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[saixkosmos]

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Thanks for sharing . I'm currently battling a bit of depression myself, yesterday was bad, all day. I'm about to do a working in the hour of Sun today, to vibrate the rune Wunjo for confidence and banishing depression. It might help you too.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "saixkosmos" <saixkosmos@... wrote:

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.

 

[Shannon Outlaw]

awwww thats <var [/IMG]</var>so beautiful. Imhappy to hear that Saix happy you are okay! Would love to se your paintings sometime.  HS
From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Monday, August 8, 2011 2:58 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: something to say

  Thanks for sharing . I'm currently battling a bit of depression myself, yesterday was bad, all day. I'm about to do a working in the hour of Sun today, to vibrate the rune Wunjo for confidence and banishing depression. It might help you too.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "saixkosmos" <saixkosmos@... wrote:

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.

 

[Lexa Osterreich]

Happens when meditation is stopped, I hope people learn from that and don't stop meditations thanks for sharing!
That happened to me at one point, I just kinda stopped.... things sucked, it's a lot of work to get back into it, harder than it was to start, but, you'll be better than before now we know! and yeah HUUUUUUUUUGE THANKS TO LUCIFER, he helped me so many times when I feel like I didn't really deserve it. No words can describe how amazing he is, I can't even say amazing, just far beyond that! FOR SUURE
AVE SATANAS <3

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:

awwww thats so beautiful. Imhappy to hear that Saix happy you are okay! Would love to se your paintings sometime. 
HS

From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Monday, August 8, 2011 2:58 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: something to say


 
Thanks for sharing . I'm currently battling a bit of depression myself, yesterday was bad, all day. I'm about to do a working in the hour of Sun today, to vibrate the rune Wunjo for confidence and banishing depression. It might help you too.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "saixkosmos" <saixkosmos@ wrote:

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of
my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.

 

[Tammy Arnold]

I can vouch for that! It is very difficult when one stops meditating! It was hard to start again, but I have and though I still struggle, I blame it on myself for stopping in the first place.  I won't do this again, that's for sure, but I am ever grateful to Father Satan for not giving up on me, even when I am stupid...lol
Hail, Satan!
Hail, the Mighty Gods of Hell!
From: Lexa Osterreich <lexaosterreich@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Tuesday, August 9, 2011 1:58 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: something to say

  Happens when meditation is stopped, I hope people learn from that and don't stop meditations thanks for sharing!
That happened to me at one point, I just kinda stopped.... things sucked, it's a lot of work to get back into it, harder than it was to start, but, you'll be better than before now we know! and yeah HUUUUUUUUUGE THANKS TO LUCIFER, he helped me so many times when I feel like I didn't really deserve it. No words can describe how amazing he is, I can't even say amazing, just far beyond that! FOR SUURE
AVE SATANAS <3

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@... wrote:

awwww thats so beautiful. Imhappy to hear that Saix happy you are okay! Would love to se your paintings sometime. 
HS

From: "lydia_666@..." <lydia_666@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Monday, August 8, 2011 2:58 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: something to say


 
Thanks for sharing . I'm currently battling a bit of depression myself, yesterday was bad, all day. I'm about to do a working in the hour of Sun today, to vibrate the rune Wunjo for confidence and banishing depression. It might help you too.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "saixkosmos" <saixkosmos@ wrote:

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of
my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.

 

[HPS Lydia]

Well, I had that experience, like I posted in reply, but I have never stopped my meditations, and I would never stop them. So maybe it was just some form of attack, in my case? Either way, it's over, I'm back to normal.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Lexa Osterreich" <lexaosterreich@... wrote:

Happens when meditation is stopped, I hope people learn from that and don't stop meditations thanks for sharing!
That happened to me at one point, I just kinda stopped.... things sucked, it's a lot of work to get back into it, harder than it was to start, but, you'll be better than before now we know! and yeah HUUUUUUUUUGE THANKS TO LUCIFER, he helped me so many times when I feel like I didn't really deserve it. No words can describe how amazing he is, I can't even say amazing, just far beyond that! FOR SUURE
AVE SATANAS <3

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Shannon Outlaw <soutlaw92@ wrote:

awwww thats so beautiful. Imhappy to hear that Saix happy you are okay! Would love to se your paintings sometime. 
HS

From: "lydia_666@" <lydia_666@
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Monday, August 8, 2011 2:58 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: something to say


 
Thanks for sharing . I'm currently battling a bit of depression myself, yesterday was bad, all day. I'm about to do a working in the hour of Sun today, to vibrate the rune Wunjo for confidence and banishing depression. It might help you too.

Hail Satan!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "saixkosmos" <saixkosmos@ wrote:

I wanted to share this...

A month ago I fell in one of the worst bouts of depression I've ever had, I was losing what little hope I had and I was neglecting everything I used to like, I didn't wanted to paint and I started to toss away every drawing I could get my hands on and I either burned them or throw them into the trash can. It went on like that for almost two weeks until one night as I was sitting on my bed crying and almost out of breath saying that "I was nothing" and that "I didn't deserved to be happy or either be alive" mentally I said more than once "please help me" and after that there was some noise coming from headboard of my bed, it was faint at first and then it got louder. I stopped moving and got off the bed to check what it was and the noise continued it was going like someone was knocking the wood of the headboard "tic, tic, tic, toc" it went on for a while until I noticed that the little knocking noises were forming a melody that sounded a lot like one of
my favorite songs. I stood in front of the bed staring at the place where the noise was coming from and when the noise stopped i felt a hand on my head and all I could do was bow my head and say "Thank you"

All I can say is that the presence I felt didn't left the room after I gave my thanks, it left after I went to bed and fell a sleep. After that everything has been better, I'm finally catching up with meditation and I am able to draw again.

Thanks Father Lucifer.