Alan Thomas
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Hey my names Alan, I first like to start off by sharing more about myself. Since I was young I never believed the trash I was being feed from Christians. I always questioned everything I was told and I have a vague memories in detail I know was real, I was visited when I was young about 8 maybe by a woman so beautiful but it was dark I couldn't fully see her but I remember what she said like it was yesterday she told me she was my real mother it was confusing and still is. Then not long after that I woke up to what I believe now after having my eyes open to the truth as a lower order Demon. I remember this so clear cause it scared me and I ran out of bed to my parents room looked back and he was looking at me still from behind the AC unit in the hallway. Looking back I feel bad cause he didn't say anything and I think he was there protecting me. Ever since then I always saw signs of Father Satan reaching out to me with images of 666 everywhere I knew in my soul and heart he wasn't the bad guy I even talked to him often when I was in need and when the Christian "God" ignored me letting me suffer and when I talked to Father Satan he would help me instantly. I grew up in a Christian household being forced to believe in lies but I questioned but I felt I was maybe just lost. After a near death experience I got a Christian cross tattoo thinking maybe it was a sign but things quickly went downhill from there over the course of 5-7 years. Even being brainwashed by Christians I would cry and sit in the dark talking to the darkness cause I knew something was wrong with the world and I knew something was there watching over me in the shadows I couldn't fully understand or see but I knew. One night a few months ago I was looking for answers I came across the website and everything just came together so fast and everything just made sense for the first time in my life my eyes was truly open to the world. Things began to change inside of me and I could feel Father Satan and His Demons embracing me. After finally getting Black Candles which is impossible to find in stores so I ordered some I did my dedication ritual on 6/6/15
. I never felt so free and my mind is so open and answers are being made that actually sounds right not lies.
So it comes to the assistance, I talked to Father Satan apologizing about the filth that is on my arm still and with all respect I marked Father Satan symbols all over it for my ritual and it's only trash artwork to me now. I'm getting it covered up but I'm having a hard time finding something. I don't want to involve Father Satan or reach out to my Guardian Demon in the process cause I want to come to them correctly without this trash on my arm with respect. I want something that shows respect but nothing to bring negative intentions to me at this time cause of the Christians in my life that I can't distant from yet. Any input will be appreciated cause it's lonely in this world of lies around me. Refuse to be blinded and brainwashed again.
Hail Satan!!
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So it comes to the assistance, I talked to Father Satan apologizing about the filth that is on my arm still and with all respect I marked Father Satan symbols all over it for my ritual and it's only trash artwork to me now. I'm getting it covered up but I'm having a hard time finding something. I don't want to involve Father Satan or reach out to my Guardian Demon in the process cause I want to come to them correctly without this trash on my arm with respect. I want something that shows respect but nothing to bring negative intentions to me at this time cause of the Christians in my life that I can't distant from yet. Any input will be appreciated cause it's lonely in this world of lies around me. Refuse to be blinded and brainwashed again.
Hail Satan!!
Sent from my iPhone