rebelrocka44
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- Dec 24, 2011
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There is such a wealth of information on the jos website. My mind is still reeling. I was raised a devout xtian home and my entire family is very religious. They're also hypocritical and judgemental. This along with the hypocracy in the church caused me to become disgusted by almost every xtian I've met since. I left the church at 15 and e have been searchi, both actively and subconsciously ever since. I'm 25 now and when I read the jos website I literally burst into tears at several points. It validated dreams I've had, feelings I've had since I was little and how I just know we didn't just pop up out of nowhere. It's a relief to say the least.
My question is: do I have to dedicate myself before I can start meditating? I still feel that I have some xtian hang UPS and I don't want to dedicate my soul until I have let them go. But I would like to actively preside meditation and work toward freeing myself from any existing negative preconceptions.
And my second question is where is a good place to start for an absolute beginner? Do you guys have a starting point? I have read through most of the meditations on jos but I'm still a bit confused on where to start and where to go from there.
My name is Sarah BTW. HAIL SATAN! (I hope its ok to say that even though I'm still technically without.)
My question is: do I have to dedicate myself before I can start meditating? I still feel that I have some xtian hang UPS and I don't want to dedicate my soul until I have let them go. But I would like to actively preside meditation and work toward freeing myself from any existing negative preconceptions.
And my second question is where is a good place to start for an absolute beginner? Do you guys have a starting point? I have read through most of the meditations on jos but I'm still a bit confused on where to start and where to go from there.
My name is Sarah BTW. HAIL SATAN! (I hope its ok to say that even though I'm still technically without.)