Breaking Point

[Katie]

It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.

 

[Rammanoth Vpaahi]

That is fucked up. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what to do in that situation. Try to keep your health up. Maybe in your free time, or when your communication is cut off, just write in a journal or something. Im sorry I cant help out more.

<hr>To:
From: xkatiesxcrayonx13@...
Subject: Breaking Point

  It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.


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[Shannon Outlaw]

Well where are you located?. I am getting my own place soon. Are you planning on moving out soon? How old are you? I know this is sudden but would you consider moving out of your parents place?

On Fri Mar 4th, 2011 8:40 PM EST Rammanoth Vpaahi wrote:

That is fucked up. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what to do in that situation. Try to keep your health up. Maybe in your free time, or when your communication is cut off, just write in a journal or something. Im sorry I cant help out more.

To:
From: xkatiesxcrayonx13@...
Date: Fri, 4 Mar 2011 22:06:13 +0000
Subject: Breaking Point
























It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of
environment much longer...



If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.

 

[b D]

u could try put them links

To:
From: obscurationofintendment@...
Subject: RE: Breaking Point

  That is fucked up. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what to do in that situation. Try to keep your health up. Maybe in your free time, or when your communication is cut off, just write in a journal or something. Im sorry I cant help out more.

<hr>To:
From: xkatiesxcrayonx13@...
Subject: Breaking Point

  It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.



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[HenryH]

I'm sure everyone else is going to tell you the same thing I am about too which is to meditate, and keep a strong aura of protection, but I'm also going to tell you to deflect any and all negative energy towards a specific target. You pick pick the target so long as its one of our Fathers enemies, or just someone who is in the way and will help you get out of the situation you are in. Not your parents. Don't curse them it will only get in the way if you are dependant on them. The reason I am giving you this advice is so that if you do feel stressed out for whatever reason the negative energy will be redirected towards a valuable goal all while helping to pave the way towards our Fathers Eternal Reign. Try forming some kind of physical fitness routine so that you can burn of all that excess angst.
Hail Satan!

--- In , "Katie" <xkatiesxcrayonx13@... wrote:

It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.

 

[Infuriatedsekhmet Eglantine]

why don't you start a "new way of communication" with your parents ???after 8.30 pm, put all your despair, your anguish, your anger and everything in their fucking brain through their 3rd eye and love them as they love you and respect you.and just look what's happened.
I do understand you. I was not jailed like that but my christian mother worked very well and totally ruined my life.Then, fight like that. If I knew that, at that time, I would never be so sick and destroyed.
As help to your guardian demon and in plus, you will develop a very strong mental concentration. 2 years is very long, I know, but it will be suddenly better if you fight them with occult means.I know what I tell : NO HUMAN JUSTICE in this world.THE ONLY JUSTICE IS OCCULT.
Try it, and put in them all your suffering and your hate and your disgust.And become a true warrior. Not easy way, but great reward.Hail Satan !
De : Rammanoth Vpaahi <obscurationofintendment@...
À :
Envoyé le : Sam 5 mars 2011, 1h 40min 28s
Objet : RE: [JoyofSatan666] Breaking Point

  That is fucked up. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what to do in that situation. Try to keep your health up. Maybe in your free time, or when your communication is cut off, just write in a journal or something. Im sorry I cant help out more.

<hr>To:
From: xkatiesxcrayonx13@...
Subject: Breaking Point

  It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.

 

[Masquerade]

Thou shalt not make everyone happy, but make yourself happy. It 's probably difficult, but you should not be subject to the approval of your parents, especially if they do crap to you. You tell yourself:         And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. Unbereable is not a word that you would get to use, means they have passed the threshold for some time. I do not know talking about magick what you can do, but you should train seriously and when you are able to take your freedom by force if necessary. I suggest not to rule out the possibility of using black magic on your parents. I definitely do not know the situation well, your relationship with them, what you want from this relationship, but objectively speaking you choose to settle in one way or another you should always work hard to be respected and not get abused and most importantly by the very people you are close to. You should take the responsibility to protect yourself even if it means going against your family.   However, the situation is delicate, I wanted to give you my opinion but you're the only one who can make a choice, because anyone who answer you can not know the whole situation. Also up to you to choose from. But remember to have your own space is vital, and combating abuse is equally important. You do not have to take abuse. I hope that you find quickly the right way.   Hail Satan!
Da: Rammanoth Vpaahi <obscurationofintendment@...
A:
Inviato: Sab 5 marzo 2011, 02:40:28
Oggetto: RE: [JoyofSatan666] Breaking Point

  That is fucked up. Honestly, I'm not entirely sure what to do in that situation. Try to keep your health up. Maybe in your free time, or when your communication is cut off, just write in a journal or something. Im sorry I cant help out more.

<hr> To:
From: xkatiesxcrayonx13@...
Subject: Breaking Point

  It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.

 

[tigirus]

Escape if you need to. Running away is better than suicide. Never stop, just change the place you're in, it can make all the difference.

--- In , "Katie" <xkatiesxcrayonx13@... wrote:

It's easy for someone else to say 'Oh, don't worry, you only have to endure 2 more years' but the thing is...they're someone else. Too many people tell me to just wait out the 2 more years of living with heaps of bullshit, but I've been working myself to the point of malnutrition and disorientation I can hardly tell the difference between dreams and reality anymore because I've been trying to fix my grades, earn back trust, be responsible, and make everyone happy but no matter what, every time I meet my parent's expectation, they go back on their word and continue treating me like some kind of criminal. And when I mess up, it's as if I had done the worst thing possible. Every night at 8:30 my phone and laptop and any other way I can communicate with people is cut off and the alarm system on my house is activated. I'm hardly ever let out of the house. And the bullshit I have to deal with from my parents...is unbearable. I can't handle this kind of environment much longer...

If anyone could give me a solution or a way to handle this without hurting my mental state...I would be more than greatful.