Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to

[Christopher1]

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Lamont Green]

Talk to him. Talk to father as if he was right next to you. I was in the same boat you are a year ago.suicide was something I considered weekly. It is NOT worth it. you need a body to become a god, thus you need to live.
Use the runes nauthiz and affirm you have the will to cary on. It sounds lame, but it works. There was something I saw on the jos site about a personal experience where satan himself showed a brother what death was really like. it was gross, decay. DO NOT make your self known to this negitive energy.
Hail Satan!

On Nov 17, 2012 1:29 AM, "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\



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[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Although you do not need to be going back and forth you have the wrong idea about Satan.If you are a Gentile then He loves you and wants you back.Guilt is the enemy and not Him but please make a decision to come back for good this time.Please don't commit suicide because then the enemy will win and you don't want that.I myself have fought against Satan and the Demons most of my life but He still let me join His wonderful family.So He just wants you to make the decision to fight with us as a strong Gentile and not a slave to that fake God.Good luck!!!!!!

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From: Christopher <cseglins@...;
To: ;
Subject: Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan
Sent: Sat, Nov 17, 2012 8:48:13 AM

<td val[/IMG]   I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

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[Myla Limlal]

obvious the enemy is f*ckng w u, trying to keep you away from truth!
read Joyfofsatan.org when ever you can carefully
Satan does care !!

Hail Satan!

--- In , Brian Gibbons <briangibbons20@... wrote:

Although you do not need to be going back and forth you have the wrong idea about Satan.If you are a Gentile then He loves you and wants you back.Guilt is the enemy and not Him but please make a decision to come back for good this time.Please don't commit suicide because then the enemy will win and you don't want that.I myself have fought against Satan and the Demons most of my life but He still let me join His wonderful family.So He just wants you to make the decision to fight with us as a strong Gentile and not a slave to that fake God.Good luck!!!!!!


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[Myla Limlal]

templeofzeus.org

--- In , "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[littlejoker666]

I was like you to not to long ago, I know how you feel, One of the problems i had was I had no self confidence I had to breath in fire and red energy it help me out a lot. Also doing Satan's magickal squares spiritual help me out a lot mentally, just be strong the enemy feeds off tears and weakness.
Hail Satan

--- In , "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[nicknesredna]

Have you read the Joy of Satan website? Do you know that we are Spiritual Satanists, and do you know what that is? The reason I ask is, that you mention you are afraid of possession.

If you haven't read the Joy of Satan website, here is the link:
www.templeofzeus.org

Demons do not possess people, so there is absolutely NO reason to fear that.
On the Joy of Satan website, you will find that The Demons are the original Gods of humanity, and teachers.

I seriously urge you to cut all ties with Christianity.
When you cut your arms to show your "weakness" (you are not weak, for you are still here) to the thought-form of Christianity, you will be further cursed by it whether you know it or not.
The Christian "religion" is a very detrimental program, and will do everything it can to keep you away from Satan.

Almost everybody who discover Spiritual Satanism describe it as the most joyful and happy experience in their lives. Satan wishes for all gentiles to be happy and to evolve in every way.

It is not selfish of you to want a sign.
But maybe finding this group is your sign? Also the fact that you have seen all the contradictions in Christianity?

I believe all of your questions are answered on the Joy of Satan website (www.templeofzeus.org).
Read it thoroughly.

Nick

--- In , "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[darrklady13]

Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In , "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[Joey Lovell]

Darrklady13, that's powerful.  You are very wise.
From: darrklady13 <darkladyschild@...
To:
Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 7:13 PM
Subject: Re: Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan
  Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In mailto:, "Christopher" <cseglins@... wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\

 

[darrklady13]

Thank you Siatris.

It just came to me, what I must do, when I did it, to heal myself, and rid myself of the depression

--- In , Siatris Teloah <siatris_teloah@... wrote:

Darrklady13, that's powerful.  You are very wise.



________________________________
From: darrklady13 <darkladyschild@...
To:
Sent: Saturday, November 17, 2012 7:13 PM
Subject: Re: Suffering from Depression/lonliness and would really want to pray to Enki/Satan


 

Something I did not too long ago. It worked wonders.

Walking outside, or even standing, close your eyes, and say

"I CALL UPON THE POWERS OF HELL, THE POWER OF SATAN, TO HEAL MY HEART, AND EASE THE SADNESS/DEPRESSION WITHIN ME."

As you say this, even SAY IT ALOUD if you are alone......Visualize Satan's Gold Aura,...his gold energy......coming into your aura, your flesh, your soul, your inside being.

As if YOU are a SPONGE, and the energy is the water you absorb.

"I call upon the powers of Satan, I call upon the powers of my guardian daemons, to heal me of this ..... (whatever it is), to cleanse my mind and heart, my utter being. I call upon the power of ISIS, (ASTOROTH) to protect me, guide me and DESTROY MY ENEMIES."

Something akin to this, you understand?

Another thing I do, when feeling attacked or threatened, is I remember this sitcom that would come on Saturday mornings, in the 1970's called, "ISIS". It was about a woman who would channel Isis' energy, and do good deeds for others.

Her catch phrase was..."O MIGHTY ISIS!!"

I use this catch phrase...with PASSION, when I feel I am attacked.

Works like a charm.

hailz

--- In mailto:, "Christopher" <cseglins@ wrote:

I am 18 (male) and have no friends to talk to about problems. I have never had a girlfriend and I know this is all personal but I just wanted to talk on here as I do find the Occult ritual meditations very relaxing.

I suffer from paranio and fear of demonic possession ect since being a Christian. Though I cannot pray to my Christian God since me discovering the amount of contradictions is what makes me see the lies and errors!

I had prayed to Enki/Satan in the passed but have felt a fool when I turned my back and went back to the Christian God or when I feel helpless and I will cut into my arms with scissors making it bleed to show my full weakness.

Inside I just feel cursed and unwanted and have considered killing myself though I am very afraid of dying and the afterlife or being a ghost for eternity..

I feel like Satan wouldn't care about me considering how weak I am and I blamed him when things did not go my way or when strange occurances would happen and technology on the PC would fail and I would lose work I was doing.

Anyway thanks whoever was reading this. If there is anything else I could say to the Father so maybe he could (sorry for sounding selfish) show me a sign. I don't want to sound selfish but deeply I feel very alone and have no friends to talk to emotionally or to help me..

Thanks :/
/m\