A Womans Body

[Jack]

Actually I don't know why but I forgot to write a reply to this. The dressing up boys as girls is just a weird archaic tradition that hasn't died out. What happened was in previous generations boys used to have extreme mortality and some couples wanted to keep trying after the male babies kept dying so they went to mystics. And the mystic used to tell them to raise the boy as a girl and allegedly they wouldn't die anymore. Nathuram Godse ,the killer of Gandhi was brought up in this method. So the parents had their kids do the same but due to the advent of modern medicine infant deaths are unheard of. So nowadays they very rarely just dress the boy up in ceremonial functions. My sister did the same thing to her son on his 1st birthday. This tradition will probably die out in the next generation.

And on the issue of transgenders ,I don't dislike them in the sense of having personal feelings for against them. What I have internalized is to separate one on one personal interactions and talking about things on a whole or what's commonly called the Collective.

As you said we might have some technology to fix the Gene's and make the Intersex female or male completely while in the womb. Similarly we might develop interactive brain techniques using Virtual Reality ,Being able to tamper and alter people's memories etc so we can erase the Gender Dysphoria from a transgender person so the possibility of them feeling like the opposite sex is eliminated because no such feelings or memories exist in the first place.

I imagine transgenders coming into a room with completely white architecture, with computers, headsets, hypnotists etc. And the transgender closing his eyes and the hypnotist guiding him to the memories. And then the computer guys just erase the possibility of any transgender feelings by altering the root memories and then the entire problem is fixed. For example if the transgender started to want to become a girl in his early childhood, his feelings and memories can be altered so he feels normal and is proud of being whatever he is throughout his childhood. It might take multiple sessions to perfect it but we'll be able to do it most likely.

I see you still carry this strange desire to babysit suicidal and insane individuals. I'd frankly like for you to be in a position of administration to see the logistical nightmare you walk into when trying to babysit the insane and suicidal.

How are you going to fund such treatments and equipment, will you really be draining the state of resources to chase these looney characters around?


How about focus on the people who NEED and WANT treatment and healthcare, and let the suicidal do their thing. We've talked about this before and you would not concede. Who gives a fuck if morons are jumping off cliffs and mutilating their own bodies, or fucking up their own souls with abnormal behaviors or habits. Let nature run it's course.

When you begin to consider the logistics of your ideas you might start to notice a problem. Which is certain groups are not worth the state's resources. There are children to feed, families to house, and a society to heal. Focus on worthy purposes and worthy people.

Btw after surviving the next how many years and seeing the creation of a Global New Order (not to be confused with a New World Order) ,it would be my hearts desire to be the manager of a Gas Chamber Soap Factory where I would oversee the creation of Soap ,possibly millions until there is no raw material to make said soap. I'm sure if I make manager now I can show the experience certificate on the job later.

(He who knows, knows. )

 

[Stormblood]

This third one mentions an ancient Egyptian Akhenaton that are hermaphrodite

https://www.templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Chakra_Alignment.html

Just used CTRL and F to find them quickly by type down hermaphrodite in the search bar.

THanks for mentioning that. It should be reported in the appropriate topic so it can be amended, since Akhenaton is actually an enemy.

 

[Necrorifter]

This third one mentions an ancient Egyptian Akhenaton that are hermaphrodite

https://www.templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Chakra_Alignment.html

Just used CTRL and F to find them quickly by type down hermaphrodite in the search bar.

THanks for mentioning that. It should be reported in the appropriate topic so it can be amended, since Akhenaton is actually an enemy.

Huh, you are right. I decide to search their name and yep, a grey.

https://satanslibrary.org/Pdf_Library.html

just download the Akhenaton pdf which mentions them be grey. But this is by Mageson, was he not confirm to be an enemy or at least gone insane?

 

[FancyMancy]

I'm coming in very late. I typed this reply so I'm posting it. I also skipped nearly all of page 2, so feel free to ignore this (Except you, Jack!).

By the way, I was just thinking that almost all intersex conditions are caused by mutations in individual sperm or egg cells from people who are perfectly healthy. The condition is not present in the parents, and since most intersex people are infertile, it can't be passed on anyway. Even the less than 1% or so who are fertile, usually only have a 50% chance to pass it on.

In other words, the existence of intersex people has virtually no effect on the gene pool. Given that, how does aborting intersex babies even have anything to do with eugenics at all? If you consider it euthanasia rather than eugenics, then please consider that they're able to live good lives and overcome all of their problems, especially if they come to terms with what they are and accept themselves fully, which most are able to. Even those who are unable to, are often helped by using the treatments available for transgender people.

As for non-intersex people who undergo transgender treatments, they also tend not to have any children, so their genes aren't preserved either. Doesn't this also reinforce the notion that genetics do not play a role in whether or not people seek such things out, and that it's instead caused by psychological issues and/or coincidental mutations that weren't present in the parents?

Some of you simply want to use "eugenics" as a veil to kill people who are different from the norm in some way, even if they don't affect the gene pool, meaning it isn't even eugenics. That is injustice.

According to the area of the site for Gods and Goddesses, LADY Lilith supports abortion. Despite this, I am still not a fan of abortion. If a soon-to-be parent saw their unborn Baby was defective, malformed, with any form of incorrect Body formation, whatever, and aborted him/her, then the Soul might reincarnate, possibly into a better Body; but what seems to be your case, the unborn Baby reincarnates into the same type of Body, but the parents then abort him/her, then he/she reincarnates again and those parents abort him/her, lather, rinse, repeat... then wouldn't that Soul be lost?

