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Lucius Invictus [NG]
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Continuing with the theme from this thread ( https://ancient-forums.com/threads/the-material-benefits-of-zevism.306926/#post-1190096 ), I'll now share the mental/psychological benefits of Zevism, in my own experience.
When I first became a Zevist, and for a number of years after, my mental health was very poor. For reference, I had a good childhood but I carried within me deep feelings of inadequacy. I had low self-esteem, no courage, a lack of confidence, peculiar mentalities & unique traits that isolated me from other boys, among other things.
After school, that stayed with me, and upon finding the Temple of Zeus, these things remained.
What's curious, however, is that during my childhood and for a few years as a Zevist, I was unaware of my own suffering. I was totally ignorant of how heavy I felt.
Zevism is not instantaneous. We use the analogy of a seed to a tree for a reason. And this a very good thing because once that seed (which is you) begins to reach into the black soil, it creates roots that reach unfathomable depths, yielding a tree that cannot be torn down by anything but a God.
What I'm saying is, after a point through Zevism, I began to recognize the internal problems I had. It's like a shining a light in a basement that's never been touched, save for the creatures that lurk there. They will revolt at being illuminated, which is why when we do workings like cleaning or emotional healing it brings up terror, sadness, shame, etc.
I fought everyday by staying true to my Zevist routine, allowing those shadows a moment of light for eradication. This was most evident during the Adv Purification ritual in HoO, along with workings like Emotional Body Healing, Self-Love Meditation, or even chakra work, where emotions are repressed (as an example)
I am now very happy and content. I am more balanced and fortified on a mental/psychological level. The result of my Zevic dedication has bore fruit. I cannot be shaken as much as I used to be. I can endure hardship with humor. I can sleep peacefully and live more vibrantly. I can enjoy the small things, and I actually prefer them to the big things because they occur everyday.
The benefits of a powerful AOP (especially Tier 3 Divine protection), along with purification, steel me against mundane negativity. I am the manager of myself and I am so much more capable of handling life's challenges than ever before. When a broken glass used to send me to tears, not even incarceration can bend my mind away from Zevism.
When I look back on my past self, even up to 12-18 months ago, I realize how ignorant I was of what's good everyday. Simplicity is pleasurable, a breeze, the smell of rain, my families laughter, a curious dog. I take great care to appreciate existence. That's not to say I don't have moments, we all do, but still—i see the rule, not the exceptions.
Overall, my mind is over and above 90% of the things that used to haunt me. Depression, anxiety, paranoia, have all been banished, or are at least in the process of banishment.
For those of you who feel like they're fighting with themselves everyday, don't give up. You'll taste victory and it'll come subtly, after you look back on yourself. You'll feel the blessing of the Gods and they'll have a permanent anchor in your consciousness. Waves of beautiful things will touch your mind and you'll know you're on an upward trajectory. Just keep going.
HAIL ZEFS
When I first became a Zevist, and for a number of years after, my mental health was very poor. For reference, I had a good childhood but I carried within me deep feelings of inadequacy. I had low self-esteem, no courage, a lack of confidence, peculiar mentalities & unique traits that isolated me from other boys, among other things.
After school, that stayed with me, and upon finding the Temple of Zeus, these things remained.
What's curious, however, is that during my childhood and for a few years as a Zevist, I was unaware of my own suffering. I was totally ignorant of how heavy I felt.
Zevism is not instantaneous. We use the analogy of a seed to a tree for a reason. And this a very good thing because once that seed (which is you) begins to reach into the black soil, it creates roots that reach unfathomable depths, yielding a tree that cannot be torn down by anything but a God.
What I'm saying is, after a point through Zevism, I began to recognize the internal problems I had. It's like a shining a light in a basement that's never been touched, save for the creatures that lurk there. They will revolt at being illuminated, which is why when we do workings like cleaning or emotional healing it brings up terror, sadness, shame, etc.
I fought everyday by staying true to my Zevist routine, allowing those shadows a moment of light for eradication. This was most evident during the Adv Purification ritual in HoO, along with workings like Emotional Body Healing, Self-Love Meditation, or even chakra work, where emotions are repressed (as an example)
I am now very happy and content. I am more balanced and fortified on a mental/psychological level. The result of my Zevic dedication has bore fruit. I cannot be shaken as much as I used to be. I can endure hardship with humor. I can sleep peacefully and live more vibrantly. I can enjoy the small things, and I actually prefer them to the big things because they occur everyday.
The benefits of a powerful AOP (especially Tier 3 Divine protection), along with purification, steel me against mundane negativity. I am the manager of myself and I am so much more capable of handling life's challenges than ever before. When a broken glass used to send me to tears, not even incarceration can bend my mind away from Zevism.
When I look back on my past self, even up to 12-18 months ago, I realize how ignorant I was of what's good everyday. Simplicity is pleasurable, a breeze, the smell of rain, my families laughter, a curious dog. I take great care to appreciate existence. That's not to say I don't have moments, we all do, but still—i see the rule, not the exceptions.
Overall, my mind is over and above 90% of the things that used to haunt me. Depression, anxiety, paranoia, have all been banished, or are at least in the process of banishment.
For those of you who feel like they're fighting with themselves everyday, don't give up. You'll taste victory and it'll come subtly, after you look back on yourself. You'll feel the blessing of the Gods and they'll have a permanent anchor in your consciousness. Waves of beautiful things will touch your mind and you'll know you're on an upward trajectory. Just keep going.
HAIL ZEFS
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