Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to

[Christopher1]

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Lamont Green]

Talk to him. Talk to father as if he was right next to you. I was in the same boat you are a year ago.suicide was something I considered weekly. It is NOT worth it. you need a body to become a god, thus you need to live.
Use the runes nauthiz and affirm you have the will to cary on. It sounds lame, but it works. There was something I saw on the jos site about a personal experience where satan himself showed a brother what death was really like. it was gross, decay. DO NOT make your self known to this negitive energy.
Hail Satan!

On Nov 17, 2012 1:29 AM, "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\



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[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Although you do not need to be going back and forth you have the wrong idea about Satan.If you are a Gentile then He loves you and wants you back.Guilt is the enemy and not Him but please make a decision to come back for good this time.Please don't commit suicide because then the enemy will win and you don't want that.I myself have fought against Satan and the Demons most of my life but He still let me join His wonderful family.So He just wants you to make the decision to fight with us as a strong Gentile and not a slave to that fake God.Good luck!!!!!!


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From: Christopher <cseglins@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan
Sent: Sat, Nov 17, 2012 8:48:13 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

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[High Priestess Myla Limlal]

obvious the enemy is f*ckng w u, trying to keep you away from truth!
read Joyfofsatan.org when ever you can carefully
Satan does care !!

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Although you do not need to be going back and forth you have the wrong idea about Satan.If you are a Gentile then He loves you and wants you back.Guilt is the enemy and not Him but please make a decision to come back for good this time.Please don't commit suicide because then the enemy will win and you don't want that.I myself have fought against Satan and the Demons most of my life but He still let me join His wonderful family.So He just wants you to make the decision to fight with us as a strong Gentile and not a slave to that fake God.Good luck!!!!!!


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[High Priestess Myla Limlal]

joyofsatan.org

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Danyl Eder]

i know what u mean. u can talk to me. and yes christianity is a big fat lie. Satan is a real being and very loving. I personally received a very blatant sign from satan that he was a real being. one of the things i like to do is run in the rain when its thunder storming outside and one day i was doing this, and i came upon a tree when it was pouring down raining and carved out in the tree stump was the letters EA. I was suprised knowing that EA is a name for satan and that i was miraculously carved out in a tree stump. it was awesome and a big fat sign. I did have some minor doubt( u know the maybe im just imagining things type) tho so i went back to that same tree stump to see if it was still there. The EA was gone but to me it would be odd if it was still there. not the sign was only meant for me and it was not imagined but was as real as can be. im sure u will get a sign soon. just be patient. and  u are not only weak for hurting yourself, your self destructing, and thats what the enemy wants. stop hurting yourself. and the feeling of being cursed and unwanted is probably real. u are probably cursed and thats why ur unwanted. but dont think that that cant change. besides if u were totally cursed and unwanted i would not be sending u this email would i? and the fear of death is something that will pass once u advance in satanism. all of your fears will be gone once u advance enough in satanism. u shall be a fearless man one day. and trust me all those who are christian brainwashed are weak. its sad but its true. i use to be a christian and it really does suck how much i was weak, how much i was a slave, how much my enemies had it out for me, how much my life was ruined, and the worst part of it all is it all could have been avoided( my ruined life) if i only had the knowledge, the power, and the strength to get out of my horrible situation, and have a good life. u have a good chance, better than i do trust me, so please dont throw it away. also the computer problems are the enemy. i have them too. satans not angry with u. considering your christian( hopefully ur not, but u were) none of your past is your fault. nothing that u have done worng in the past is reall your fault. u cant be a christian and actually have free will. u know. satan loves u im sure, he loves me. if u want satans attention then i can give u some advice. advance enough where u can spiritually fight his enemies and curse his enemies and he will surely give u his attention much quicker. not only will fighing for satan get his attention ull be rewarded and ull learn alot in the process. ull learn alot about your enemies, about life, about the truth. i mean did u dedicate to satan yet? if u have then u should start meditating, doing the hells army meditation, empowering your soul and such. once u do meditation for sveral months if done consistently u will feel like a brand new person. depression, emotional problems and alot of your problems will be quite gone and u will be happy, and a better person. and your not selfish for wanting a sign. ull get it. in time. Satan is the best god there is, keep praying to him and ull see results. unlike christianity/ jewsus. satan answers your prayers. he anwers nearly all of mine. theres rarely a prayer/ request he doesnt answer. oku can email me if u want. good luckZarion J20 from Baltimore MD.
From: Christopher <cseglins@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 3:48 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan

