Suicidal emails

[firebird894]

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

 

[C Y]

I have gotten those thoughts that i was not good for Father Satan and really couldn't do anything it has always bothered me since i was new to Satanism. I always try to avoid it but i do not get it! Is just that i am doing aura protection and aura meditation and how can i still be getting this thoughts? I am going to focus a little more now on void meditation and thank you for that i needed it FireBird.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "firebird894" <firebird894@... wrote:

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

 

[ToZ Forum Contributions]

Keep do[/IMG]</var>side. Satan and Hell cares deeply for you. As they do us all.   88
From: C Y <yc28@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, May 1, 2012 6:09:07 PM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Suicidal emails

  I have gotten those thoughts that i was not good for Father Satan and really couldn't do anything it has always bothered me since i was new to Satanism. I always try to avoid it but i do not get it! Is just that i am doing aura protection and aura meditation and how can i still be getting this thoughts? I am going to focus a little more now on void meditation and thank you for that i needed it FireBird.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "firebird894" <firebird894@... wrote:

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Way to put out there sister.


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From: firebird894 <firebird894@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Suicidal emails
Sent: Tue, May 1, 2012 9:54:02 PM

<td val[/IMG]   Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

[/TD]

 

[hoodedcobra666]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "C Y" <yc28@... wrote:

I have gotten those thoughts that i was not good for Father Satan and really couldn't do anything it has always bothered me since i was new to Satanism. I always try to avoid it but i do not get it! Is just that i am doing aura protection and aura meditation and how can i still be getting this thoughts? I am going to focus a little more now on void meditation and thank you for that i needed it FireBird.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "firebird894" <firebird894@ wrote:

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

Satan got you here. Satan got you to these groups. Satan got you to fight. Satan got you to live. Satan created you. Don't deny Him. Don't because the denial of Truth is the True death. Long post but I hope worth reading post.

None must suicide and let the life Satan gave us. They have been trying that with me and with anyone else, aside with whatever other crap. I do no favor to them, give them nothing. Satan will take me when He desires. If I'm here, its His choice. We have to Fight His enemies, rebuilt the earth, perfect ourselves and reach Godhead. No brother and sister must quit. No matter how unfortunate the circumstances are. Satan held me up. Satan changes our lives. These are not thoughts that belong to Us. Us, we know Satan is everywhere and Satan is our creator God. Suicide is not a solution to anything. Father Satan takes care of Us and our Guardian Demons too. Life is Sacred to Satan, the LIFE HE CREATED. YOU READ THIS MESSAGE? YOU'RE THE LIFE HE CREATED. YOU'RE HIS BLOOD. Satan never abaddons you. I didn't end my life. Neither I will do it. If it is to die, die in Honor and never from your own hand and this is cowardice. As all Warriors must, get down in Honor. Think about it. Why all these thoughts about harming yourself? If they could harm you, they wouldn't do all this to you. Guess what. They can't. So they have to make you self-betray yourself. They can't do anything you don't decide them to do. Never underestimate the Power of Satan and the power of His SERPENT inside your body, mind and soul.

Build a strong foundation. Most of the time these suicidal thoughts occur from supressed emotions. Its rather personal. Most attacks happen on what is burried deep within as the enemy knows that and will fuck you with the knowledge about what you fear. Forgive yourself. Whatever you have done, no matter how heavy, Satan forgave you if your Loyalty survived. Never it must die. Never you must bend. I posted a post on HP Jake's Sermon, everyone must read it. I feel this tendency of suicidal tendencies within our Ranks. No, we shouldn't suicide. Most xians don't have a god, and through the minor use of Satan's powers in them in the form of faith (Misplaced...) they still survived. Gentiles will survive.

Suicide is NOT a solution and only serves to get you stuck in the circle of reincarnations. Don't be stupid. Whatever you may feel, you can knock it out. They all try to make you feel useless and that you should die because you fucking DESERVE LIFE. You fucking DESERVE GODHEAD. You FUCKING DESERVE FREEDOM. NATURE HERSELF WILL ENSURE YOUR SURVIVAL. NEVER FORGET SATAN'S WORDS : " I teach and guide those who follow my instructions. "

Here there are some sermons.

