i feel lost

[verdianguardian666]

ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat (or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the demons in one of my past lives?

ave satans

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life. Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@... wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [email protected]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM

  ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat (or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the demons in one of my past lives?

ave satans

[/TD]

 

[Allison P]

Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans

 

[Brian Gibbons]

I couldn't have said it better myself Allison.I too have never heard the Gods either,but they show me their love in so many other ways.
Hail Satan!Brian

From: Allison P <apocalypseofjon@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wednesday, July 27, 2011 3:10 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost

  Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans

 

[Allison P]

Yes..the ways of Hell are mysterious, sometimes. Lol. Hail Father Satan!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
I couldn't have said it better myself Allison.I too have never heard the
Gods either,but they show me their love in so many other ways.

Hail Satan!
Brian


________________________________
From: Allison P <apocalypseofjon@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wednesday, July 27, 2011 3:10 PM
Subject: Re: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost



Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my
life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children
now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I
have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and
you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we
deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at
first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and
throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than
with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a
demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried
summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt
the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked
both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or
the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans

 

[Sequoia]

Also, remember always that the Gods are EXTREMELY busy and getting more so as events are speeding up, having gained and continuing to gain momentum faster than was originally believed would happen. That doesn't mean they've abandoned anyone; that's not their modus operandi. Hanging people out to dry is a trait of the enemy, NOT Satan and the other Gods.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@... wrote:

Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@...
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans

 

[Celina]

If I may add my two cents, I understand your feeling lost. I, too, was going through a period where I was feeling lost and that Satan had either turned his back on me or not accepted my dedication or any number of reasons I thought up as to why I wasn't feeling his presence in my life. I kept talking to him about my joy, my pain, my confusion, anything. I continued with my rituals even if all I did was play music in the background and say nothing; just knowing that that specific time was set aside for him.

And now...now his image is tattooed on my mind. I don't even have to be thinking about him or anything related to Satanism. It's like he's in the back of my mind, like he's standing behind me watching over me. Sorry, not really sure how to explain it.

Another thing, too, was in the middle of the talking and venting I was getting a clear message that I needed to meditate. It was like he was screaming it in my head. My mind, along with his image, was consumed with the thought of I need to meditate and once I got my butt in gear with it that message stopped.

I am not astrally open by any stretch of the imagination but I feel confident that Satan is with me. He does not let me lose the image of him in my mind.

I guess I'm saying all this to say be patient. I know it's hard. I've got to be the most impatient person on the face of the earth.

Also, when I first dedicated, even though, it wasn't that long ago, it wasn't all balloons and party favors. I didn't see anything change in my life. It continued the same with my everyday struggles but now I am starting to feel different. I've even been inspired to use my writing skills to start a blog when in the past I didn't think that was something I could do because I'm not advanced enough or knowledgeable enough by any stretch of the imagination. However, I've felt inspired by Satan to do what I can even if I start with basic information and then I can grow from there.

Sorry, this wasn't supposed to be this long. I just wanted to say I understand and feel your pain. Please know that it does get better. Satan really does love you and he really does care but he's not going to jump when we want him, too. At least, that's been my experience, but it's well worth the wait.



Ave Satanas!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Sequoia" <northernsequoia_999@... wrote:

Also, remember always that the Gods are EXTREMELY busy and getting more so as events are speeding up, having gained and continuing to gain momentum faster than was originally believed would happen. That doesn't mean they've abandoned anyone; that's not their modus operandi. Hanging people out to dry is a trait of the enemy, NOT Satan and the other Gods.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@ wrote:

Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@ wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans

 

[Tammy Arnold]

Thank you all for these posts! Going through this now myself and for many of the reasons Brian G. mentioned.  I too am feeling lost and that Fathewr Satan wasn't there just this morning! Thank you! Hail, Satan!

From: Celina <lovingbelial@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Friday, July 29, 2011 9:14 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: i feel lost

  If I may add my two cents, I understand your feeling lost. I, too, was going through a period where I was feeling lost and that Satan had either turned his back on me or not accepted my dedication or any number of reasons I thought up as to why I wasn't feeling his presence in my life. I kept talking to him about my joy, my pain, my confusion, anything. I continued with my rituals even if all I did was play music in the background and say nothing; just knowing that that specific time was set aside for him.

