Looking for Answers

[Maggie1]

Hello, Im new to this group, Im 32 years old, and I remember that was a child one of my recurring dreams was that I was being chased by someone on a road and he eventually would get me, I remembered that he would say that I shouldnt be scared because my place was with him, I knew he was Satan, although I could never see his face. I told my mother once and she said I probably was watching too much tv, I told my grandmother and she made me go to church and confess my "sins." My mother allowed us to choose our own religion since she dissagrees with all Christian stablished religions and calls them hypocrit, my sisters and I agreed. We were always very interested in all things that lead to the "dark arts" and have up tp a point made them part of our daily life, even though we know that there are a lot of knowledge that has been hidden from us. Lately I ve wondered that if by listening to christian priests I have regected something that was given to me as a gift is that why I used to be able to dream about things before they happened and now I cant? Is that why its become so hard for me to meditate and why I feel so lost?

 

[strengththroughsatan89]

When reading this i knew i had to reply. I had many experiences as a child and many thoughts in my head that pointed to me being a Satanist. First when i was young, i would say starting around age five or so up until age 10 or so i would hear this voice in my head. Now the voice was my own it had no voice of its own but the thoughts were not mine. This voice would always come to me when i need someone to talk to, needed help or it would just come out of nowhere. It would say things like God was evil and Satan was good and other things like that. I always thought this was a imaginary friend but when i found Satanism seven years ago and read that demons are with us when we are young i know it was a guardian demon. I never got his/her name. I always had the feeling that the entity was female though. All i knew was she was a witch (witchcraft) so i just called her witch.

Than there was this dream that i had, i was still in my single digits at the time and i had this dream where i was an infant in my crib and i stood u in my crib and i saw these two or three orange glowing (aura) figures coming out of my wall. I woke up before anything could happen. Also when my grandfather passed when i was five a few days after the passing i was in my kitchen and i turned around and i saw this blue glowing (aura) entity there. Now it was for a split second and i mean a split second. So for waht i saw i thought it was my grandfather but it was glowing blue. Now i had no attatchment to my grandfather so this was not grief over his death.. Maybe it was him or a demon since they appear in a blue aura.

ALso i was always attracted to the black arts. I would always pretend to have powers as a kid and that i wa sable to do things. Anything dealing with magick i loved. I also had a fascination with Satan as a child as well, i never feared him like others did and never much thought about him being evil. Now this is a stupid one but even before finding Satan or magic or Satanism i would always spit out the communion wafer in church. It tasted beyound bitter and di not want the ting in my mouth. All of this was before i found Satanism or the JOS site. I am sure there is more but i just can not think of anything else right now.

Now when i got older the voice, the dreams, and thoughts began to disappear. I think this is because for one like you said we ignored them and therefore gave up those gifts, but hey we were young and didnt know better and two as kids we were much more open to things spiritually for our minds and souls had not yet been tampered with my the kike controlle enviornment. But as i am getting further and further into Satanism these gifts are coming back. he voice is yet to come back but the dreams have. I have always had a tsalent to dream, and a few months ago i had dreams of my past lives. I did not see myself but the signs in the dreams when i researched them pointed to past lives.

I remembered one more thing when i was first getting into Satanism, when i was following the chirstian teachings i had a dream where i would go through this small door and this creature would chase me. This was a reacurring dream, i had it many times. I believe this was the enemy trying to scare me away from finding the truth like it knew i would one day.

As kids i am sure if you ask others in here they would ay they had signs to but ignored them. So you asked did you loose those gifts i would say no you did not. They are just dormant and as an adult you are more closed off which can be fixed by meditating and progressing on the path of Satanism.

Sorry for the long post.

Hail Satan

--- In [url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url], "Maggie" <social_buttrfly78@... wrote:

Hello, Im new to this group, Im 32 years old, and I remember that was a child one of my recurring dreams was that I was being chased by someone on a road and he eventually would get me, I remembered that he would say that I shouldnt be scared because my place was with him, I knew he was Satan, although I could never see his face. I told my mother once and she said I probably was watching too much tv, I told my grandmother and she made me go to church and confess my "sins." My mother allowed us to choose our own religion since she dissagrees with all Christian stablished religions and calls them hypocrit, my sisters and I agreed. We were always very interested in all things that lead to the "dark arts" and have up tp a point made them part of our daily life, even though we know that there are a lot of knowledge that has been hidden from us. Lately I ve wondered that if by listening to christian priests I have regected something that was given to me as a gift is that why I used to be able to dream about things before they happened and now I cant? Is that why its become so hard for me to meditate and why I feel so lost?