I would think it might be better to let the Child live to improve his/her health and well-being. If the Soul has no Body to live in, then it will stagnate and dissipate and die.

Unless there is something I am missing. I might be missing something.

Of course, in the future, we would be able to sense and see the Body of an unborn Baby, and in that future, we'd realise that everyone would be aborting the unborn Baby each time he/she reincarnates - if they reincarnate similarly as you... then he/she will die. Unless pro-choice is that a parent would not abort the unborn Baby so as to give him/her a chance. A Soul cannot advance without a Physical Body, so I think we'd have to rely on a God or Goddess to improve this Baby, in this example, in his/her Soul, as a Ghost, so as to reincarnate into a healthy Body, thus not be aborted.

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Every picture you upload in your posts shows "image" instead of the actual picture. Is it just me who can't seen these pictures - or could you upload them to an actual picture host site?

HPS Pythia: Satan told me “There are some who are fanatics and take this to extremes.” By this he meant abstinence and celibacy which he confirmed are VERY UNHEALTHY.

https://templeofzeus.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Step_3.html

Transgender-ism surgery is permanent and irreversible sexual celibacy.

The jew knows that sex is very important to Humans - and not just because it feels nice. It's much more important than just that. The jew knows it is very important, so it promotes and encourages - and now brainwashes and mindrapes in school and further afield in society - this acceptance and die-versity. With transexuals having extremely little, or no, ability to reproduce, the jew is getting a small percentage of its wet dream fulfilled. From what I have seen, this tends to be more prevalent in White people, but I think to a lesser degree also in some Asian; Asians far out-number Whites, so I think the percentage is higher in the White population than Asian. From what I've seen, I don't think very many at all appear in the Black population.

I am thinking that due to so many centuries of jewish disease - hating sex, abusing Humans, etc. - upon Earth, that any individuals' dysphoria or as in the OP supposedly seeing themself as the opposite sex in meditation... is due to the individual's Sacral Chakra being so dirty. I will take this further and suggest - as a guess - that due to the Sacral Chakra being so dirty, in one way or another, to one extreme or another, individually, that that also has caused hermaphroditism, inter-sex, whatever you want to call it.

Obviously, the mental and psychological problems in some people, whether transsexual or merely transvestite, I think is due to dirty Sacral Chakra, heaps of curses upon Humans from the jew, etc. For non-sex-"changes", i.e. for transvestitism, I might reserve judgement, that a healthy person who fancies dressing themself up as the opposite sex, for a fun skit, for acting in a play, or for their own sexual pleasure (i.e. in homosexual couples, sometimes it appears that one tends to be masculine and the other feminine), this might not be unhealthy - (you know - what you do in the bedroom is your own private business...) but it is impossible for me to know if everyone is healthy or not, so I'd just leave them to it.

I don't know, but I would suggest, that if I am correct in this regarding the Physical hermaphroditism/inter-sex happenings in the womb, that individuals should clean the feck out of their Second/Sacral Chakra. Along with that, their corresponding paired Throat Chakra. Of course, all Soul and Chakra work needs to be done properly anyway, but for individuals like these, I would say these two Chakras especially.

If, for example Meteor or anyone else, knows if this is the case, due to working on themselves, etc., then please let me know if I am correct or not. I'd appreciate that. Again - if I am incorrect, then working on these two Chakras would still benefit the individual regardless.

 

[Jack]

According to the area of the site for Gods and Goddesses, LADY Lilith supports abortion. Despite this, I am still not a fan of abortion. If a soon-to-be parent saw their unborn Baby was defective, malformed, with any form of incorrect Body formation, whatever, and aborted him/her, then the Soul might reincarnate, possibly into a better Body; but what seems to be your case, the unborn Baby reincarnates into the same type of Body, but the parents then abort him/her, then he/she reincarnates again and those parents abort him/her, lather, rinse, repeat... then wouldn't that Soul be lost?

This is also what I was concerned about, and it's the reason why I took such offence to Jack's suggestion and considered it a threat.
At least if I have a physical body, I can try to work on things, and maybe I can eventually even have children if I figure out a way, whether that's with medical assistance, or by curing my condition on a spiritual level and reincarnating into a normal body.

Jack suggests that if there are no intersex bodies anymore, I would just reincarnate into a normal body. But even if that's really the case and I did manage to do so, it's possible that this would still lead to severe confusion about my sex, as I never actually resolved the deeper issues that caused me to be this way in the first place.

Imprinted unto my Soul throughout my entire existence is the notion that I'm abnormal, as well as a desire to change. Rather than reincarnating into a body I'd be more comfortable in, I've kept reincarnating into bodies that will re-manifest that same desire to change, as well as the notion that I'm abnormal. Because I never actually fulfilled that desire, or felt comfortable and satisfied with my physical body, these issues stuck with me throughout each incarnation. Perhaps if I fulfil that desire to whatever extent I can, and physically feel more comfortable in my body, my Soul will stop rejecting bodies that aren't "abnormal" in this specific way, and I'll be able to reincarnate in a non-intersex body I feel more comfortable in.

