...... no, i'm saying this to make you realize how weird your posts are, you made multiple posts that are weird, so i'm calling you out that's all.
Don't be misunderstood, we are a family and support each other, but we are no xians that only smother each other with love. we can be affectionate at times but we can also be a pain in the ass, that is just how a family is.
By the way, Satanism is by no means a lonely path. You would understand this if you were a Zevism and have been advancing, if you truly are a Zevism this will come in time.