Lost Looking for Truth

[louisvillecmc]

I died and returned to life from a fatal bloodclot that caused me to coed so many times the doctors stop counting. I heard of the Baptist minister, the prayers of churches, and all these such things. However, with my choice of Hip Hop / Rap to tell my story, vent my anger, and express myself has been rejected by many close friends.

I find myself curious..... What brought me back to life to be ill, sick, in need of SSI checks, and prayers of help in the music industry to fall on death ears. Was it God? Luck? Demons? Doctors? Im confused.

I read the Joy of Satan site after dabbling in the craze of illuminati, the olympics, the dreaded 2012 doomsday. After landing on JoS I learn of musical Demons or "Angels" that can help, aid, and advise.....

Again... Iam Lost in need of help these new ideals are leading up to new recordings that will take place in a month after probation ends for me. Yes Im on probation after serving time for 3 years in prison (my last 3 healthy years of my life) where I worshiped in the chapel, prayed to Jesus and God but never recieved an early release, shock probation, but to live my last healthy days behind bars....

Like I said confused, lose, not wanting to give up, give in, and quit are my thoughts and emotions. You shared your knowledge, your teachings, beliefs, and symbols with me free of charge. Let me do the same for you:

http://louisvillecmc.webs.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6aZIEW6tns8 - this track has "possibly" got me into a Video Shoot/Remix situation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utjulAdAao4 - This track recieved a mixtape feature & local radio play

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-shgWTxAfak - This is inspired from my search (backward version of latest song)

I have only made "smallcracks" with opportunities and promises of Mtv video exposure. I want to learn more , how to open my mind , think things into happening , to see if the "deal" is the way I want to go.

Again:

Lost

Confused

That is Louisville CMC

thank you

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Well if you've been observing the posts you prolly know what you need to do. REad https://templeofzeus.org/LiturgicalTerms.php to deprogram from this hoax first of all and realize that xianity is a lie. Then you should consider Zevism only if you've deprogrammed yourself and cut all ties with this hoax. Including the xian mindset you have where you need to pray and depend on other beings instead of doing things for yourself. That's a very xian and stupid thing to do, no offense, not to mention counterproductive and victimizing. In Satanism we learn to take care of ourselves without depending on other beings, the Gods merely teach us and give us knowledge about how to do things for ourselves and gein the knowledge and power so one will never depend on them. I'm talking about things like power meditations and/or magick.

Also you should know the main point here as well. It's not to make yourself successful in music, but spiritual transformation of your soul. You're free to use any powers you obtain this way as "magick" to make you more successful in music though. But you shouldn't be interested on that reason alone, or else you will be disappointed. As it's been said it's true spirituality, we're very spiritual and not only focused on material things like musical records.

No offense, but in your entire post you only talk about music and rap not how you want to develop and transform yourself spiritually and/or learn the truth. If I'm wrong, feel free to correct me.

--- In , "louisvillecmc" <secondchance1980@... wrote:

I died and returned to life from a fatal bloodclot that caused me to coed so many times the doctors stop counting. I heard of the Baptist minister, the prayers of churches, and all these such things. However, with my choice of Hip Hop / Rap to tell my story, vent my anger, and express myself has been rejected by many close friends.

I find myself curious..... What brought me back to life to be ill, sick, in need of SSI checks, and prayers of help in the music industry to fall on death ears. Was it God? Luck? Demons? Doctors? Im confused.

I read the Joy of Satan site after dabbling in the craze of illuminati, the olympics, the dreaded 2012 doomsday. After landing on JoS I learn of musical Demons or "Angels" that can help, aid, and advise.....

Again... Iam Lost in need of help these new ideals are leading up to new recordings that will take place in a month after probation ends for me. Yes Im on probation after serving time for 3 years in prison (my last 3 healthy years of my life) where I worshiped in the chapel, prayed to Jesus and God but never recieved an early release, shock probation, but to live my last healthy days behind bars....

Like I said confused, lose, not wanting to give up, give in, and quit are my thoughts and emotions. You shared your knowledge, your teachings, beliefs, and symbols with me free of charge. Let me do the same for you:

http://louisvillecmc.webs.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6aZIEW6tns8 - this track has "possibly" got me into a Video Shoot/Remix situation

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=utjulAdAao4 - This track recieved a mixtape feature & local radio play

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-shgWTxAfak - This is inspired from my search (backward version of latest song)

I have only made "smallcracks" with opportunities and promises of Mtv video exposure. I want to learn more , how to open my mind , think things into happening , to see if the "deal" is the way I want to go.

Again:

Lost

Confused

That is Louisville CMC

thank you