I don't think this is really something I can overcome as a ghost, since I don't have any sexual issues when I do it astrally anyway. It's the physical realm in which I experienced problems and felt out of place, so I think it needs to be solved here, if that makes any sense.

I am thinking that due to so many centuries of jewish disease - hating sex, abusing Humans, etc. - upon Earth, that any individuals' dysphoria or as in the OP supposedly seeing themself as the opposite sex in meditation... is due to the individual's Sacral Chakra being so dirty. I will take this further and suggest - as a guess - that due to the Sacral Chakra being so dirty, in one way or another, to one extreme or another, individually, that that also has caused hermaphroditism, inter-sex, whatever you want to call it.

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I don't know, but I would suggest, that if I am correct in this regarding the Physical hermaphroditism/inter-sex happenings in the womb, that individuals should clean the feck out of their Second/Sacral Chakra. Along with that, their corresponding paired Throat Chakra. Of course, all Soul and Chakra work needs to be done properly anyway, but for individuals like these, I would say these two Chakras especially.

If, for example Meteor or anyone else, knows if this is the case, due to working on themselves, etc., then please let me know if I am correct or not. I'd appreciate that. Again - if I am incorrect, then working on these two Chakras would still benefit the individual regardless.

Since you asked, I'll relate my own experiences with working on my Sacral Chakra.

My Sacral Chakra is something I focused on especially much when I was new to meditation, as I was having a lot of sexual problems back then. I used to be somewhat attracted to women as well as men, but I lost all interest in women as I cleaned my Sacral Chakra. My libido also increased drastically, and all erogenous zones on my body became more sensitive. I also completely lost interest in any strange fetishes I had; in general, fetishes can be a way to compensate for underlying sexual problems and mental health problems, so it makes sense that meditating and working on one's Sacral Chakra can cause these to disappear if they were unnatural.

I haven't been particularly interested in using my physical genitalia for anything sexual since I figured out how to have sex with my partner astrally, and even when it comes to doing things physically, I feel more comfortable focusing on other erogenous zones. However, I experimented with it back in October last year because I was curious. Aside from it feeling really weird and hollow, achieving an orgasm that way caused acute pain in my Sacral Chakra, followed by what felt like unclean energy which lingered around afterwards and numbed all sexual pleasure I felt. I repeated this the following two days to see if anything would change, and my Sacral Chakra felt increasingly numb and painful. I concluded it was harmful and stopped, after which I recovered in a few days.

Based on that, I'd say cleaning my Sacral Chakra made it glaringly obvious to me how incompatible I am with my physical body in this regard. I used to be numb all the time anyway before I started meditating, so I used not to notice the damage it caused. Uncleanliness represents impurities: things that aren't in line with one's nature. Considering the way to cure my intersex condition that would cause the least issues is to reincarnate with a fully female body, it does make sense something like that would go against my true nature.

In general, cleaning the Sacral Chakra will bring someone more closely in touch with their natural sexual instincts, while cleaning the Throat Chakra will help to bring someone in touch with their emotions and express them in a healthy way. I'm a bit unusual in the sense that my sexual instincts make no sense for the type of body I have, which likely has to do with an error in sexual differentiation due to my physical intersex condition, which has stuck with me throughout my lifetimes due to the unresolved karma caused by this. But for people for whom this isn't the case, working on those two Chakras would likely fix any confusion they have about their gender.

I've known some individuals who felt like they weren't allowed to express their honest emotions, or that they wouldn't be loved unless they were the opposite sex; such insecurities would likely be solved by working on their Throat Chakra. There are also some men who fetishize being stripped of their masculinity, because they feel ashamed of it deep down. Working on their Sacral Chakra would help to make them more aware of their male sexual instincts and make it harder for them to repress these, while working on their Solar Chakra can help them fix their lack of self-worth and remove misplaced feelings of shame in what they are.

In short: yes, this will absolutely help, and I believe that avoiding doing things that make my Sacral Chakra feel unclean might even help to remove the intersex condition from my Soul on the long term. I think it's fairly clean these days though.

On a side note, I performed some spiritual alchemy on my Sacral Chakra to enhance pleasure from all sources and increase the amount of orgasms I can have before I start to feel strained by it. Empowering one's Sacral Chakra can greatly enhance one's enjoyment from sex, and I highly recommend it to anyone regardless of whether they have any issues with their body.

Obviously, the mental and psychological problems in some people, whether transsexual or merely transvestite, I think is due to dirty Sacral Chakra, heaps of curses upon Humans from the jew, etc. For non-sex-"changes", i.e. for transvestitism, I might reserve judgement, that a healthy person who fancies dressing themself up as the opposite sex, for a fun skit, for acting in a play, or for their own sexual pleasure (i.e. in homosexual couples, sometimes it appears that one tends to be masculine and the other feminine), this might not be unhealthy - (you know - what you do in the bedroom is your own private business...) but it is impossible for me to know if everyone is healthy or not, so I'd just leave them to it.

Clothes are just fabric anyway. As long as it looks nice, I don't really see a problem with it.

What's weird in my opinion is if people wear clothes that don't suit them at all. But as you said yourself, in homosexual couples one of the two sometimes appears more masculine/feminine. Some guys look cute in a skirt, and some women look rather dashing when they wear clothes that accentuate their manliness; it's just a way to express an unusual side of themselves and attract partners of the same sex. As long as they don't take it so far that others can't tell what sex they are, I don't see how it would be unhealthy.

