As the subject line says, this is something that only my satanic family would understand. No one knows I'm a Satanist.
Anyway, on August 1 I began SWaT (Spiritual Warfare Training). I started out with the trance but I was also working on the 7 chakras. Overall, my meditations lasted about an hour a day.
I hate to admit this but around the 9th day of the month I started getting lazy. There always seemed to be a reason to put off meditating. Then on August 17th I was assaulted and my bag was stolen. I was knocked out and blacked out and came to later. At some point I was hearing in the back of my mind "pray to jesus, go ahead call him". I kept saying "no, my God is Satan". This was during a period of disorientation. The next day, which happened to be my birthday, I realized I could have almost not been here to see it. Five days later my sister was rushed to the hospital and ended up having surgery. Now there's an issue with my dog (my baby) where I may not have her anymore which is extremely devastating,to say the least.
I don't want to be paranoid but I keep reflecting on how every thing has been happening and keep wondering am I being attacked. I keep wondering what the hell is going on?
I am now getting back to meditating. I'm making sure to clean my aura daily. The entire month of August was just bad and has left me pretty shaken up with mixed emotions, to say the least.
Now, I'm just trying to get myself back to some kind of normalcy but I can't help feeling like there is some unseen something attacking everything I'm doing. Like I said, I don't want to be paranoid.
I'm really clinging to Satan right now and talking to Him daily and now I feel a renewed strength and will to fight.
I just wanted to share this. I guess I don't really have a question, per se. Just needed to share. Thanks for reading.
Anyway, on August 1 I began SWaT (Spiritual Warfare Training). I started out with the trance but I was also working on the 7 chakras. Overall, my meditations lasted about an hour a day.
I hate to admit this but around the 9th day of the month I started getting lazy. There always seemed to be a reason to put off meditating. Then on August 17th I was assaulted and my bag was stolen. I was knocked out and blacked out and came to later. At some point I was hearing in the back of my mind "pray to jesus, go ahead call him". I kept saying "no, my God is Satan". This was during a period of disorientation. The next day, which happened to be my birthday, I realized I could have almost not been here to see it. Five days later my sister was rushed to the hospital and ended up having surgery. Now there's an issue with my dog (my baby) where I may not have her anymore which is extremely devastating,to say the least.
I don't want to be paranoid but I keep reflecting on how every thing has been happening and keep wondering am I being attacked. I keep wondering what the hell is going on?
I am now getting back to meditating. I'm making sure to clean my aura daily. The entire month of August was just bad and has left me pretty shaken up with mixed emotions, to say the least.
Now, I'm just trying to get myself back to some kind of normalcy but I can't help feeling like there is some unseen something attacking everything I'm doing. Like I said, I don't want to be paranoid.
I'm really clinging to Satan right now and talking to Him daily and now I feel a renewed strength and will to fight.
I just wanted to share this. I guess I don't really have a question, per se. Just needed to share. Thanks for reading.