mnm214spiritualist
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My name is Melanie. I come from N. Hollywood CA. from the ghetto. My parents were both extreme drug adicts when I was a small child, my mother a tweaker and my father a crackhead. I've been physically and sexually abused because of their stupidity and weaknesses. My parents fought like no other, they were the worst. They never beat me, or hurt me directly but they made it very hard for me to grow up at the speed I wish for. They also instilled in me some very bad habbits. When I was 13 years old I smoked Marijuana for my first time, 5 days later Crystal Meth. I was never truly addicted to meth, seeing as I never went out of my way to get it, but that is because I never had to. My father moved to Oregon right after I fell into the habbit of smoking meth and my older brother (who is also a dedicated Satanist and VERY close to me; big bro guidance) stayed behind in the San Fernando Valley to live with our mother who was still in bad shape with drugs. My father was moving to Portland with his new wife and stepson. Once he was gone our apartment became the neighborhood tweaker pad, Meth all day every day, people in and out; I was only 13. This horrible lifestyle went on for 2 years and quitting meth was a breeze. i just quit cold turkey and came on up here to Portland Oregon to live with my father. Problem is, and what i need help with is Marijuana. seeing what everyone had to say to that other dude and his comments on Marijuana just made me realize that I need help. When I came to Portland I replaced the habbit of smoking Meth with the habbit of smoking Marijuana. I have been a gifted student in school and on honor roll since I was in the third grade. School has always been something I love, as a Satanist I thrive to learn. I started reading up on Satanic occult themes right before I fell into that hole when I was 13. I was 12 and I stumbled upon a book called In the Shadow of 13 Moons:Embracing Lunar Energy for Self Healing and Transformation that led me down the left hand path I journey through today. Like i said, I was in advanced classes all throughout my schooling. in high school I was a full IB student, on my way to getting my IB diploma when I was kicked out of my high school for Marijuana. I did not bring any drugs on campus, I went off and smoked a bowl in between classes. Typing it now and reading of my actions angers me. I feel weak because of my drug use. I am a Satanist and I must act like one. i tell myself all of the time and yet just about everyday I smoke weed. I've quit for a few months in the past but I always manage to linger back into it. I have ONE friend who I truly consider a friend, she is not a Satanist, though I wish she was, she's just a believer in "a creator" she says, and she also smokes weed so it makes it kind of hard for me. I told her the other day that I really need more Satanic friends, people who know and want what I want out of life and who can help me in achieving those things, so I'm coming to you guys now. My family. I Melanie Nicole Mijares, would like assistance from you all to live a better lifestyle free of drugs and full of power meditation and spiritual empowerment. I love our Lord Satan and am most proud to be a Satanist and would love help in showing my devotion to him and myself a whole lot better. whatever it takes. daily checkins on this site, confirming a day gone by sober. maybe even texts and phone calls. I know you guys aren't "sponsors" or anything like that but you are my family and I need help. reply to my post, please. I love you all and love Father Satan!
LONG LIVE ENKI!!
LONG LIVE ENKI!!