I think it's different when people insist on wearing things that look terrible on them, since then it's no longer about accentuating their existing charms, but about trying to be something they're not. This could be a sign that they're trying to compensate for feeling out of touch with some part of who they are. This is probably something that could be worked on, and expressed in a different way that isn't so horribly unfashionable. But as long as they keep it in the bedroom, it's up to them to figure out whether it's healthy or not.

The memories of a past life about being intersex is probably false. Its actually more probable that everything you think about your past lives is false and is clouded by confusion ,self projection and enemy interference.
Read HPHoodedCobra's recent sermon about past lives.

When i first tried that meditation i had flashback images of constant war, famine and mass murder like my hands were stained in blood and i was digging a mass grave. Obviously i don't believe anything i saw and i believe all of that to be enemy interference.

Don't believe all the past life experiences. You have to be really advanced to know how to decipher reality from falsehood.

 

[Crystallized Mushroom]

Eugenics is a practice used to purify a bloodline and improve it. It is nothing different than the Magnum Opus. It is part of physical alchemy, rather than spiritual alchemy. Some of us (the smart ones) already do physical alchemy by exercising appropriately (rather than living sedentarily like a brainwashed andrapod), by eating healthy food (i.e. organic, local, seasonal and genetic, rather than junk food like the majority of the population aka andrapoda), by questioning ourselves and striving for improvement rather than complacency and degeneration.

People with genetic issues are destined to succumb in this harsh universe. With eugenics, we simply give them the alternative to reincarnate in healthy bodies, by making every body available healthy. That way, they will only need to overcome their issues at the spiritual, emotional and mental levels, which are much faster to catch up than the physical. The material plan is, after all, the slowest moving as everyone who has ever meditated seriously and practiced witchcraft already knows. Lags in manifestation are very common depending on your level, whereas the spiritual is near-instant in comparison. Someone with those defects is not at any level to sort their issues in the physical.

how many ways can you improve yourself and practice physical alchemy is it just eating healthier and exercising alongside drinking more water and hygiene?

 

[Jack]

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The memories of a past life about being intersex is probably false. Its actually more probable that everything you think about your past lives is false and is clouded by confusion ,self projection and enemy interference.
Read HPHoodedCobra's recent sermon about past lives.

When i first tried that meditation i had flashback images of constant war, famine and mass murder like my hands were stained in blood and i was digging a mass grave. Obviously i don't believe anything i saw and i believe all of that to be enemy interference.

Don't believe all the past life experiences. You have to be really advanced to know how to decipher reality from falsehood.

That's an interesting way to look at it.

I wanted answers as to why I'm like this. Each time I did past life regression, I experienced some backstory that explained one of the specific issues I was struggling with at the time, and I told myself: "this must be why I'm like this". But as I overcame each of those issues, those stories began to feel false. Eventually, all that remained was the notion that I was always like this anyway, and that this is simply how I am. Reading HP Zevios's recent sermon on the topic also reinforced the notion that this was really the case, since he mentioned that there is no need to try to dig up the details of the past, because who we were in the past is also who we are now.

But the past week, the things you and Tabby wrote made me wonder if I was looking at it wrong, regardless of what I was back then. If I tell myself that it has to be this way, then how am I supposed to truly let go and overcome this? What if this isn't how it has to be?

I often worried about what people said, that everyone always reincarnates in bodies of the same sex each life. I worried if that meant that it was impossible for me to fulfil my wish to have a body that makes sense to me. But impossible is a strong word, and often when people say something is impossible, what they really mean is that it doesn't happen under any normal circumstances. Then what about abnormal circumstances such as my own? I appreciate your words of encouragement regarding that.

My past doesn't matter anymore, because I'll just overcome all that troubles me in the present and future. It doesn't matter if others claim this might be impossible, because what can I do other than simply work on my issues and follow the direction this takes me? But all of this is in my chart as well, so it makes more sense to correct it through that than to worry about any hypothetical backstories.

He is saying "who we were in the past is who we are now" in a spiritual sense, not in a physical one. Meaning the experiences of each life and thus your perspective or personality and views might be different but it's the same soul experiencing all these different experiences. For example in this life one might have been blessed with athleticism while he could have been weak and frail in the previous life. Or you could be born rich in this life but you might have struggled with money in the previous lives. Your body and experiences are different but it's the same soul that is going through these experiences. It's like playing different games. You might play Sekiro Shadows Die Twice once or twice and then you might change the genre and play Call of Duty. Whatever the game, it's still you playing the game even through the games are completely different.

 

[Stormblood]

Eugenics is a practice used to purify a bloodline and improve it. It is nothing different than the Magnum Opus. It is part of physical alchemy, rather than spiritual alchemy. Some of us (the smart ones) already do physical alchemy by exercising appropriately (rather than living sedentarily like a brainwashed andrapod), by eating healthy food (i.e. organic, local, seasonal and genetic, rather than junk food like the majority of the population aka andrapoda), by questioning ourselves and striving for improvement rather than complacency and degeneration.

