JessDoesStuff
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- Nov 20, 2019
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Hello
I was born and raised a Christian. All my family and relatives are extremely religious . I realised something was wrong when I didn’t feel anything at church , I didn’t feel God . My prayers were left unanswered and I was very depressed . All the “Christians “ I knew had a deep dark secret which would consider to be sinful.
I came to hate Christianity and God and wanted to find a batter path that wasn’t as destructive .
After a while I started doing research due to an arise of many questions that I have asked myself . It consumed me . I opened my mind and eventually I came here . I’ve read the entire SatanisGod website and taking in as much information as possible . However , to be honest it’s a lot of information at once and will take quite some time to let it sink in and remove all my Christian brainwashing I’ve gone through . I’m asking for a little bit of help about your experiences and where I could begin , as I’m starting completely from scratch .
I’m not sure if this is relevant and I might be thinking a little too far, but there was a time I was so low in life that as I was sitting (almost) crying on the bus , I whispered that I wanted to feel like someone was protecting me. Then a raven flew next to the window with me for a few seconds then left. Keep in mind I haven’t seen any raven before this incident for years. It happened exactly this moment . It was a black bird either a raven or crow I’m not sure .
I’m Currently 16 so I’m not able to live on my own yet , and closely monitored by religious fanatics.
I want to start my journey towards a better life with Satan and I’m as dedicated as ever . I’m sorry if I sounded a particular way I’ve never written on topics and discussions , it’s my first time .
Thanks !
I was born and raised a Christian. All my family and relatives are extremely religious . I realised something was wrong when I didn’t feel anything at church , I didn’t feel God . My prayers were left unanswered and I was very depressed . All the “Christians “ I knew had a deep dark secret which would consider to be sinful.
I came to hate Christianity and God and wanted to find a batter path that wasn’t as destructive .
After a while I started doing research due to an arise of many questions that I have asked myself . It consumed me . I opened my mind and eventually I came here . I’ve read the entire SatanisGod website and taking in as much information as possible . However , to be honest it’s a lot of information at once and will take quite some time to let it sink in and remove all my Christian brainwashing I’ve gone through . I’m asking for a little bit of help about your experiences and where I could begin , as I’m starting completely from scratch .
I’m not sure if this is relevant and I might be thinking a little too far, but there was a time I was so low in life that as I was sitting (almost) crying on the bus , I whispered that I wanted to feel like someone was protecting me. Then a raven flew next to the window with me for a few seconds then left. Keep in mind I haven’t seen any raven before this incident for years. It happened exactly this moment . It was a black bird either a raven or crow I’m not sure .
I’m Currently 16 so I’m not able to live on my own yet , and closely monitored by religious fanatics.
I want to start my journey towards a better life with Satan and I’m as dedicated as ever . I’m sorry if I sounded a particular way I’ve never written on topics and discussions , it’s my first time .
Thanks !