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoSNewsletter/message/30

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoSNewsletter/message/76

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/JoSNewsletter/message/244

The third Sermon is of extreme importance so you can find out where this suicidal crap is coming from, given the fact its not of outside influence. Our mind since birth has been created to work against us if you haven't already noticed. The second sermon is about enemy attacks and how to deal with them.


HAIL SATAN!!!!!

 

[Angela Madrid]

<td val[/IMG]Very well said....Hail Satan!


~Angela [/TD]

From: firebird894 <firebird894@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Suicidal emails
Sent: Tue, May 1, 2012 9:54:02 PM

<td val[/IMG]   Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

[/TD]

 

[Indigo Nation]

That was well said Firebird I have had several dealings with suicidal people in real life (not really on the internet so much), To be honest most times when I have to deal with that theme I am nice or try to be and listen to the person, my observation sometimes though not always it actually is the fault of the person feeling suicidal or having low self image for the reason that they will just not think for themselves it seems that family members often are the worst offenders in this, along with peer groups, the reason someone would be feeling suicidal is there a lot of pressure or negativity directed at them from somewhere, or they are at a low level spiritually, how many times do I have to tell people appearance (aka the way you look what you wear etc), what you have materially, peer expectations and all that doesn't matter the person should think for themselves and be proud of who they are changing only what they want to about themselves. Really think about it is someone who does not accept you for who you are or thinks negatively about you your friend how many times do I have to tell people no on this issue. It seems like many people are just stuck. I like being clever around those kinds of people like laugh at insults turn them around etc then just cutting them off altoghether that is my way of doing it everyone has their own individual ways but however you go about it if you can disassociate completely from people like that or at least do not feed into or waste time with them its not worth it. Also no one who who is a Spiritual Satanist truly at heart and puts forth effort to grow and advance and fight the enemies of Satan is looked down upon by Satan and the Gods, stop worrying about this and focus on yourself, meditate and really work to open your mind the enemy will pull this, until you are able to communicate with your Guardian Demon or Satan relax, when you get to know your gaurdian you will know you are accepted, its whats in your heart that matters. I myself take on that philosophy (then again it kind of came natural to me) and I am not a God but it seems like it takes so much drama and BS out of life, actually close to 80% or more of it for me, and I am a lot happier that way, i feel younger more full of Joy. Also words only have the power you give them so in effect I don't feed into negativity about me but see it as entertainment more so I do not think there are many that could but that is just me, there are other ways of dealing with this too that would free yourself from it. Void meditation is helpful as well as invoking the element of air, in helping stall negative thoughts and free you of all this. The Yehubor thing I have heard of too the enemy pulls this often on people, if this is bothering or eating away at you it is certain you are not, if Satan has done anything for you or a Demon you are not cause they wouldn't even waste time on a Yehubor.
Most importantly try to have a positive image of yourself, try to think for yourself about who you are, try not to change for others or feel pressured into things, and try not to let people get to you and meditate every day do a program keep your energies up. Irregular meditation can cause fluctuations that cause disturbing thoughts or suicidal feelings as well. That is my imput, and yes I have felt suicidal in the past many of these things is what I did to make myself feel better. I do not think at all what works for me will work for everyone so that is why I say go about this in your own way, but I think generally this is good advice.

It is said right here in the 19th key:
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... thKey.html
"The Earth, let her be governed by her Parts. The course of her, let it run with pleasure, And as a handmaid let her serve Satan. One Season, let it confound another; and let there be no Creature upon or within her the same. All her members, let them differ in their qualities; And let there be no one creature equal with Another"
That is right there is NO ONE person that is the same so be you and you will feel a lot better. Also there are NO mediators between you and Satan or any of the demons, your relationship with Satan and His Demons is between you and them. Do not let the enemy tell you you are worthless.

