Greetings, everybody.
Today, I have some not so great news.
I feel that I am at my lowest point right now. Not because I feel sad, or depressed, but because
I've realized I was incapable of doing something very simple that any man should be able to.
I don't feel sorry for myself, yet I am ashamed of myself.
On my birthday, which was not so long ago, I've requested help with something specific from Father Satan.
It wasn't very successful for some time, and due to it being something that's best if left alone instead of it drawing out for a long time, I let go.
However, just today, I got a dream-like perfect opportunity to get what I wanted, yet I messed up, and failed. I didn't have the mindset for it.
I got two opportunities even, and I messed both of them up. I feel like I've let Father Satan's help go to waste, and I wish to make it right, and
say sorry somehow. I am uncertain if he is disappointed or not, but if I were to guess, I would say I think he is.
I believe saying sorry just like that wouldn't do it, as he gave me two opportunities to what I asked for on my birthday, and I let it go to waste,
so I would like to ask, what is there that I could do in order to officially say sorry, or make it right? Like with a ritual, for example..
Hail Satan,
Hail the Gods!