Wanna end it all

[Levimega]

This is the Bonas Genius, or good Demon: blessed soul that is fullest
of it! And unhappy soul that is empty of it.

when a man desires a woman he is bound as closely as a calf to it's mother.

 

[NinRick]

You didn‘t betray Satan nor us. You just stopped with rtrs and meditation thats all, I guess. Just keep moving forward. Pick up RTRs and Meditating again, and make it become a routine like eating.

 

[Satyanik]

Yea sorry I was drunk and in a dark place. You guys are right tho I had low self esteem and just jumped into something I should have known would never work & made too big a deal it is what it is & she's happy & if I just keep my head up and get my shit done I will be too. Just sucks that I wasted so much time on a fantasy, shit could be so different if I just used my head and honestly I think the fact that I could be so stupid is more why I'm so sad. Thank you for the replies

 

[FlamingRedRose666]

Re-start meditating and do this: http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Detaching.html

Start out slow and steady.

Father Satan doesn't hate you, make it up by re-starting meditations,yogas and the RTR!

 

[Luna Black]

I dream of a day when people will not write a variation of "wanna end it all" as title whenever they are asking for advices...

 

[Dypet Rod]

I dream of a day when people will not write a variation of "wanna end it all" as title whenever they are asking for advices...

Most of the time, if not to say always, this is a desperate ask for help, a way in which a person is seeking to make sure that they will be heard and get the help they are asking for. It's pretty much a way of saying "please help me", even when the person is not aware of it themselves. It's often up to others to be open and understanding, and seek to pick up on the message the person intends to transmit.

 

[hailourtruegod]

Yea sorry I was drunk and in a dark place. You guys are right tho I had low self esteem and just jumped into something I should have known would never work & made too big a deal it is what it is & she's happy & if I just keep my head up and get my shit done I will be too. Just sucks that I wasted so much time on a fantasy, shit could be so different if I just used my head and honestly I think the fact that I could be so stupid is more why I'm so sad. Thank you for the replies

I highly recommend doing the detachment working. Even in this message it seems like your mind is still hanging on to her. Maybe it's just me but that's the vibe I got. It's a fresh wound so you're still going to be thinking of her and that's understandable but eventually you need to just let it all go and to the point you don't care whether she's happy or not because it's totally irrelevant to your life. It sounds harsh but that's how it actually should be for people who broke up from a such a bad relationship.

Rejoice that you can be unlike the majority of people who go thru hearbreaks and actually move on and meet other ladies (or men) without a problem. But remember to learn from you mistakes as well.

 

[Dahaarkan]

I dream of a day when people will not write a variation of "wanna end it all" as title whenever they are asking for advices...

I dream of a day when people start realizing these posts are total dogshit and don't help them at all. Dunno maybe spend that time cleaning themselves of negativity instead of writing a depressing post that reinforces it...

 

[hailourtruegod]

I dream of a day when people will not write a variation of "wanna end it all" as title whenever they are asking for advices...

I dream of a day when people start realizing these posts are total dogshit and don't help them at all. Dunno maybe spend that time cleaning themselves of negativity instead of writing a depressing post that reinforces it...

I believe people need to vent sometimes but for those who know the truth of real Spirituality they can instead do what you said here and any venting can be taken out in the Final RTR.

 

[Dahaarkan]

How did you never meet someone, yet somehow you spent all your money and time on them?

This is more common than you'd think I've seen this happen more than once. They meet people online and fall in love with the persona they play. It's easy to pretend one is perfect on the internet and a lot of these guys are desperate and throw themselves into these long distance "relationships" that don't go anywhere. Because the other person will eventually just find someone irl and move on.

 

[Satyanik]

Straightshot idk man I was lonely & she told me all the things I needed to hear & seemed to be everything I ever wanted in a girl. She was my best friend. You're right tho it was fucked from day one and I should have seen that

 

[JoS Forum Contributions]

In the Name of Billy Idol be excellent to each other and rock on!

 

[Satyanik]

Yea sex isn't an option I've never had sex with anyone & like I said I cut every one she didn't like off. She wasn't some Yehubor scammer she was a good friend of mine for a year before I dated her and she knows me well & vice versa I was even ok with her family and talked to them some times. Thanks for the advice tho I understand. Thank you to everyone its probably dumb & childish love fantasies to all you but it helped me a lot and I appreciate it you didn't have to help at all. I hope it helps others in the future as well

 

[Luna Black]

We're not all the same, somebody's strength is another person's weakness.

Some people require others support before they can start to walk with a head held high, if you refuse to help somebody in need (I'm talking about our comrades), then you are refusing to help one of Father Satan's creation.

Not everyone is as mighty as you or the HP's, we ALL start out somewhere, remember that.

Well as you said people are different. Not everybody is part of the self righteous salvation army crew around here. Being distant can be of more real help to people then jumping in as saviour depending on the situation. As can various other methods. There is even a role in the army that's called drill sergeant his purpose is to help recruits toughen up by shouting at them.

 

[FlamingRedRose666]

We're not all the same, somebody's strength is another person's weakness.

Some people require others support before they can start to walk with a head held high, if you refuse to help somebody in need (I'm talking about our comrades), then you are refusing to help one of Father Satan's creation.

Not everyone is as mighty as you or the HP's, we ALL start out somewhere, remember that.

Well as you said people are different. Not everybody is part of the self righteous salvation army crew around here. Being distant can be of more real help to people then jumping in as saviour depending on the situation. As can various other methods. There is even a role in the army that's called drill sergeant his purpose is to help recruits toughen up by shouting at them.

Yes, I understand, but this isn't the military tho, but I get your point.