People with genetic issues are destined to succumb in this harsh universe. With eugenics, we simply give them the alternative to reincarnate in healthy bodies, by making every body available healthy. That way, they will only need to overcome their issues at the spiritual, emotional and mental levels, which are much faster to catch up than the physical. The material plan is, after all, the slowest moving as everyone who has ever meditated seriously and practiced witchcraft already knows. Lags in manifestation are very common depending on your level, whereas the spiritual is near-instant in comparison. Someone with those defects is not at any level to sort their issues in the physical.

how many ways can you improve yourself and practice physical alchemy is it just eating healthier and exercising alongside drinking more water and hygiene?

It's pretty much trying to organise your life in a way that allows physical improvement. This obviously includes nutrition, exercise and hygiene, like you said. And also sleep and overcoming illnesses. Asanas part of this too, as they allow advancement on all levels, including the body. Any of these should not be aimless but goal-oriented.

For example, running for the sake of running may help you maintain your baseline but you need specific training sessions if you want to improve speed, endurance, etc. These, in turn, improve your lung capacity and develop your muscle fibres toward one direction. Training randomly just to save time like some people suggest cannot really be called alchemy.

Performing alchemy means refining base materials. In this case, we are talking about refining your body. The more refined your body is, the greater lengths your soul and mind will be able to be refined too. And vice versa, as they are all connected and influencing one another. An imbalance or weakness in one, can and will manifest in the other vessels if left unattended for too long.

Other things that can refine your body are iron shirt/body techniques. At the most simple level, this involve the bellows breath whose energy is redirected to the fasciae. I don't like calling them 'iron' but that's definitely a level of refinement above lead for sure. Ideally, one would reach golden levels like the Gods. Iron/steel levels are more martial levels, from my perspective and understanding.

There are more things one can do for sure. For example, it is important everyone's body is trained for self-defence as we are Zevism, not weak lambs at the mercy of any enemy/drunktard/drugtard. Self-defence classes are a good start, but then great aptitude and/or a good master are required to go beyond the zombie level they teach nowadays. Experience is very important in these things, like in everything.

 

[tabby]

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Thank you for writing such a calm and kind reply, even though I was so emotional. I understand and agree with everything you wrote. It looks as thought I myself might've been the one who was actually lacking nuance here, but it's much clearer now what was meant.

I think I forgot how confused some people really are, because I was afraid of being lumped in with them and being thrown under the bus. But whenever I went to the clinic, I had to avert my eyes from the other patients, because their presence alone made me very uncomfortable. I would judge them over superficial things, like having a terrible fashion sense, being overweight, having a weird voice, having a strange look in their eyes, and talking in a very creepy and awkward way. I wondered if it was wrong to judge them over such things, but if they were as delusional as you say, then it would make a lot of sense that they seemed so weird and ridiculous.

It was only about 1 in 6 of the people there that seemed normal to me and didn't make me uncomfortable, increased to maybe like 1 in 4 when attending a lecture with information about surgery. The thought that the rest was simply confused, wanting to do it for the wrong reasons, is somewhat terrifying; but I think that might really be the case. If it is, then that's nothing short of disturbing.

I'm sorry for having a go at your husband, it seems it was all really just a misunderstanding after all. I'm in favour of eugenics too; it's just that the things Jack wrote made me misunderstand what was meant by it here.

Something that confuses me is why you feel that you need an intersex body in order to be who you are. Why your soul would need such a body in order to reincarnate to best express yourself makes no sense to me, given the complete rarity of such a body ever being created, and until the world of science on DNA and fetal development aligns with spirituality, I won't speculate or further express my thoughts on it.

I don't really get it either. For almost two years now, ever since I learned about reincarnation, I've been thinking that I would like to reincarnate with a fully female body. But I wondered if I was delusional for even hoping it was possible, since I only remember reincarnating with the same intersex condition, despite it taking so long for me to reincarnate because of how rare bodies like this are.

I thought that maybe it really was just impossible after all. People did often say here that people always reincarnate as the same sex in each of their lives, so I thought maybe that applies even for someone who is intersex. The contradiction within my being has been present in all of my lives as far as I'm aware. And yet, after thinking about it more the past few days, I realised that it most likely is possible for me to reincarnate in a normal, female body after all. But if that's the case, then... then why did I choose not to?

Upon asking myself that question, I felt an overwhelming fear: "what if I'm not really myself if I'm not in the same kind of body again?"
I expressed this in my reply to Jack, but it confused me a lot why I suddenly felt that way. It goes against what I've consciously wanted in all of my lifetimes. But I realised that it's not just a sudden thing; it was merely unaware of this irrational fear until now.

People can sometimes cling to what they're used to, even if it's bad for them. Just a week ago, I asked Stormblood why people would do that, because it didn't make any sense to me; but now I've caught myself. Sometimes you just get so used to something you can't see how things could be any different. The thought of letting go of something that has troubled me for so long is... scary.

All I've known since my first life is feeling like my body doesn't make sense and wishing I was different. On a conscious level, I wanted to change so much that I'd forget I ever even felt like this at all. I wanted to let go of my past. But on a deeper level, I was afraid that if I let go of the things that troubled me in my past, I might lose myself. I had grown attached to my problems. Is that "karma"?

I think I understand better now what has been holding me back, and what I need to do in order to move on. You helped me realise an issue I was unaware of, simply by questioning whether I really have to be this way.

