I think I have an emotional problem

[SdD]

Cover yourself with/in AkAshA…


Ps.: good gif

 

[Aquarius]

Release your emotions, that’s completely natural, maybe you will feel embarassed to do so, but trust me that it’s a beautiful feeling and is totally natural! Listen to some music you like, I really like Skyrim’s ambience music that’s a suggestion.

Don’t feel weak because of that relationship, rather understand that it was a phase and that it makes you understand more about yourself so you will not be so easily deceived next time.

Post in the forums as many times as you want, we are all brothers and sisters after all and we will help you

 

[Shael]

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Hey there.

It is indeed important to not suppress your emotions. Try to let them out and pay attention to them, but don't let them control you. Void meditation helps to stay rational and avoid being controlled by your own emotions and random thoughts/impulses.

Don't overdo it with the final Ritual. I'm fairly certain that you are not ready to do 10 a day yet, seeing how you just started properly meditating 3 weeks ago. Doing warfare is awesome and necessary, but it shouldnt be done to a point where you completely overload and drain yourself. Stick to how much you can comfortably handle. Even one or two Rituals a day makes a big impact and will make the Gods proud of you, so don't try to overshoot things right from the get-go.

As for healing yourself mentally and coming into contact with your emotions again, I recommend doing a working with the rune Wunjo. It works well to heal this kind of stuff. Since you are still new, I would recommend doing just a small amount of thorough and powerful vibrations. Don't rush them. As little as 25x or 36x Wunjo will have a noticeable and nice effect as long as you do it properly.

The 30th this month is an awesome date to heal yourself as there are 5 planets in Virgo. Try to start it there during the hours of the Moon, Venus, or Jupiter. You can find the planetary hours for your location here: https://lunarium.co.uk/planets/hours.jsp
(Planetary hours are location-specific so make sure to enter the location closest to you for accuracy).
Also, try to stay focused on your goal from start to finish whenever you do the working. It will help you to see results more quickly.

If anything is unclear or you have more questions, feel free to ask. Good luck

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

Hello

Keep up your workings, also have you detached from your ex? Don't feel bad for falling in love with him. Love is not rational, it is often because of past-life ties, many people fall in love for the strangest "reasons" with the wrong person, because of these ties, or due to curses.

Emotions need to be felt, and sorted out, it is very unhealthy to block them out or deny them. Deal with them, and then you can be mentally/emotionally/psychologically and spiritually healthier. One thing that helps many people, is to write everything down for yourself, and get it all out on paper. If you want, you can feel anger and rage, direct it at the paper you just wrote on, and then burn it. This is a cathartic release that will help you. Just make sure you contain the burning paper safely, don't burn your house down.

Catharsis is very important and healthy. You know how some people will have a melt-down in public? This is from bottling up emotions. Take some time to yourself in private, and let it all out. Cry for as long as you can, let it all out, burn pictures of your ex, take scissors and cut up pictures of him, and then feel yourself free from the negative emotions and ready to heal.

 

[Aquarius]

Your routine is very messy and has stuff that definitely doesent work, you can’t do two sun squares at a time as the reps will add up and you will fail both squares. Let me explain: spiritual sun square has x reps to do everyday and material one has x reps to do in a day, if you do an incorrect number of repetitions in a day for a square you fail it, since you are doing two of the same squares you are basically mixing those rep and you will fail it.

Also, you are doing too many workings at once, that will deplete you of energy. You must choose your goals, and not overdo meditation(especially incorrectly done!! Lol)
I tend to do just working at a time so that my energy doesent deplete and workings get less effective.

I’ll give you a sample of meditation routine
Void meditation 5 minutes (this is the most important meditation you do, without confentration there will be no power in your meditation sessions, this meditation builds that concentration like a muscle.)
Cleaning the aura and chakras
Empowering the chakras
Working(money, munka, whatever you want)
End
This is straight to the point. If you have other questions just ask.

 

[Shael]

Thank you Aquarius and Shael, I really didn't knew I was doing everything wrong, well almost.
I didn't knew you need to let energies "settle" about 45 minutes or more. I will stop those squares imediately.
From now I keep just:
- Obliterate Saturn
- Munka
- AoP SURYAE
-2 Rituals
- on 30th I will add Wunjo working too

These are just workings, and that's it, no more workings untill i don't finish them.

And Aquarius I'm gonna use that sample of routine as a base if it's ok. And maybe add some yoga, but sometime later.
I will keep it simple.

I don't know what it made me ask for guidance, but I'm glad I asked. Thank you

If possible, add on the Returning Curses I and II atleast once a day. It's an important part in keeping yourself clean and protected. Just make sure the moon isn't void when you do it for the first time.

