physical and mental strenght, i even used drugs to cope with the trauma, and to be honest It helped for a while, but now i'm really exausted. I guess it's either Die or be Reborn.