On Fri, Jul 13, 2012 12:45 AM EDT Raven Lythrum wrote:
For the last 7 years, I've always been more logical than emotional. It was just easier to live in my brain than it was to live in my heart because at the time, I was in an environment where if I cried, the enemy gathered around me and drank my tears, egging me to cry more and to bleed them out through my skin. I was constantly on the brink of losing it. Even driving them back wasn't enough to keep them at bay. (I eventually realized that my sick excuse of a grandfather was praying in MY room!!!)
I was lucky that I had my GD and Succubus there at the time or I would never have made it through that.
As for feeling better after crying, I suppose it's all about how much pain you have to let out. I've never felt better after crying. Only tired, quiet, hateful, spiteful, and suicidal. But mostly just quiet and tired on the surface. I suppose if you think about it logically, than you come to the conclusion that if you don't feel better after crying than you have a lot more pain to let out. So I guess eventually I'll get better at it soon. After all, my succubus and husband are waiting for me on the other side of my tears. So it can't be that bad!
But yeah, last night I was trying to cry and was having a hard time with it because I'm so used to not crying. And than when I finally am able to get it out, my throat feels like I ripped a hole in it and I HAD to stop. So right now, I'm just letting myself feel a constant undercurrent of pain and only crying when it comes. After all, I'd rather do this naturally. I don't want to force it. I want to handle my emotions in a logical way, if that makes any sense.
But let me give one piece of advice to anyone out there who's going through what I'm going through. If you ever begin to cry and you start to feel as if your going to rupture your throat or you start to feel a physical pain in your chest, stop crying and start closing all your chakras. This is very important! Otherwise, you might hurt yourself.
p.s. I like the devils trill. But my favorite version of it is Vanessa Mae's.
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From: Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@...
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Very NICE post Brian!

And Lydia LOL

awww tissue paper! that's so cute. I would play the devils trill sometimes during ritual.Sometimes when I'm doing rituals I don't expect to cry and then it happens. Can't help it lol I just feel so good and loved and that someone is always there. It is tears of joy hope and love! It is just the thought of Father's love and patience for us is so genuine and beautiful. How can you NOT cry? lol <3
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On Thu, Jul 12, 2012 6:41 PM EDT lydia_666@... wrote:
Very true. I was raised to repress emotions like sadness, I was supposed to be happy all the time lol. So for a while while doing thanksgiving rituals to Satan, I would start to cry. Every time. Not from sadness, but because I wasn't used to crying, and I would be sitting there, thinking "This is my Creator God, who is interested in hearing what I have to say, and wants me to be myself in every way and it's all perfectly fine for me to be myself" and the tears would start up. I even had my routine set up: light the candle, start some nice music, get the tissue paper, check.
Yoga helps too. If you're doing yoga (or anything, really) and you start to cry, let it out. Don't hold back. You will feel so good after.
Hail Father Satan! <3
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Those of you who are just starting to work strongly on your soul,be aware that you will have to experience every emotion you have ever buried.Once your soul is truly open,then you can expect things like depression and emotional pain to come up.But as H P Vovim has stated,there is a cleaning out period,that is very necessary,in order to advance and raise your Kundalini.Just ask Raven!She is finally having to heal from her abuse,and it is part of advancing,and because I know that,I have had to be very patient with her.But I have no doubt as strong and powerful as she is,she will get through this with the help of her succubus,and her loving GD's and of course her SS family..So to those that are new to meditation,just know that it is a process that must be,but the result is reaching Godhhood,which I am so encouraged she is finally headed for in a very serious way.Congrats my dear wife,and know we are all here for you.