This lifetime has already helped me heal so much from my past. I know I still have much more to overcome, even things I wasn't aware of such as the reason why I was born like this. But I feel confident now that I can overcome it all in this life, and move on. I shouldn't be clinging to my past so much; I want to have children with my fiancé, so I should make sure I have a womb ready for him in my next life.

Thank you for wishing me luck. I was so worried that if I opened up about such a topic, other people would be bothered by it and try to convince me not to do the things that would help me the most, and look down on me if I don't agree with them. For someone to believe in my decision and simply wish me luck... that honestly means a lot to me. I really do have a place here after all.

Hey no worries. Misunderstandings happen, and jrvan already cleared that up with you so it's all good. I'm glad I could help you.

I can relate on a different issue but the same idea that it was familiar to me and pretty much all I knew. My Demon and jrvan helped me understand that it definitely wasn't what made me who I am, let alone something I needed to hold onto in order to be what I wanted to be. It was actually hurting me, weakening my potential and my sense of self, and freakishly was the single root of many of my issues. It's scary how something that hurts us can become so familiar to the point we become afraid to leave it behind or overcome it, simply because it's what we've known and anything else feels like a gamble to put our energy into because who knows what might become of it.

"what if I'm not really myself if I'm not in the same kind of body again?" - To help you further a bit here, I'll answer with another question of my own - is the house what makes us who we are, or the inhabitant inside it that decorates, cleans, lives within, and maintains the house?

I get the feeling, I was afraid I wouldn't ever have a place here because I've never really had anywhere to belong to. The last time I trusted people like that left me with many scars. Even though we can't quite be ourselves fully without the risk of undercover yehuborim attempting to track every digital foot print we make here, there's one thing that I've come to understand - those who are truly serious here within JoS are almost an entirely different breed of human in mind and heart compared to the majority of humanity, and they never stop surprising me with how accepting they are of our individual differences and issues. The HP doesn't kid when he means JoS is family, and I feel that truly despite the days of drama and upsets, and I hope you can too.

 

[Nimrod33]

While we are on the topic, i remember reading that, according to the enemy program of Buddhism, bad karma leads a man to reincarnating into a woman. One of Bodhisattva, Avalokiteshvara, is said to be able to reincarnate into both a man and a woman. Apparently, in Thailand there are Buddhist monks that are trannies. Now i pretty much understand were some of the current enemies ideas comes from.

 

[Bravera]

Growing up, a common derogatory term that others used was, Gay, fag, etc.
I personally did not want to be viewed in a negative manner and definitely aspired to become more masculine. I did not have aspirations to become "feminine" or I didn't consider what it really meant to embrace my other half.

I would not play girls in video games, I wouldn't listen to music with female vocals, at least not in front of my friends and family. I still am unsure of my feelings about men who dress and act like women, my opinions have changed very little about this. Perhaps because I feel embarrassed, I need to learn to overcome this.

Anyways, these days, I love to play females in video games, I love music with female vocals, and seriously considering if I would want to be a women. Well I'd rather be a man..

I aspire to be like the female protagonists that I love and admire, embracing my feminine side, but I definitely don't want to dress or act like a women.

 

[tabby]

While we are on the topic, i remember reading that, according to the enemy program of Buddhism, bad karma leads a man to reincarnating into a woman. One of Bodhisattva, Avalokiteshvara, is said to be able to reincarnate into both a man and a woman. Apparently, in Thailand there are Buddhist monks that are trannies. Now i pretty much understand were some of the current enemies ideas comes from.

One's soul has a gender (male or female) and it always reincarnates into a body that matches its gender. A male soul to a male body / female soul to a female body. That's been stated on JoS before, but in the case of an intersex body, you'll have to sense into your soul to know what you are since the body is biologically expressing as "both". I've been contemplating about it on and off since the topic came up, and - this is purely my opinion here with how this works - but I wondered if the soul would likely reincarnate into a body that expresses the soul's gender most. As in, a male soul to a body that expresses as > 50% male / female soul to a body that expresses as > 50% female - since it would be most compatible to the soul.

I thought along the same lines that trauma and bad karma can cause one to be reincarnated into a biologically messed up body, just how one can be born into a body that goes blind based on natal placements. When you're not spiritually advanced, you're along for the ride without any ability to control the drivers wheel when it comes to reincarnating, so whatever you're carrying with you from past lives that's left unsolved and unchecked, will end up manifesting in your next life in whatever ways in order to be dealt with.

There are stories were the Gods are represented as male and female forms, sometimes as hermaphrodites, but if I'm understanding correctly that's to give a visual representation of the male and female halves of the soul (which is a differently thing altogether from the actual gender of the soul). You get enemies taking this too literally and push the concept to the extremes, and then enforce the corrupted idea onto gentiles to think that we can be birthed into a body that doesn't match the soul's gender. But that's a load of hogwash. There was once a post by HPS Pythia where she explained that the Grey's/Corrupted Beings or whatever (I can't remember which. I'll go find it in a sec) didn't have genitals or something, so it's little to wonder they try to confuse gentiles enough to desire to cut their own off or mess around with the genders. The more like the enemy we become, the closer they get to turning this world into a slave camp.

