Am I even progressing?

[ohnoitsmook1]

It's been almost half a year since I had done the Dedication, but I've only begun meditating since May, and I know that it's only been a few months, but, I don't get that strong of a feeling that anything is happening at all.
I mean, I did open all the main chakras as stated on JoS. I did see an orange glow around one of my friends once, when I was doing void meditation. At night, I do see some kind of mist in my mind; it's usually of a crimson color. I do feel a little heavy sensation when I focus on my Third Eye. The thing is, I feel like I'm going in circles; I don't know if I'm even progressing at all.
I had requested Father for a demoness who may assist me in advancing spiritually, by sex magick (i.e asked for a succubus). Four times, though. I've been doing the visualizations and fantasizing as stated under the Incubi/Succubi section on JoS, and had never had results besides from a sex-related dream a few times.Also, on the same section, it states, "Your demon will work with you to open your astral senses, as opposed to plain fantasizing on your own.". Don't I need my astral senses already opened in order to even see her in the first place?
My mother didn't even apologize or anything when I was released from the asylum on August 14th, and she's been making my life difficult as well. In addition, for some reason, I seem to start losing motivation to meditate as frequently, as I keep getting the thought that it won't do any progress, as it hasn't so much in the past.
A positive thing, though, is that it had stormed pretty hard on my last night in the asylum. I found it to give a real amount of hope, since my Guardian is capable of controlling storms and it gave me the impression that I am still being cared for. Or something.

 

[livingforsatan]

Please remember to stick with consistent meditation, even when you don't feel like it. These feelings of doubt are likely just a form of attack meant to discourage you.

If they can stop you easily, they will.

There's a period in your progress where you might feel very hopeless. You might also be in that point.

Please continue on.

And, congratulations on getting out. So few problems in life are ever really permanent.

Hail Satan!

 

[Magus Immortalis]

You have progressed, as you have stated in your original post the things you are now able to see and do. 
Like No.State said, the enemy will do anything to make us stop meditating, even for a day, or longer. 
Keep this in mind and as one JoS clergy member said, regarding this: "strengthen your resolve." 
Don't EVERY give up on meditating or hope for yourself. Think positive, keep positive, and be realistic at the same time. Continue writing in your book of shadows or journal any breakthroughs and advancements you have made. Who knows, you might have something to write in there everyday, or every few days or every few weeks. You'd be surprised. Let no detail or advancement, no matter how small or menial you think it is, escape your notice. Don't underestimate yourself, ever.
Hail Satan/88!



On Tuesday, August 25, 2015 2:03 PM, "no.state@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Please remember to stick with consistent meditation, even when you don't feel like it. These feelings of doubt are likely just a form of attack meant to discourage you.

If they can stop you easily, they will.

There's a period in your progress where you might feel very hopeless. You might also be in that point.

Please continue on.

And, congratulations on getting out. So few problems in life are ever really permanent.

Hail Satan!

 

[jeremy montoya]

have you opened your chakras? If not then do the opening the chakras meditations asap then begin doing full chakra meditation
To keep empowering your chakras and it will get the blocks out to.clean your aura, do meditation for protection and have fun with the meditations and master the basic meditations then move onto intermediate meditations when you're ready.


One of the main ways we advance is through working on our chakras. Getting the blocks out of them clears a pathway for the Serpent of Satan to ascend up through the chakras. so get to it.




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On Tue, Aug 25, 2015 1:38 AM PDT moekcrocell@... [JoyofSatan666] wrote:


It's been almost half a year since I had done the Dedication, but I've only begun meditating since May, and I know that it's only been a few months, but, I don't get that strong of a feeling that anything is happening at all.


I mean, I did open all the main chakras as stated on JoS. I did see an orange glow around one of my friends once, when I was doing void meditation. At night, I do see some kind of mist in my mind; it's usually of a crimson color. I do feel a little heavy sensation when I focus on my Third Eye. The thing is, I feel like I'm going in circles; I don't know if I'm even progressing at all.


I had requested Father for a demoness who may assist me in advancing spiritually, by sex magick (i.e asked for a succubus). Four times, though. I've been doing the visualizations and fantasizing as stated under the Incubi/Succubi section on JoS, and had never had results besides from a sex-related dream a few times.
Also, on the same section, it states, "Your demon will work with you to open your astral senses, as opposed to plain fantasizing on your own.". Don't I need my astral senses already opened in order to even see her in the first place?


My mother didn't even apologize or anything when I was released from the asylum on August 14th, and she's been making my life difficult as well. In addition, for some reason, I seem to start losing motivation to meditate as frequently, as I keep getting the thought that it won't do any progress, as it hasn't so much in the past.


A positive thing, though, is that it had stormed pretty hard on my last night in the asylum. I found it to give a real amount of hope, since my Guardian is capable of controlling storms and it gave me the impression that I am still being cared for. Or something.

 

[Zach Darienzo]

I think I found that once you get to a certain point, you must add more meditation and try to raise more energy to keep progressing. I added a second meditation I do everyday, an extra 20 to 45 mins, doing usually the full chakra meditation for now but sometimes its different, depends on how much time I have. I think you just have to do more advanced meditations and try new ones, find ones you like. I still do yoga everyday, but I add more things to try to progress.
Also, you can try to master void meditation and get into deeper trances.
Lastly, I think when I started working out, like weight lifting and cardio, that seemed to help to progress too.

 

[ohnoitsmook1]

Thanks for your answers, guys. I do activate an aura of protection in the morning and before I go to sleep, and I do feel it when breathing in during those times, but I still suffer from forgetful/laziness about what is more important: doing unimportant shit like editing videos or spiritually empowering myself through meditation. The fact that I am still sometimes lacking the will to meditate gives me the idea that my aura of protection isn't working; and that brings me back to the question of *anything* even working at all. 
I will try to attempt what all of you had stated a little more, although it is likely to be difficult.