Jack said:
Goldenglazed666 said:
Kinda sucks for me as I have never even met another person of my race except for my mother who i havent even seen since i was one year old.
It can be difficult as other races are often attracted to me, (even tho I am of 2 different races, I assume Asian is my dominant race), I'll just act uninterested when it comes down to making moves.. which often, inadvertently, often makes people more attracted lol . :roll:
But really tho, it is difficult where i live, other Asians I see tend to be very rich / highly material and wouldn't associate with me, are super Christian (I live near a christian college that attracts alot of foreigners), or just seem too different as sometimes i will feel as if i'm even not asian enough?!.. Many Asian sub-races are very distinct from each other to the point it feels like a whole different race as well, cause i will even feel grossed out by talking to a different sub-race if i think about having sexual interest in them..
,.. I plan to visit my birthplace next year I hope to find someone as well, not speaking the native language seems a bit intimidating to me too
Do you mean your Asian+White ?
Yes, i grew up a bit confused on who i was, I was made fun of for being asian as a child, so whenever I switched schools, I kept it a secret and told everyone I was just white cause I thought it would help me fit in.
..pretty silly looking back at it now, i even just started telling my closest friends the truth just a few years ago.
I think it fucked me up a bit mentally because i convinced myself i was white and distanced myself from anything asian to avoid the topic being brought up by others (I'm very non-confrontational) and i even despised other Asians a bit..it just became an automatic thing that i didnt even think about.. i feel i wasted alot of potential by living in denial, but I am just glad i am on the path I am now with Satan and at way better terms with myself, in other aspects as well..
..sorry if i seem to vent on here, i dont really have friends anymore and this is the only place where i can truly speak how i feel about things, so i tend to ramble trying to say everything i need to say lol..