And now...now his image is tattooed on my mind. I don't even have to be thinking about him or anything related to Satanism. It's like he's in the back of my mind, like he's standing behind me watching over me. Sorry, not really sure how to explain it.

Another thing, too, was in the middle of the talking and venting I was getting a clear message that I needed to meditate. It was like he was screaming it in my head. My mind, along with his image, was consumed with the thought of I need to meditate and once I got my butt in gear with it that message stopped.

I am not astrally open by any stretch of the imagination but I feel confident that Satan is with me. He does not let me lose the image of him in my mind.

I guess I'm saying all this to say be patient. I know it's hard. I've got to be the most impatient person on the face of the earth.

Also, when I first dedicated, even though, it wasn't that long ago, it wasn't all balloons and party favors. I didn't see anything change in my life. It continued the same with my everyday struggles but now I am starting to feel different. I've even been inspired to use my writing skills to start a blog when in the past I didn't think that was something I could do because I'm not advanced enough or knowledgeable enough by any stretch of the imagination. However, I've felt inspired by Satan to do what I can even if I start with basic information and then I can grow from there.

Sorry, this wasn't supposed to be this long. I just wanted to say I understand and feel your pain. Please know that it does get better. Satan really does love you and he really does care but he's not going to jump when we want him, too. At least, that's been my experience, but it's well worth the wait.

Ave Satanas!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Sequoia" <northernsequoia_999@... wrote:

Also, remember always that the Gods are EXTREMELY busy and getting more so as events are speeding up, having gained and continuing to gain momentum faster than was originally believed would happen. That doesn't mean they've abandoned anyone; that's not their modus operandi. Hanging people out to dry is a trait of the enemy, NOT Satan and the other Gods.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Allison P <apocalypseofjon@ wrote:

Yeah, I'm sure he's not mad at you or anything. Just keep at it. This
stuff takes time, and everyone is different. I myself have not spoken
to any of the Gods yet, but I have received messages from them through
a close Satanic brother of mine, and I feel Father's presence when I
do rituals. He has helped me several times, mostly with trivial (to
me) matters. Just remember, he cares for you, and though you may not
know it, he is always watching over you, and he hears you when you
speak to him. Hail Father Satan always!

On 7/27/11, Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@ wrote:
I am not a kike either,but because of being deceived by that xtian
program,for more then half my life,I performed spiritual warfare against
Satan and the Demons for years.Then when I got away from the church,I
practiced ceremonial Magic,and disrespected them for some more of my life.
Not proud of that fact,but my point is,I am one of Satan's children now,in
my older years.So I seriously doubt you have done anything worse than I have
against our wonderful Father.So just keep doing what you are doing,and you
will feel our Gods blessings.He does not give up on us,even when we deserve
it.I can attest to that.
Hail Satan!
Brian

--- On Wed, 7/27/11, verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@
wrote:

From: verdianguardian666 <verdianguardian666@
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] i feel lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Wednesday, July 27, 2011, 1:16 PM


























ok ive been dedicated for about a year now proably more and at first i
wasnt really doing much in the way of charka opening i wasnt really ready
only recently have i been ready and now ive opened my crown heart and throat
(or at least i think i did i didnt really feel any effects other than with
my heart) and because i dont think ive ever felt fathers energy or a demons
or seen a sign from them and trust me ive prayed for a sign i tried summoing
orobas a few times and nothing no signs like incense flickering is it
possible that he was there and i didnt hear him because i thought i was
advanced enough to hear demons or at least feel them or do i need the
kundhali serpent risen the reason i feel lost is because ive never felt the
powers of hell in my life and lots of people say that as soon as they
dedicated lots of great thing happend to them but for me well if anything
things have been going downhill and by the way im not a jew i checked both
family trees do you think its possible i did something bad to father or the
demons in one of my past lives?



ave satans