Here is another quote I like and am often saying to people in my life:
"Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful. They can all get fucked, just stay true to you"
that was off the song Eminem Beautiful.
You get the point that quote is basically what I am saying
Hail Satan and Good Luck Brothers and Sisters
Stay strong and fight for Satan meditate and progress and be you no matter what.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Angela Madrid <nazjiam@... wrote:

Very well said....Hail Satan!


~Angela

 

[darrklady13]

Thnx Firebird, and Don for the encouragement. I have been feeling like givin up this morning, for my daughter was late for school AGAIN this week.

Doesn't seem like a big deal to people I know, but we have been trying hard to get there on time this week. Early bed, etc....seems we can't get our act together this week.
Saturday my two daughters were in an car accident with their father coming back from Disneyland. THANKFULLY no one was hurt, but that car is totalled. HAIL SATAN THEY WERE NOT HARMED.

Its been a stressful week, and now my ex, my daughters father, is in rehab for a whole year! While I hope he does the right thing and sticks to it, he is not working while he is there, and child suppt payments are on halt!! So, I have to do somethings to supplement my income as I am a single woman raising 4 kids alone.

I really feel like giving up right now, but your post has given me inspiration , Firebird.

When it was just my boys and me, life was so much easier. Now its even more of a struggle.

But what are we to do if we just give up? accept failure???

HELL NO!!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Forums Contributor <mageson6666@... wrote:

Keep doing what your doing, the laws of energy are not a fast food, drive thru window. Time, is on your side. Satan and Hell cares deeply for you. As they do us all.
 
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________________________________
From: C Y <yc28@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Tuesday, May 1, 2012 6:09:07 PM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Suicidal emails


 
I have gotten those thoughts that i was not good for Father Satan and really couldn't do anything it has always bothered me since i was new to Satanism. I always try to avoid it but i do not get it! Is just that i am doing aura protection and aura meditation and how can i still be getting this thoughts? I am going to focus a little more now on void meditation and thank you for that i needed it FireBird.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "firebird894" <firebird894@ wrote:

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from, I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out. I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell. He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.

Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and have to come back and go through this shit over and over again? Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.

 

[Allison P]

Well said, Firebird! I have not had any suicidal thoughts, ever, but
lately I have been having thoughts that do not belong. But it's just
enemy bs. I don't care how bad things may get, or how despondent I may
feel. I would never try to kill myself, because that starts the cycle
over again. And fuck that! I am with Father to the end! Hail Father
Satan!

On 5/6/12, Mathew Pulley <mat.p666@... wrote:
same her I have 2 kids and they are growing up with the truth as well. xians
are like predators they will lie and decieve anyone they come across but
they will never get into my world or my familys.
Hail Enki

From: darrklady13 <darkladyschild@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Saturday, May 5, 2012 1:12 PM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Suicidal emails



Proud parent of one grown spiritual satanist, and 3 minor children. I teach
them the truth of this world, the yehuborim, and Satan. My kids aren't going to
be fucken sheep. No way!

hailz

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sorceressofenki88"
<kcmsopranobella@... wrote:

I didn't know you had kids, darklady! Awwww! How old are they? What do
they look like, anything like you? How much of the truth have you told
them?! Pictures?

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "darrklady13" <darkladyschild@
wrote:

Thnx Firebird, and Don for the encouragement. I have been feeling like
givin up this morning, for my daughter was late for school AGAIN this
week.

Doesn't seem like a big deal to people I know, but we have been trying
hard to get there on time this week. Early bed, etc....seems we can't
get our act together this week.
Saturday my two daughters were in an car accident with their father
coming back from Disneyland. THANKFULLY no one was hurt, but that car is
totalled. HAIL SATAN THEY WERE NOT HARMED.

Its been a stressful week, and now my ex, my daughters father, is in
rehab for a whole year! While I hope he does the right thing and sticks
to it, he is not working while he is there, and child suppt payments are
on halt!! So, I have to do somethings to supplement my income as I am a
single woman raising 4 kids alone.

I really feel like giving up right now, but your post has given me
inspiration , Firebird.

When it was just my boys and me, life was so much easier. Now its even
more of a struggle.

