Saturn in first house

[black_knight_4]

Hello everyone, I don't where to start off. Is there an alternative to void meditation? I'm having some troubles, I freaked out today, trying to start on the hour of jupiter to maximize my success in void meditation, but didn't make it. Then when I sat down again, I realized I had my head up my ass and was focused on "fun"/ I don't how to explain it, this little nerve of wanting to not meditate, maybe an enemy voice? It's like the enemy is speaking lies into my hear, and saying "Nothings wrong", and everytime I try to meditate, I get fcked over for some reason. My saturn is in my first house.

 

[satanicninja]

"[...]Do not become frustrated or impatient with yourself. It is normal for thoughts to creep in to distract you in the beginning. Total concentration takes time and for most people, is one of the most difficult aspects of training the mind."

Flame Meditation
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ation.html


Satanic Void Meditation
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666 /Satanic_Void_Meditation.html


If it's very bad, try doing a Munka working, and/or other workings of similar purpose.

How to Obliterate Your Saturn
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic15507.html


You can try doing positive affirmations when you have an energy buzz. You can also raise your energies and program it with affirmations.

Raising Energies
http://dawn666blacksun.angelfire.com/Ra ... ergies.htm

 

[satanicninja]

Some of these things are programmed in our minds from before we dedicated.

You can try doing the things I mentioned in the other reply, and also try to focus more on Satan and the Gods and other positive things.

Truth Equals Sacrifice
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16024.html

Advancing on the High Spiritual Levels
http://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic16302.html  

 

[Taol]

Are you having any sleeping problems by any chance?