HELP/ADVICE, LIFE CONCERNS - About Me

[punkssbm064]

Hi everyone, this is Steve. I am new to JoS and have not yet performed the "Dedication to Satan" yet, but am EAGERLY excited to do so as soon as possible! Ive read veryy much of the info on the JoS website and absolutely love what im hearing thus far. I do plan on getting started on meditation along with Yoga as recommended but personally i feel its improper to dive into anything BEFORE making my pact agreement. The reason i have yet to make the dedication is 2 factors: 1) I live in a home with Christians (i used to be one myself), and to perform said Ritual or ANY ritual practices just isnt gona happen right now. 2) Though i believe in Satan much more than anything else ive thought on to this point in my life, theres still this nagging 5% doubt in my mind (probly because i recently became Atheist).On another note: the last few months, hell even Years, of my life have been bad and seem to be getting worse almost unexplainably. Over the past 4 years ive been in and out of using Weed, just stopped again the other day. Aside from that, I dont feel much like a Human any more. I feel zombie like every day. I tend to live with NO ambitions, no goals, feel like im talentless, etc. I dont even understand myself anymore. Im really hoping through study of Satan that I can turn my life around. Any thought from you guys on why im having a hard time in life please let me know, much appreciated! - Steve

 

[lisadragomir13]

I would say it's because of weed. You need a goal

 

[donotfearthetruth666]

The enemy is attacking you and making your life full of shit because they KNOW you want to dedicate yourself to Satan.
Plus, they are trying to force you not to do it, so they can further ruin your life.