Hail SATAN,
Hello my name is vaibhav i'm ongoing with many problems in my life each and everyone has their own problems,and i am aware of the fact that each and everyone thinks that their problem is big than any other person on this planet, i do think the same because i'm struggling from multiple problems but above all i have a problem which i don't know the cure is for that people whom i know and the ones who recognize me and also who doesn't knows me even personally mocks at my face,they mock at how i look,they mock at each and everything i do,i have taken this as postively and tried to change myself if i might be looking funny or may be they would have been seeing any funniness in me ,but above all is due to my weak aura and chakra's(inactive) i might be struggling with these problems. People do raggings on me too in their groups if they get a chance they would mock me for the whole day,i neglected the feelings of inferiority complexes from me, though i have read many Psychological books,still my mind,my personal life is in danger.One day i thought to put a spells on the peoples for harassing me without any reasons,see im am not weak i never gave up the fight i stood alone by myself without anyone's back ups,and even for others in their problems but as time passed they mocked at me too, people mock me at my first sight/meeting i know i have read it in Jos the people with a weak auras,chakra's are prone to get negative effects, thats okay i can workout on aura's and chakra's but the first time i feel like giving up my life i mean how many spells,how much energies i should put on my enemies?i can't kill everyone or hurt back their malices upon them again and again. I mean if my one enemy is been tacked then other rises what all of you expect me to do??? if you were at my place? I never showed to my enemies or a strangers that i have got effected due to their mockeries on me but now im tired and done. I have been a dedicated satanist for past 8 months and i know that i cant get 100% results or protection within these minimum time i spent in satanhood, there is an ethic of patience and all which i am aware since i have got into satanism i never prayed or went to church and all yesterday i was totally broken i felt like bending my soul to jehovah but i declined IT, i mean now whatever happens to me i would never move in enemies lairs(jehovah and its shit) if i have to die struggling as satanist i would prefer to die as one.But the question now stands is in how much fights i get into? I am a peace loving guy, and i also write positiveness done by father satan in my book of shadows, this is very tough time for me i really need help. I was even thinking of giving up my life through hanging on the fan,cutting my wrist vains,jumping off the building.But the thing came to my mind was im am not a robber,terrorist,rapist or any criminal to end my life like this so i didn't do any things like this but i am done with my life now and i want to die peacefully and painlessly. Could it be possible to perform any ritual or say death ritual upon ourself as self seucidal?I f any among you think that my problem has a meaning and if its not senseless please do tell me.
Hello my name is vaibhav i'm ongoing with many problems in my life each and everyone has their own problems,and i am aware of the fact that each and everyone thinks that their problem is big than any other person on this planet, i do think the same because i'm struggling from multiple problems but above all i have a problem which i don't know the cure is for that people whom i know and the ones who recognize me and also who doesn't knows me even personally mocks at my face,they mock at how i look,they mock at each and everything i do,i have taken this as postively and tried to change myself if i might be looking funny or may be they would have been seeing any funniness in me ,but above all is due to my weak aura and chakra's(inactive) i might be struggling with these problems. People do raggings on me too in their groups if they get a chance they would mock me for the whole day,i neglected the feelings of inferiority complexes from me, though i have read many Psychological books,still my mind,my personal life is in danger.One day i thought to put a spells on the peoples for harassing me without any reasons,see im am not weak i never gave up the fight i stood alone by myself without anyone's back ups,and even for others in their problems but as time passed they mocked at me too, people mock me at my first sight/meeting i know i have read it in Jos the people with a weak auras,chakra's are prone to get negative effects, thats okay i can workout on aura's and chakra's but the first time i feel like giving up my life i mean how many spells,how much energies i should put on my enemies?i can't kill everyone or hurt back their malices upon them again and again. I mean if my one enemy is been tacked then other rises what all of you expect me to do??? if you were at my place? I never showed to my enemies or a strangers that i have got effected due to their mockeries on me but now im tired and done. I have been a dedicated satanist for past 8 months and i know that i cant get 100% results or protection within these minimum time i spent in satanhood, there is an ethic of patience and all which i am aware since i have got into satanism i never prayed or went to church and all yesterday i was totally broken i felt like bending my soul to jehovah but i declined IT, i mean now whatever happens to me i would never move in enemies lairs(jehovah and its shit) if i have to die struggling as satanist i would prefer to die as one.But the question now stands is in how much fights i get into? I am a peace loving guy, and i also write positiveness done by father satan in my book of shadows, this is very tough time for me i really need help. I was even thinking of giving up my life through hanging on the fan,cutting my wrist vains,jumping off the building.But the thing came to my mind was im am not a robber,terrorist,rapist or any criminal to end my life like this so i didn't do any things like this but i am done with my life now and i want to die peacefully and painlessly. Could it be possible to perform any ritual or say death ritual upon ourself as self seucidal?I f any among you think that my problem has a meaning and if its not senseless please do tell me.