Also I recommend adding on Yoga as soon as it is convenient for you. Both Kundalini Yoga and Hatha Yoga are very important for increasing your energy and flexibility and have lots of benefits. Perhaps after you finish your 90-day workings you can reshape your schedule to include those two types of Yoga, too.

Here the official link (from Library of Thoth) to the routines in case you need them.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/dl/w2yd6kb6zwf0qe5/KUNDALINI%20%26%20HATHA%20YOGA%20ROUTINE.zip

 

[Shael]

Thank you Aquarius and Shael, I really didn't knew I was doing everything wrong, well almost.
I didn't knew you need to let energies "settle" about 45 minutes or more. I will stop those squares imediately.
From now I keep just:
- Obliterate Saturn
- Munka
- AoP SURYAE
-2 Rituals
- on 30th I will add Wunjo working too

These are just workings, and that's it, no more workings untill i don't finish them.

And Aquarius I'm gonna use that sample of routine as a base if it's ok. And maybe add some yoga, but sometime later.
I will keep it simple.

I don't know what it made me ask for guidance, but I'm glad I asked. Thank you

If possible, add on the Returning Curses I and II atleast once a day. It's an important part in keeping yourself clean and protected. Just make sure the moon isn't void when you do it for the first time.

Also I recommend adding on Yoga as soon as it is convenient for you. Both Kundalini Yoga and Hatha Yoga are very important for increasing your energy and flexibility and have lots of benefits. Perhaps after you finish your 90-day workings you can reshape your schedule to include those two types of Yoga, too.

Here the official link (from Library of Thoth) to the routines in case you need them.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/dl/w2yd6kb6zwf0qe5/KUNDALINI%20%26%20HATHA%20YOGA%20ROUTINE.zip

 

[Gearshift]

Since your supposed to clean a minimum of twice a day. At the very least consider Returning Curses pt.1 the prayer to summon the entity that helps with cleaning. That way you clean better.

Note I said RC 1 not RC 2 for 216. Not to overload you with two 216(432) blasts. Just focus on the basic visual cleaning and let the demon friend help cleanse you.

That way you are at least doing two deeper cleanings. Sure another 216 would clean great but for your sanity keep it reasonable.

Also BTW when cleaning your chakras with visual only try and consider the sermon by Pythia on pushing an energy through the chakra 5-25 times. So visualize a white or white-gold light around the chakra and on top of that the energy to clean the chakra that way you kinda combine basic Aura cleaning with this small cleanse booster.

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=13390

 

[Shael]

Now I do 216x SURYAE in the drawn-out manner and it's taking me approximately 1 hour. And now it's even more powerful, I can feel it. I was rushing the vibrations in every working, but now I take it more slowly. This is amazing!

I take the time to rest for 45 min or more between each woking, I'm not so overwhelmed anymore, but the energies are still powerful enough and sometimes i can't concentrate i even daydream lol. This only means that I must do void meditation multiple times a day not just twice plus something to increase my capacity for handling energy, if I'm right.

Thank you again!

I'm glad it's working well for you. The reason I recommend to do the vibrations like this is because for easily the first 2 years into being an Zevism I always rushed every vibration, and didn't focus properly. I only got lackluster results because of this and it improved drastically once I switched to this drawn-out method with full focus instead.

Always make sure you don't "overload" yourself as the energies can get very intense especially if you do something like 216x Suryae in the proper way. For me an overload feels like a tingly sensation in my hands, but unlike the normal sensation of energy this is a cold tingling. This can be a sign of overloading. If you experience this it might be a sign to stick to lower amounts of vibrations for now.
You didn't seem to have this happening to you, so probably you are fine. I just wanted to add this as a little security-reminder.

Check this sermon from HP. Zevios Metathronos on overloading, too. I think it's very insightful.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=20246&p=86514

 

[Shael]

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Check this sermon from HP. Zevios Metathronos on overloading, too. I think it's very insightful.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=20246&p=86514

I actually linked the wrong sermon by accident. Whoops. This is the one I actually meant:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=18815&p=74925

 

[Stormblood]

There's no rule that tell you how much you should wait between workings and meditations in order to avoid weakening the energies. One thing is waiting in order to avoid overloading yourself, another is waiting in order to avoid spreading the energies too thin and weakening the working.

Overloading aside, one may need 5, 15, 30 or even a couple of hours to avoid weakening/diluting the energies. There's no one size fits all with this things. It's entirely individual and you will understand your individual circumstances with time. No one beside your GD and yourself can tell you about individual circumstances like this.