The description of the entity called the "ALL" in the book "The Watchers" by
Raymond E. Fowler, also supports the parasitical nature of these creatures that
are mostly devoid of emotion and how they thrive on the energy of souls. These
creatures have tampered with genetic engineering and alteration to where they
no longer have any genitals and they cannot reproduce normally through sexual
intercourse. They have also tampered with their brains and they lack emotions
and physical strength. They are highly adept at telepathic communications,
though. Their mouths are very atrophied as they no longer use them.

RE-Read-It WEEKENDS: Looking back at Important Material [Week 16]
The Truth About Extra-Terrestrials
By High Priestess Pythia
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=50839

 

[Nimrod33]

While we are on the topic, i remember reading that, according to the enemy program of Buddhism, bad karma leads a man to reincarnating into a woman. One of Bodhisattva, Avalokiteshvara, is said to be able to reincarnate into both a man and a woman. Apparently, in Thailand there are Buddhist monks that are trannies. Now i pretty much understand were some of the current enemies ideas comes from.

One's soul has a gender (male or female) and it always reincarnates into a body that matches its gender. A male soul to a male body / female soul to a female body. That's been stated on JoS before, but in the case of an intersex body, you'll have to sense into your soul to know what you are since the body is biologically expressing as "both". I've been contemplating about it on and off since the topic came up, and - this is purely my opinion here with how this works - but I wondered if the soul would likely reincarnate into a body that expresses the soul's gender most. As in, a male soul to a body that expresses as > 50% male / female soul to a body that expresses as > 50% female - since it would be most compatible to the soul.

I thought along the same lines that trauma and bad karma can cause one to be reincarnated into a biologically messed up body, just how one can be born into a body that goes blind based on natal placements. When you're not spiritually advanced, you're along for the ride without any ability to control the drivers wheel when it comes to reincarnating, so whatever you're carrying with you from past lives that's left unsolved and unchecked, will end up manifesting in your next life in whatever ways in order to be dealt with.

There are stories were the Gods are represented as male and female forms, sometimes as hermaphrodites, but if I'm understanding correctly that's to give a visual representation of the male and female halves of the soul (which is a differently thing altogether from the actual gender of the soul). You get enemies taking this too literally and push the concept to the extremes, and then enforce the corrupted idea onto gentiles to think that we can be birthed into a body that doesn't match the soul's gender. But that's a load of hogwash. There was once a post by HPS Pythia where she explained that the Grey's/Corrupted Beings or whatever (I can't remember which. I'll go find it in a sec) didn't have genitals or something, so it's little to wonder they try to confuse gentiles enough to desire to cut their own off or mess around with the genders. The more like the enemy we become, the closer they get to turning this world into a slave camp.

The description of the entity called the "ALL" in the book "The Watchers" by
Raymond E. Fowler, also supports the parasitical nature of these creatures that
are mostly devoid of emotion and how they thrive on the energy of souls. These
creatures have tampered with genetic engineering and alteration to where they
no longer have any genitals and they cannot reproduce normally through sexual
intercourse. They have also tampered with their brains and they lack emotions
and physical strength. They are highly adept at telepathic communications,
though. Their mouths are very atrophied as they no longer use them.

RE-Read-It WEEKENDS: Looking back at Important Material [Week 16]
The Truth About Extra-Terrestrials
By High Priestess Pythia
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=50839

Thanks for the clarification. By the way, i agree, like you said, that we should avoid at all costs adopting even just one of the enemy ideas. Nietzsche even warned against becoming like our enemies, but i don't remember in which quote he said that.

 

[Jack]

I think my last post was probably a bit incomprehensible, so I'll explain what I meant a bit more clearly.

It's true that I wanted others to see me as a girl when I was little, and that it bothered me when others treated me like a boy. But that isn't actually the same as being a girl deep down, is it? I just wanted to be one.

So why did I want to be one? Due to karma, I was too scared to live as a boy or man anymore. I believe this to be due to trauma from a past lifetime, but if you don't believe in that, it's also heavily emphasised in my chart. Given that, it only makes sense that my body is a bit unusual in this life; being unable to accept myself as male due to what happened, I was drawn to a body that isn't completely male.

The aforementioned karma made me obsessed with the idea that life would somehow be less frightening, easier, and overall better if I had been born a girl. That belief may have stemmed from a "the grass is greener on the other side" mentality, as realistically speaking, there are all sorts of other bad things that could've happened to me in my past lives even if I had been female.

Already being a bit in-between, I felt very out-of-place in this life, which amplified this obsession. Eventually when I was 15 years old, I started to feel suicidal, because I felt like there really was no place in this world after all for a boy like me. But I reasoned that if I was willing to die anyway, I might as well just do whatever I feel like without worrying about the consequences; influenced by my obsession, this lead me to take actions that caused me to look and sound like a woman to other people by the time I was 18.

For years, despite people's compliments, I still felt very insecure, because I felt like I didn't deserve all these things. "Surely people are only so nice to me because I look like a woman to them, right? But that isn't what I really am deep down." I felt inadequate.

Some time after dedicating and discussing these matters with my Guardian, I came to the conclusion that I couldn't bear to go back to living as a guy. In that case, I felt the only way to go is forward. Since I don't want to go through all of this again in my next life, I decided to do a working to change how I'll reincarnate, and a God offered to help me with this. It had to do with transmuting my Sacral Chakra through death and rebirth, but I won't go into more detail since I don't think it's something anyone should attempt carelessly.