But what are we to do if we just give up? accept failure???

HELL NO!!!!



--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Forums Contributor <mageson6666@ wrote:

Keep doing what your doing, the laws of energy are not a fast food,
drive thru window. Time, is on your side. Satan and Hell cares deeply
for you. As they do us all.
Â
88


________________________________
From: C Y <yc28@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Tuesday, May 1, 2012 6:09:07 PM
Subject: [HellsArmy666] Re: Suicidal emails


Â
I have gotten those thoughts that i was not good for Father Satan and
really couldn't do anything it has always bothered me since i was new
to Satanism. I always try to avoid it but i do not get it! Is just
that i am doing aura protection and aura meditation and how can i
still be getting this thoughts? I am going to focus a little more now
on void meditation and thank you for that i needed it FireBird.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "firebird894" <firebird894@
wrote:

Ok I have been getting emails for a while, I will not say who from,
I dont know if its all same person or different people freaking out.
I don't know why people email me, I havnt been here that long and
don't know that much.

So this is for anyone reading the forum who feels like taking
themselves out of the picture... because you think your shit, not
good enough Satan dosnt want you etc.

We all have hard times, Gentiles have had a gutfull for a long long
time, some of us might have been around in different lives for a
long time and some of us are getting pretty tired and cranky and a
bit fed up with shit. Some are newer souls and maybe freaking out a
bit and finding themselves confused.

If you are a Gentile, and you are breathing then you need to be
here. You need to get your shit in gear, quit crying its too hard
and do something. Anything whatever you can do however small you
think it is you are better off to Satan, to the Gods and to every
other Gentile by the fact you are here and breathing than if you
were DEAD stagnant and doing nothing. Satan dosn't care if you are
poor, ugly, or what society thinks of you.

I have been suicidal, I know depression I know pain I know misery I
know poverty I understand HARD. I nearly took myself out this week
had it planned out and everything was ready to say my goodbyes. I
changed my mind. What use am I to Father if I am dead? I can't
advance spiritually if I am dead, I can't help with the fight here
if I am dead, I can't put notes in books at the library if I am
dead,

I can't do shit if I am dead.

I figure Satan led me to the JOS on 23rd of December for a reason
and if I turn my toes up before my time I am betraying Satan. I look
in the mirror and wonder what is the use of me. Thats the Yehubor
system making us feel and see ourselves that way. I know it can all
be overwhelming and confusing and fucking scary when you are new to
all this. What we learn here and from Satan flies in the face of all
we have been taught and knew before and it is a mind fuck and a
half. IF IT GETS SO BAD YOU CAN't COPE go to Satan, talk to him, ask
for help he will not let you down but you must be ready to accept
it, to accept his help. Nothing is free you must do your bit aswell.
He is not going to wave a magic wand over you and give you
everything you ever wanted and make it all easy as pie. You will not
grow that way. He wants us to grow and get stronger and rise
ourselves up it is the only way to Godhood noone can do it for you.


Do you really want to die before you get anywhere spiritually and
have to come back and go through this shit over and over again?
Think about that. I fucking don't! It's up to you, we save our own
souls, Satan helps us along the way and shows us how to do it, lends
a hand when times get too hard, comforts us when we need it but we
have to pull our shit together. There are Demons who can and will
help you I KNOW THIS!

I cannot and will not respond to anymore emails saying please kill
me or I want to die. Enough I am only writing this because I take
suicide seriously in case any of the emails were genuine, if life
gets that bad get help a stranger on the net can't fix your life.

If you want sympathy or you are enemy or some kind of psychic
vampire you will get nothing from me I have enough shit to deal with
of my own. If you think I am too harsh then go call a helpline and
talk to someone who will tell you lifes a bed of roses or what you
want to hear. I might be harsh but I do care and I do understand I
wouldnt have taken time out of my day to write this if I didn't.

This is a reply to anyone who has emailed me not one particular
person it isnt personal. or for anyone else who is having bad
thoughts who might read it to stop and think about it.

Hail Satan.