  I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[littlejoker666]

I was like you to not to long ago, I know how you feel, One of the problems i had was I had no self confidence I had to breath in fire and red energy it help me out a lot. Also doing Satan's magickal squares spiritual help me out a lot mentally, just be strong the enemy feeds off tears and weakness.
Hail Satan

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Anike Anike]

Alright mate. PICK YOUR CHIN UP. Look at yourself in the mirror. Look yourself in the mirror. Don't kill yourself. You have found this e-group not by chance let me tell you. Do you really want to kill yourself and forget everything you are? Everything you did? Kike control has been going on for well to long. They have you in their clutches. What you have to do, is break loose. Read JoyOfSatan.com. Read all of it I ask you. Read exposingchristianity.com. I read you can see the errors and lies of the Chrisitans. If you can see them, why follow them? You say you prayed to Father, and then you went back to Jewhova. You can't do that. You are either with us or against us. If you were possessed it was an Angel. It wasn't a Demon. Our Demons are loving and caring and would never hurt us. Cutting yourself won't help. It will only let you forget about everything for a while, but then those scars will remind you. Throw those goddamn scissors away and be strong. Pick yourself up. We fall to pick ourselves up. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Throw away anything Christian and start a new life. Come to us, be our brother. Meditate with us so we can turn this world back to what it was before all those filthy Kikes. I can assure you Satan DOES care about you as long as you are dedicated and rejected the false Christian god. We are all weak before we come to Satan. He makes us stronger. He teaches us. The Demons teach us. Pray to Father, just talk. If you really want to be with us dedicate. Meditation will make you stronger to the point you will no longer need to cut yourself. Now, straighten up and become our brother if you wish so.
Hail Satan!

 

[nicknesredna]

Have you read the Joy of Satan website? Do you know that we are Spiritual Satanists, and do you know what that is? The reason I ask is, that you mention you are afraid of possession.

If you haven't read the Joy of Satan website, here is the link:
www.joyofsatan.org

Demons do not possess people, so there is absolutely NO reason to fear that.
On the Joy of Satan website, you will find that The Demons are the original Gods of humanity, and teachers.

I seriously urge you to cut all ties with Christianity.
When you cut your arms to show your "weakness" (you are not weak, for you are still here) to the thought-form of Christianity, you will be further cursed by it whether you know it or not.
The Christian "religion" is a very detrimental program, and will do everything it can to keep you away from Satan.

Almost everybody who discover Spiritual Satanism describe it as the most joyful and happy experience in their lives. Satan wishes for all gentiles to be happy and to evolve in every way.

It is not selfish of you to want a sign.
But maybe finding this group is your sign? Also the fact that you have seen all the contradictions in Christianity?

I believe all of your questions are answered on the Joy of Satan website (www.joyofsatan.org).
Read it thoroughly.

Nick

--- In [email protected], "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[darrklady13]

Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Joey Lovell]

Darrklady13, that's powerful.  You are very wise.
From: darrklady13 <darkladyschild@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 7:13 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan
  Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[darrklady13]

Thank you Siatris.

It just came to me, what I must do, when I did it, to heal myself, and rid myself of the depression

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Siatris Teloah <siatris_teloah@... wrote:

Darrklady13, that's powerful.  You are very wise.



________________________________
From: darrklady13 <darkladyschild@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 7:13 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan


 

Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In mailto:JoyofSatan666%40yahoogroups.com, "Christopher" <cseglins@ wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\