Because of that working, I felt different somehow, to such an extent that I briefly had an identity crisis, although it was quickly resolved thanks to a friend. I went from feeling like "I'll never really be a woman deep down, no matter what I do" to "I'll always be a woman deep down, no matter what." I came to realise that the people who care about me, love me for who I am anyway, and I became able to accept myself more as well.

I may never be able to accept myself as a man; I was unable to overcome those wounds from the past that way. But I can accept myself as a woman, and that has become easier the more I've changed. I've decided that's how I'll heal the wounds on my Soul.

I can only hope that no one feels inspired by my story. I may have found happiness in the end, but that doesn't mean I'll ever forgive this rotten, jew-infested society for pushing me so far. All those who discriminate against people for being homosexual can just die a painful, torturous death. The suffering I went through is all their fault. It's all the fault of the church, and the yehuborim.

I often asked myself if there wasn't some other way I could've dealt with these feelings. But I understand now: even if there was, there is no way I could've committed myself to doing the polar opposite of what I wanted so much. I'm just glad it worked out somehow.

Question - did your parents let the doctors perform surgery to remove the less developed genitalia and which genttalia did you have throughout your development or did you have both ?

 

[tabby]

...

Thanks for the clarification. By the way, i agree, like you said, that we should avoid at all costs adopting even just one of the enemy ideas. Nietzsche even warned against becoming like our enemies, but i don't remember in which quote he said that.

No worries. Kinda reminds me of the whole "those who fight monsters be wary not to become monsters themselves". Even common folk who don't take up the sword in battle can become monsters simply by being around them long enough without proper guidance from those who remain strong in themselves, like the Gods and advanced gentiles.

Spirituality really is the foundation of so much in this world. Hail the Gods and Daemons of Elysium!

 

[Jack]

Question - did your parents let the doctors perform surgery to remove the less developed genitalia and which genttalia did you have throughout your development or did you have both ?

Only male genitalia as far as I'm aware; my condition is pretty mild in that regard. There is a slight visual abnormality, but it was considered completely harmless and no surgery or even tests were performed. Even when I started growing breasts during puberty, I didn't seek out a doctor for that since I was happy about it, so I didn't even realise I might have an intersex condition until much later.

On a spiritual level, it seems like there might be slightly more to it. When doing things astrally, for example interacting with my partner through a form of telepathy, or by projecting out of my body, it feels as though I have a vagina, and I'm able to feel everything involving it in detail just like physical touch; on the other hand, my physical genitalia always felt kind of hollow somehow energetically. Perhaps this is a form of astral shapeshifting, but I don't actually even how to shapeshift like that. Therefore, I can only assume it's the result of my wish to change accumulating so much energy that it manifested astrally before manifesting in any other ways.

I do intend to have surgery. I've just been doing it astrally anyway with my partner, since I prefer that over the things I can currently do with him physically. At least if I physically change my genitalia, I'll have some use for them, and surgery is the best method available to me for that. I know it's rather taboo, but as long as it makes me happy, that doesn't really bother me, and I believe it will go well.

I'm rather surprised how many of my exes didn't even mind that I have male genitalia; one of them even considered herself a lesbian, although I turned out to be rather incompatible with her for other reasons (she was too sadistic for me, and I realised I prefer guys).

Okay so for clarification - you have male genitalia and no vagina ,with breasts ? And you're considering removing the Male genitalia with Vaginoplasty ?

 

[Aquarius]

Best of luck to you Meteor

 

[Jack]

Only male genitalia as far as I'm aware; my condition is pretty mild in that regard. There is a slight visual abnormality, but it was considered completely harmless and no surgery or even tests were performed. Even when I started growing breasts during puberty, I didn't seek out a doctor for that since I was happy about it, so I didn't even realise I might have an intersex condition until much later.

On a spiritual level, it seems like there might be slightly more to it. When doing things astrally, for example interacting with my partner through a form of telepathy, or by projecting out of my body, it feels as though I have a vagina, and I'm able to feel everything involving it in detail just like physical touch; on the other hand, my physical genitalia always felt kind of hollow somehow energetically. Perhaps this is a form of astral shapeshifting, but I don't actually even how to shapeshift like that. Therefore, I can only assume it's the result of my wish to change accumulating so much energy that it manifested astrally before manifesting in any other ways.

I do intend to have surgery. I've just been doing it astrally anyway with my partner, since I prefer that over the things I can currently do with him physically. At least if I physically change my genitalia, I'll have some use for them, and surgery is the best method available to me for that. I know it's rather taboo, but as long as it makes me happy, that doesn't really bother me, and I believe it will go well.

I'm rather surprised how many of my exes didn't even mind that I have male genitalia; one of them even considered herself a lesbian, although I turned out to be rather incompatible with her for other reasons (she was too sadistic for me, and I realised I prefer guys).

Okay so for clarification - you have male genitalia and no vagina ,with breasts ? And you're considering removing the Male genitalia with Vaginoplasty ?

Yes, that is correct; although the nice thing about vaginoplasty is that it actually repurposes a lot of tissues and nerves, so it feels more like I'm gaining something than like I'm losing something. I suppose for most people it would be a loss, though.

None of this fits into my worldview and I can't really piece together how any of this makes sense. So I can't comment on this any further. This is being dragged out to the logical end it seems. I hope you find peace in the next life though.