 

[lydia_n_666]

Welcome! And to answer your question, yes, but through daily meditation you will get your natural abilities back. I myself was born a natural with remote viewing, but allowed to become convinced that it was just my "over-active imagination" and I guess I repressed it until I discovered JoS and realized that it is actually real.

Have you looked over the JoS site thoroughly? There is a link on the main page, Join Hell's Army, it takes you through a 6 month spiritual training program, and guides you through meditations, leading to more difficult and advanced meditations.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url], "Maggie" <social_buttrfly78@... wrote:

Hello, Im new to this group, Im 32 years old, and I remember that was a child one of my recurring dreams was that I was being chased by someone on a road and he eventually would get me, I remembered that he would say that I shouldnt be scared because my place was with him, I knew he was Satan, although I could never see his face. I told my mother once and she said I probably was watching too much tv, I told my grandmother and she made me go to church and confess my "sins." My mother allowed us to choose our own religion since she dissagrees with all Christian stablished religions and calls them hypocrit, my sisters and I agreed. We were always very interested in all things that lead to the "dark arts" and have up tp a point made them part of our daily life, even though we know that there are a lot of knowledge that has been hidden from us. Lately I ve wondered that if by listening to christian priests I have regected something that was given to me as a gift is that why I used to be able to dream about things before they happened and now I cant? Is that why its become so hard for me to meditate and why I feel so lost?

 

[Catlovers Foreva]

problem in meditations is usually from the enemy godform,go to hp vovim site n find severing the links,n yes,it from all the brainwashing we've gone through.   im born clairvoyant n have influence over air elementals(rains,storms etc),because of this i grew up thinking im a freak n the enviroment just ruin it more,i even become scared of my abilities.but now i learning to facilate my powers back to their state.
hail satan hail the gods n goddesess of duat hail maxine n the priesthood,if werent for them how long before any of us found the truth? hail all the people of satan
From: lydia_n_666 <liddynavillus@...
To: JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com
Sent: Wed, March 9, 2011 5:17:39 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Looking for Answers

  Welcome! And to answer your question, yes, but through daily meditation you will get your natural abilities back. I myself was born a natural with remote viewing, but allowed to become convinced that it was just my "over-active imagination" and I guess I repressed it until I discovered JoS and realized that it is actually real.

Have you looked over the JoS site thoroughly? There is a link on the main page, Join Hell's Army, it takes you through a 6 month spiritual training program, and guides you through meditations, leading to more difficult and advanced meditations.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url], "Maggie" <social_buttrfly78@... wrote:

Hello, Im new to this group, Im 32 years old, and I remember that was a child one of my recurring dreams was that I was being chased by someone on a road and he eventually would get me, I remembered that he would say that I shouldnt be scared because my place was with him, I knew he was Satan, although I could never see his face. I told my mother once and she said I probably was watching too much tv, I told my grandmother and she made me go to church and confess my "sins." My mother allowed us to choose our own religion since she dissagrees with all Christian stablished religions and calls them hypocrit, my sisters and I agreed. We were always very interested in all things that lead to the "dark arts" and have up tp a point made them part of our daily life, even though we know that there are a lot of knowledge that has been hidden from us. Lately I ve wondered that if by listening to christian priests I have regected something that was given to me as a gift is that why I used to be able to dream about things before they happened and now I cant? Is that why its become so hard for me to meditate and why I feel so lost?

 

[Tapio Ilvesniemi]

I rarely have dreams. As a kid I many times had this dream where I had the ability to fly and then I suddenly started to spiral downwards and right before I hit the ground I woke up with my heart beating really fast. I have also had these sort of visions. Even when I go to some place new I feel like I have been there before it's like I can predict the future, but in my visions something bad happens to me and when the vision becomes reality the situation is always a pleasant one.