Nammu said:
Jihiji12 said:
I had a feeling something would be done with him soon. I could never read his posts.
I find it dumb how some people wont call someone out because others are okay with them or theyre 'so advanced'. People let their feelings intervene their judgment too much.
I made that mistake with Zola when it told me it would be selling those 'paintings' but never again. I simultaneously wasnt surprised but felt like an idiot, because if i hadnt let other peoples approval of it effect my desicions, it would have been outed a lot sooner.
Sometimes I also dont say things cause I get scared people will blow the infiltrator whistle at me, since I'm an outsider or 'not advanced' in their eyes still since i dont post much even though, like you said, they have no idea who really does what. But this post actually made me feel better about that and like I said, never again.
Yea I still struggle with my past and the choping mechanisms that stemmed from it and I've said some dumb things cause of it. I never thought it would be so hard to change but I'm doing a lot better in recent months and I hope that I'm starting to show that. Not only to everyone here but the God's as well
I'm not aiming to impress, except maybe Satan. I believe if someone publicly talks about their experiences too much or acts superior they're not actually having any and probably don't even meditate.
I'd just really like to give back since you all have helped me come such a long way, and I hope in the future someone will feel this way because of me. I am excited for our future as a whole
You took the words out of my mouth. I do fear looking foolish, and after the last couple days, I've witnessed something quite disturbing; it was the "am I a Yehubor because my grandparents were" thread really disturbed me. It would hurt me greatly if someone thought I was a Yehubor or an infiltrator because I seldom post. Mainly because I still am trying to grasp so much of this, so I usually only read and often don't even sign in to do that.
Yet, I've never worried if anyone thought I was advanced enough :mrgreen: because I'm obviously such a newbie that it never occurred to me to think I even needed to be advanced.
There's so much to learn, plus, I have some serious shit happening in my life with my only son looking at a life sentence if convicted. That in itself has kept me quiet also while I shuffle through that while trying to learn this.
I think its partly the enemy instilling doubt and fear of not being accepted. But I'm glad you could resonate with it, and i hope to see you around more.
Something I've come to realize is I would rather look foolish and learn from it than not say anything and possibly believe some things that aren't true and possibly harmful to my advancement.
Community and criticism is very important to personal growth, learning, and advancement.
I'm sorry to hear about your son. That must be quite hard to watch your offspring go down a path that has led him there.
I know you didnt ask for advice or help, but since youre new and might not be aware, there is a page on Joy of Satan that shows demons specialisations and I distinctly remember one being with legal matters. If you would like to help your son I'd suggest looking through it and asking for help with a lighter sentence, so that your son may be able to turn his life around
Here is said link:
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/HELP.html
How to summon a demon: https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/DEMONOLATRY.html
Apologies if youre already aware of these.