hailourtruegod said:
Problem Overview
In general, this is a base chakra/earth problem, as far as its relation to anxiety and fear, plus anger. The base chakra partially controls the kidneys. In Chinese Medicine, when the kidneys are out of control, particularly when they are yin deficient, this can result in both fear and tinnitus, so that is the physical cause.
This is related to Saturn, which rules the base chakra. A harsh Saturn can result in a harsh father, such as how you describe.
Source on base: https://www.templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Base_Chakra.html
Source on Saturn: https://templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/PlanetSaturn.html
Source on tinnitus and kidneys: https://www.tcmsimple.com/tinnitus.php
Yin deficiency relates to the earth element, and it will affect you cognitively since the brain is made up of yin components (although also powered by yang as well). This is not permanent or anything, though.
Weed will destabilize both your body and soul and you should destroy it all right now. Physically, it affects the heart, potentially disturbing the mind and this is where some people have profound anxiety from it. Even when this is not the case, it also causes the body to burn up yin, replacing damaged stem cells and tissues, which will amplify the yin deficiencies.
Not to be confused, Weed also has a yin influence on the brain and body, but this is a false influence that generates an opposing reaction from the body afterward. So it is not a true solution to your problem.
Source on weed: https://www.acupuncturetoday.com/mpacms/at/article.php?id=33013
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Freeing Working
Given the situation you describe, it is clear that there is some karma here that needs to be taken care of. You should use Munka or Ansuz, perhaps even together, to remove any obstacles pertaining to this.
For example 90x Munka then "The energy of Munka has permanently removed any negative karma pertaining to tinnitus or the stability of my emotions, in the best way for me." x9
You can modify this as you want; I tried to make it all-encompassing for the problems you described. However, you may need to continue working longer than 40 days or add more energy to it, to fully solve everything here. Start on a Pisces, Scorpio, or Aquarius waning moon. For a day and hour to start, I believe either Saturn and its relation to the base would work well, but this is not essential.
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Additive Working
Going further than this, you can use Nauthiz to strengthen the base chakra/natal Saturn energies, or instead focus the energy on improving your emotional resiliency to stress. I would do this after the first working, or even simultaneously if possible.
For example: x100 Nauthiz "This energy of Nauthiz has now and permanently increased my resiliency to stress, in a positive manner for me." x10
Capricorn as a moon phase is currently waning right now, but you need a waxing sign. Taurus can work well here, especially during the day and hour of Saturn. During April and May, Taurus can be found on a waxing moon on a Saturday. However, by July, Capricorn will be on the Esbat, which would make a very strong date as well.
You can modify the affirmation to be specific to emotional stress, if you feel the need to make it more specific. Also, while directing Nauthiz at the base or Saturn part of your soul would also improve your stability, focusing the energy right on the problem itself is will more quickly solve the specific problem. It is likely you will still have to work on Saturn, in general, beyond this.
Source on the characteristics of signs: https://templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Signs.html
Source on runes: https://templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Odin.html
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Lesser/Immediate Spiritual Solutions
Lastly, you can consider ordering an Obsidian or Onyx stone, which are of Saturn. Charging it with white-gold, you can use it to give you an immediate boost to your grounding. Additionally, you can use earth energy for a similar purpose. Take caution to do this in a safe manner, so as to not disturb your elements.
For example: x5 breaths of earth energy "This earth energy has now relieved my emotional distress, in a positive and healthy manner for me" x3
Better yet, using ether is better, due to its balanced nature, allowing it to give you all the elements, where needed. You can use a similar affirmation as above, or try to simply balance yourself with the ether.
"This ether energy has now balanced my elements in all ways, in a positive and healthy manner for me." x3
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Physical Solutions
As mentioned above, this is a problem that pertains to the kidneys. Due to the nature of the kidneys, the solution can become a little complex and multi-factorial. However, I have written a post on this before, encompassing the majority of things which can drain them.
Without getting overwhelmed, try to change any major errors in your lifestyle. Above all, focus heavily on yoga, especially hatha yoga, which will do wonders for the physical body.
Post on kidneys: https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=263586#p263586
Lastly, you can use mudras, such as the Apana mudra, seen here: https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=129131#p129131
Just be careful not to do the mudra excessively, because it can you symptoms of too much earth, such as fatigue or feeling heavy.
Good luck!
