HP. Hoodedcobra666 said:
If I'm mistaken about something and about to write something untrue that's just going to confuse other people and drag them all down, you should have just disapproved the comment, or replied to the first time I said it and made a correction. Instead of allowing the mistake to continue over multiple different posts to confuse and drag down other people, then replying to one of those people that were harmed from it saying "Why would you ever listen to him? He's horribly delusional about everything." Basically choosing for a while to allow a confusing mistake that could have easily been shut down before it started, then kicking me when I'm down telling everyone how broken I am.
I thought I've been doing a good thing always trying to help a lot of people, and I know I get things wrong sometimes but I thought I was mostly telling the truth and being helpful. But if I'm wrong about everything and only making more problems for the group, I should have just never made any account here. But I really thought I was helping at least some amount. If I put a small fraction of the care and effort to help into myself that I've been trying to always use to help other people, maybe I would have already fixed all my problems. And then I wouldn't have gotten all the enemies' attention either, them trying to curse me worse and worse every day, and trying to bind me down so bad that it's so hard to do any action that would help myself. But I honestly thought that I was doing the right thing, and that helping others is more important than helping myself. Sorry if I'm always wrong about everything, and all I do is confuse and harm everyone else with these mistakes, but I'm doing the best that I can do and trying to make the best outcome of the situation. You know this is a very difficult world for sensitive people, but I really am trying to do my best, even if the only thing you're able to see about me is all my problems. Not everyone is as strong as you, and not everyone is able to know what to do. I never pretended to be perfect, the way you seem to be able to be. My biggest mistake was caring about other people instead of myself, but that's just how my soul has always been. I got too much love, and only very little of it is for myself because I'm not as important as all the people I care about. I think I should be done writing any comments here ever again, and hopefully I'll be able to use that effort to help myself instead and start to not care about anyone else. I hope those rituals we're about to do will help me to be able to start to take care of myself better.