So don't take anyone's word for granted because that will only create unsupported expectations in your mind that will against your advancement and your other goals the moment you don't live up to those ridiculous expectations.

 

[The Alchemist7 [SG]]

Indeed Munka brings all the shit from the soul on the surface and is pushing you to deal with it until you solve it. Here not the emotions are the problem, but the source of those emotions. Is just you being so emotional or you feel them due to a trauma (like that breakup)? Definitely there should be a reason behind them. Tell us more if you want and maybe we can help more. If not, try to discover what is the reason/source of these extreme feelings and start a work with an appropiate rune to bring you what you need to detach from them or planetary square to empower the relevant chakra and planet.

Apparently seems to be Venus and throat chakra since it governs the emotions. But you need to have a careful look at your natal chart and see if you were liable from birth to strong emotions. My advice still is to figure out what causes you those emotions and do a work to eliminate it. Like do a work to get a new boyfriend if that breakup had a so strong emotional impact on you.

 

[The Alchemist7 [SG]]

I want to make my ex suffer, suffer as I suffer. But I don't know if that's ok.

So this is how I feel now, what can I do to solve these problems?

Well you can curse him is you have a good reason for it.

And as I said, get a new boyfriend if this will make you happy. Programme your aura to attract someone to fit you.

 

[The Alchemist7 [SG]]

I don't know if being lied and played is a good reason to curse. But those ties must be cut off anyway.

Thanks, I will try to get a new boyfriend, and try not to get obsessed about him (Mars and Pluto are in my 5th house so I think I can get obsessed).
Hail Satan!

Everything done willingly against you is enough for you to take revenge on him. The problem here is that it takes a lot of time and energy for it.

 

[Shael]

I don't know if being lied and played is a good reason to curse. But those ties must be cut off anyway.

I think if someone intentionally hurts you and causes you grief, you have every right to curse them in return. Perhaps a deathspell would be going a bit overboard, but you could maybe use the Tyr rune to bring about justice and fair punishment. It's number 17 in the runic kabalah.

Thanks, I will try to get a new boyfriend, and try not to get obsessed about him (Mars and Pluto are in my 5th house so I think I can get obsessed).
Hail Satan!

If you are unsure about your own planetary aspects and natal chart in general, I'd recommend you to order a reading from one of our astrologers. It's very inexpesively priced considering how valuable the knowledge is that you gain through it. HP Zevios Metathronos is currently still busy completing previous orders from what I know, so I'd recommend checking out Lydia's services over at http://lydiasastrology.com/.

 

[ahana666]

Like others said, don't keep inside these emotions.

I used to do so for many years and when I first dedicated everything came out and It was ten times worse.

Hope you will get better soon, I wish you all the best

 

[andysmith]

I think I have an emotional problem with my cat. Whenever I feel alone, I just hugged my cat and try to spend most of the time with my cat.

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

Quite often, when doing freeing the soul workings, the problem appears to get worse. This is because the problem is rising to the surface to be removed, stick with it and it will be completely removed. I've done more freeing soul workings than I can remember over the years, and they often feel worse for a few weeks and then they get better

 

[Aquarius]

Quite often, when doing freeing the soul workings, the problem appears to get worse. This is because the problem is rising to the surface to be removed, stick with it and it will be completely removed. I've done more freeing soul workings than I can remember over the years, and they often feel worse for a few weeks and then they get better

Almost every problem got worse.
Freeing the chakras from Negative Karma using Munka really made me vulnerable. I even got scared just by looking at some random photo with a woman smiling lol.

I've done a research concerning my natal chart and I've found some general problems, I'm not an adept tho, it took me alot even just to find simple things. But many problems seem to match what I've found in my natal chart.

I do Obliterate Saturn to get rid of my anxiety, some emotional traumas and my problems regarding speaking and general comunication and flow of energy I think.

I have some kind of friend (not Zevism) that she says she can feel energy (she might me capable, but I'm not sure about it) and she said that my energy is repressed. Well I'm not surprised, even my blood flow doesn't seem good (most of the time my feet and arms are cold), and I never tested my lungs to check if they have a problem. But I feel pain daily regarding my heart, and I think It's tied somehow with Anxiety.

The problems seem to get worse, but I'm happy, this means my working... works )))

I stick with it as best as I can, thank you for advice!

Please don't listen to non-Zevism, they are severely deluded regarding energy and most times speak about stuff that they don't even understand, most times they are just people who want to show off talking about energy ecc

 

[High Priestess Lydia Coventina]

Are you also doing yoga? Yoga alone will raise you to a higher level and overcome a lot, so combining it with freeing soul workings will be more powerful, and safer, as yoga regulates energy flow, helps to open chakras, and many more benefits.